Of Onyx & Emerald.
Sev/Lily fic. one shot.
AU.. Drabble.. just some random thoughts at 1:49 am Central Time.. how they felt.. how I would like to think they felt... things they may have written in diaries if they'd had them at Hogwarts or even after. Despite Severus' choice to become a death eater she loved him anyway R&R!
Only good girls keep diaries. Bad girls
don't have time.
~Tallulah Bankhead Boys too? Sure!
Merlin's beard he was beautiful. Maybe not so much on the outside, but the inside. Where it counted. He may have been dirty and unkempt, but he was truly brillant when it came to potions. Later, he would become a master at Occlumency and Legilimency, and no one would ever realize how truly gifted he was. He died for me and maybe in a way, I for him. He protected my son until the very end. Harry would never know how he felt until it was too late. Until the Pensieve, Harry hated him. Never realizing that Sev was so good at lying to everyone he eventually began lying to himself when he'd acted as though he hated my son. He was so brilliant. Convincing.
-Lily
"Cowards die many times before their deaths,
The valiant never taste of death but once." - Shakespeare
She was everything I'd hoped for. Dreamed of. Fantisized about. Hair of Fire and Eyes of Emerald. She took my breath away. I loved her from the moment I laid eyes on her as a young boy 'til my very last breath, gazing into her son's eyes. Had I not made the mistakes I did, said things that I regret even now, things may be different. I wish I would have had the courage to tell her I loved her. I mean really loved her. She was the only person who was ever nice to me inspite of my outward appearance. Somehow the sweet little girl grew into the most beautiful woman I'd ever seen. Had I not become a death eater who knows what could have happened. Could she have found it in her heart to return the love that I felt for her? The love I longed to confess when I had my chances. Maybe even marry me? We would never know and that is something I will have to live with. Forever.
-Severus
The greatest happiness of life it the conviction that we are loved - loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves.
- Victor Hugo
There was always a part of me that loved him. Cared for him. Wanted to save him from the life he chose. Even after he called me a vile name. Mudblood. He said it so harshly I believed him. It broke my heart. Little did I know than he was hurt, angry, jealous, and miserable. James and his friends made it almost impossible for him to be a normal student. He just wanted to be left alone. To learn. To live. To love. He had tried to apologize, but his insult had cut me deeply. Somehow our falling out lead me to learn to love James Potter. Severus's least favorite boy in the world. James changed in his 7th year for the better, and Severus for the worse. We'll never know what could have been.
-Lily
Yearn to understand first and to be understood second.
~-Beca Lewis
Dumbledore asked me once, "After all this time?" To which I replied, "Always." My patronus was a doe after all. That should have explained everything. No one would ever know, feel, or understand how much I hated myself when she died. I blamed myself. I still do. I spent the rest of my life trying to make it up to her. To make my misery lessen. I did the best I could, and for that, I cannot say I am not glad. I hope one day Harry realizes my true motives. That maybe nothing was as it seemed.
-Severus
"Much unhappiness has come into the world because of bewilderment and things left unsaid."
-Fyodor Dostoyevsky
~FIN