This is what it took

A/N: Hiya guys! I hope you will like this story! One word of advice though, I have only started watching ncis la last week so I don't know everything about it, so feel free to correct me on some factual errors. Anyway let's get going with the story. This is set in season 5, but nothing happens what actually happens in the season, if you get what I mean.

Disclaimer: Judging from my status, I don't OWN ncis la.

It was 11.30pm when Marty Deeks got home from an exhausting day. The case had been though involving a little girl killed before we could save her. A tear came to his eye just thinking about it. Only 4 and her life had to end in such a heartless and discraceful way.

More important than him though, Kensi was in a real state the whole time. He knows this might just be a female thing, but she seemed that a bit more worked up about it. Eventually, just 30 minutes ago, Kensi quickly left crying her eyes out. This woried him because it was not normal to see Kensi like that, all sensative and worked up about the tiniest things. Kensi was normally the hard woman who would not want to be messed around with. His girl was never like this ever.

„God!" he said to himself as he made himself a cup of coffee„I've done it again. Calling Kensi my girl" He had a reason to call her that though. Some of the others may already know this by the way he acted around Kensi, but she is more than just a partner to him. She intelligent, funny and most of all, beautiful. She has that look that makes her different from all oft he other women he's seen. She's unigue to him.

His thoughts were cut of when his cell phone started ringing.

„Hello" He answered.

„It's me Sam" Sam answered back.

Deeks could hear that distress in his voice. „What's happened?"

„Kensi has been involved in a head on collition 15 minutes ago. It was pretty bad so they are not sure if she's going to make it. She is being transported to hospital"

Deeks nearly dropped his phone as those words came flooding through his ears. Tears started to form in his eyes. He might never get the chance to say how he feels about her. „I'll be right there" he said before hanging up the phone without even saying goodbye.

He rushed tot he hospital breaking every speed limit that there was available and rushed into the building seeing the whole team there, most of them looking pretty distressed. Why wouldn't they be like this though? The possibility of losing someone close to you is like losing a piece of yourself. At this moment, Deeks reminded himself of something Kensi had said ones ‚You won't know you love something until you realise that you might lose them' This was how Deeks felt now. He didn't know he loved her until he realised he could lose her forever. He sat himself down on a chair without saying a word. After a few minutes, he spoke up.

„How is she?" He asked trying to keep all the tears in.

„No news yet" Sam said „She was rushed into surgery 30 minutes ago" Sam looked at Deeks seeing the distress in his eyes, asked him thhe million dollar question „Do you love her?"

Deeks looked into Sam' eyes not knowing how to answer that question without the risk of tears pooling out of his eyes. „Y…Ye…Yes" He replied stopping twice to let out a sob.

„Then you have got to stay strong for her. Kensi won't want to see you like this would she?" Sam said. „Anyway, she is a fighter, so she won't die too easily.

Deeks just gave a small nod and sat up fort he first time since sitting down. He was finally able to breath without sobbing. „Stay strong Marty, stay strong" he said to himself.

10 minutes pass without a word when this sudden scream half crying child's voice scared the living daylights scraed the living daylights out of the whole team.. Nell, who was trying sleeping, woke up nearly falling of her chair.

A girl with long dark brown hair looking no more than 5years old rushed to the main desk crying her eyes out.

„I WANT MOMMY! I WANT MOMMY! I KNOW SHE'S HERE!" the girl screamed and cried.

„Calm down sweetie" the female receptionist said to her calmly „If she's here we will know, but first what's your name?" Deeks had the impression that the receptionist was trying to calm her down without losing her temper.

„Victoria Elizabeth Blye Deeks" the girl said calmly but with tear still flowing out.

A/N: duh duh duuuuh! So what do you think? This is my first fanfic about NCIS LA so any improvements I could make would be helpful. The next chapter will be coming soon, maybe even before new years day Reviews please?