POV Hanna
My life is falling apart at the seems. My best friend was murdered, and the police are accusing me and my best friends of killing her. Luckily I'm able to be at my house. I am home all alone; I am honestly really nervous and lonely. I walked into the kitchen to get a few containers of chocolate pudding. I greedily started to eat at them, but one is just not enough. Within minutes the two that I got out were all gone.
Then another three- quickly gone.
Now we are out of pudding.
"Why? Why did I just have to do that?" I sobbed to myself. This is not the answer, I promised myself I would never do this again. I know that this is bad for me yet I did it anyway. Why me? My phone buzzed.
'Now, now Hanna, don't cry. There is a way to get rid of that.-A'
Great. -A knows what I just did. Oh wait, -A knows flipping everything! I don't know how -A know everything, but this sucks. All the same I go upstairs to my bathroom, and get my toothbrush. I get into my knees and stick my tooth brush down my throat, and empty the contents of my stomach. Crying while doing so. I had been doing so good for so long, now that's all over…
My phone buzzed again. I groaned. I hope that it isn't -A trying to torture me again. Before seeing who it was I quickly washed my mouth out and brushed my teeth. Then I looked back to my phone.
'Need to talk, I'm coming over. See you in five-Aria'
Well that's just great. That was three minutes ago. I only have two minutes to make myself look presentable again, not good exactly, but presentable, I guess I'll have the excuse of being at home alone with no where to go….
Knowing that, I quickly reapplied my lip-gloss and put on some foundation to cover the red blotches that are covering my face. I then sprayed myself and the room with my favorite perfume to cover the scent of my vomit.
I heard the front door open. "Hanna? Where are you?" I heard Aria call for me as she walked in the front door, not bothering to knock, expecting to see me in there waiting for her.
Running downstairs, I hoped that I looked alright, I didn't exactly very much time to get ready again. "Hey Aria, what's up?" I asked her as we both took seats on the sofa and made ourselves comfortable.
She sighed and I could see tears forming in her eyes, "Hanna, I need to confess something to you. I can't keep it a secret for any longer." she told me starting to cry the tears running down her face. She then really looked at me, "Are you alright? You look a little sick." she commented putting off whatever she needed to tell me.
The tears came back to my eyes, "I have something I need to tell you as well." I informed her, not telling her right off the bat, I want her to tell me whatever she needs to tell me first me putting off what I want to say myself. "Why don't you go first." I suggested after a moment.
She nodded her head, "With everything on I've just gotten so depressed, the only thing that's really keeping me here is you, the girls, and Ezra. I've been cutting myself. I don't like it, and I don't want to do it anymore, but I feel like I have to, and I just can't stop." she cried into my shoulder. Then she looked up at me with a red face, "What did you want to tell me now?" she asked me not expecting me to have an answer to what she just said so soon.
There tears in both of our eyes have tripled since they started. My best friend has deluded herself into cutting herself. My best friend is feeling just as bad as I do. I wouldn't wish that on anyone but -A. "Well, I've kind-of started to eat a lot of junk food then make myself throw-up again. I feel horrible about it, but I feel like -A is making me. Does -A know about you?" I said taking deep breaths attempting to talk through the tears. I didn't say directly about her cutting herself, I don't think I can bring myself to do that just yet.
She nodded her head. "Yes, and -A has been using it against me, always finding new reasons for me to do it. Is that what -A has been doing to you?" she asked me. The look on her face is total despair. I'm sure that I look the same.
I nodded my head. "What are we going to do? The things is, we know that all of this is bad for us, yet no one can know but us without things turning south really fast." I said crying not even bothering to try to control the tears any more they are coming too hard to try and make them stop.
Aria's head snapped up, "I have an idea! The two of us can move in together, and we can stop each other from doing these things to ourselves! I mean it's not like our parents can keep us here, we just have to get them on board. The apartment next to Ezra's is open, and I help Ezra do his taxes, so I for a fact know that the apartment is not very expensive." she suggested. This is a perfect idea.
For the first time today I smiled, "I really like this idea. So how should we bring this up with our parents?" I wondered knowing that they aren't going to just agree automatically to something as big as moving out.
She shrugged. "We can have them meet us to get a burger or something. Then tell them that with everything going on we need each others support more than ever, then tell them we're moving in together." she said starting to wipe the tears off of her eyes.
"Well I guess we should make ourselves a little more presentable. I'll do your makeup." I said knowing that if we are going to meet with our parents without letting them know that there is something up, we don't need to look like we've just been crying.
