A/N: Angst and Romance, what a combination. But it's more dark than the
genre suggests. Depression seeks me, and it found me. Here's the result.
Enjoy. My pain formed into an AU for your pleasure. Don't mind my sarcasm.
Disclaimer: Someone invented heroine, and others make money off it. That isn't in any form what I'm doing here.
She watched from the window, watched as her son slowly deteriorated. In all aspects his father was to blame. But she couldn't pin that on him, her husband, father of her children, and the man she loved. He'd given up his life; his soul, for his family, friends, and the world he loved. But for his family the most, she'd always understood that.
He cared.
But Gohan, her baby, her first born, didn't see it that way. He blamed his father for leaving, for not coming back when he had the chance. And he blamed himself for driving him away.
He didn't though.
He'd been told everyone makes mistakes. But it wasn't a mistake; it was for a just cause. Feeding the beast the misery, suffering, pain, anxiety and most of all the fear that he'd put all others through.
True, he forgot. He forgot just how sly and cunning the beast was, striking like a serpent when he saw his chance.
She stared at him again.
Her baby, her Gohan, slowly going insane from guilt, sorrow, fear, and pain. For six agonizing years. Tears welled at her eyes. She felt pain; pain only a mother could feel for her child, feeling his hurt in her own heart. And pain of loosing another dear loved one.
"Mommy!"
She took a deep breath, hiding her previous thoughts, turning her attention to her youngest, and perhaps the only thing she had left.
Gohan.
Her baby, her son, her child, was dying from within. And what hurt the most, she couldn't do anything to make it stop.
Disclaimer: Someone invented heroine, and others make money off it. That isn't in any form what I'm doing here.
She watched from the window, watched as her son slowly deteriorated. In all aspects his father was to blame. But she couldn't pin that on him, her husband, father of her children, and the man she loved. He'd given up his life; his soul, for his family, friends, and the world he loved. But for his family the most, she'd always understood that.
He cared.
But Gohan, her baby, her first born, didn't see it that way. He blamed his father for leaving, for not coming back when he had the chance. And he blamed himself for driving him away.
He didn't though.
He'd been told everyone makes mistakes. But it wasn't a mistake; it was for a just cause. Feeding the beast the misery, suffering, pain, anxiety and most of all the fear that he'd put all others through.
True, he forgot. He forgot just how sly and cunning the beast was, striking like a serpent when he saw his chance.
She stared at him again.
Her baby, her Gohan, slowly going insane from guilt, sorrow, fear, and pain. For six agonizing years. Tears welled at her eyes. She felt pain; pain only a mother could feel for her child, feeling his hurt in her own heart. And pain of loosing another dear loved one.
"Mommy!"
She took a deep breath, hiding her previous thoughts, turning her attention to her youngest, and perhaps the only thing she had left.
Gohan.
Her baby, her son, her child, was dying from within. And what hurt the most, she couldn't do anything to make it stop.