She too smiled, "I'll do your hair." she stated as the two of us ran upstairs to my room so we could make each other look good. This is always fun, and we definitely made each other feel a whole lot better.
When we finished making ourselves look good again, we both got into her car and texted our parents to meet us without giving the reason. I don't think that they will mind, I mean they know all about Aria and Ezra, the whole town does by now. Her parents actually like her with him now, which took a while though. So I'm sure that if we live right next to him that it will help everyone. Aria could even spend the night with him if she wanted, and Caleb with me…
So we got a table, ordered our drinks, and awaited their arrival. "Why am I nervous?" I asked her. I am fidgeting with my clothes, my hair, my nails, pretty much everything there was to fidget with.
She gave a weak laugh to my question, "I am too. You know what. I need to use the restroom I'll be right back." she said, but her voice was very off, I know this voice. It's a voice that I have used more times than once, and it isn't something to be proud of.
"Aria I know that look. You aren't going to the rest room. I don't want you to hurt yourself just because you're nervous." I said grabbing her arm and making her sit back down, stay there and be good.
She gave me a half way smile, "Thanks." she said. I could tell that she really meant it, but I could also tell that she was annoyed that I wouldn't let her go do what she wanted so badly to do.
Finally, both my mom and Aria's mom got there. "Your father isn't going to be able to make it; he had to take Mike to the doctor, he has a fever. What's going on?" her mom informed us, knowing that we wouldn't call both of our parents to meet up together if there wasn't something up.
Our moms took their seats across from us. "We have a proposition you the two of you. Well, more like we're telling the two of you, and hoping that you'll help us with this." I informed them.
My mom looked almost intrigued, and in a way a little bit concerned. "What are you telling us then?" she questioned.
"With everything going on, we've both been having a really hard time dealing with everything. Not just with the murder investigation, but all of the things going on with Mike. Hanna and I have talked about tit and we've decided that we want to more in together." Aria informed our mom's.
They both looked very surprised, and they were not expecting this. Aria's mom sighed, "I guess I should have seen this coming. You shouldn't have to be putting up with your brother right now, and I know you've been having a hard time. I'm going to say yes, and I'll help pay for everything." she told us. I smiled at this.
"I guess I'm going to say yes too, there has been a lot going on. I know there are a lot of things that haunt you at that house right now that you are needing to get away to deal with. So I will also help pay." she informed me.
Aria and I both smiled, and we were both happy that we are getting to do as we hoped. "Thank you both so much." we said in unison.
"So where are the two of you planning on living?" they asked us needing to know all of the details so they can help us.
Aria's cheeks turned a little red, "Well, the apartment next to Ezra's is free. We were thinking that, that would be the perfect place so that if we needed anything or something that he would be just next door. And I know for a fact that rent isn't very much." Aria stated.
Her mom nodded her head, "I like the idea that he would be next door just in case something happened. The apartments there aren't too big. Perfect for the two of you." her mom said.
"But even though we are letting you move out, I think Ella will be with me on this one, you will have dinner at home at least once a week, and you will call us everyday so we can know that you are alright." my mom stated setting some rules.
"Sound's like a plan. I guess I should probably give Ezra a call and let him know that we are going to be neighbors." Aria said with a smile, pulling her phone out of her purse and gave Ezra a call.
"So I guess the two of us need to get to the apartment manager so we can get them the room." my mom said to Aria's mom. She then looked to me, "You two meet us there." she ordered.
I laughed and nodded my head yes to her. When Aria got off the phone she giggled, "This is gonna be great. Ezra is excited." she informed me getting up, and the two of us walked back to her car and made our way over there.
When we got there Ezra was waiting outside for us. Aria ran ahead of me to kiss him. "Isn't this exciting?" she asked his as they pulled away.
He smiled and kissed her again, "Very exciting. Now how are you parents letting you do this again?" he asked in wonder.
By then I had caught up to them, "Because they know that there is a lot going on right now and they think that this will help us. Which is all true." I stated then walked ahead of them to where I could see mom.
We all got to them and they turned to smiled at us, "You can start packing your things, you can move in starting right now." they informed us.
Hearing this Aria and I hugged each other with excitement. "I've got to call Caleb to help me pack up my things!" I said walked back outside.
Aria looked back at Ezra, "You going to help me pack?" she asked him in a naughty voice that only Ezra could hear.
Her laughed, "Yes I'll help you." he stated. So I went with my mom to go home, and Aria and Ezra took their separate cars so that they can bring more things at once.