This idea came to me in a dream...actually it didn't but still it was almost like it did. I came to me in a daydream after reading a bunch of depressing fanfics i decided i wanted to write one. thus this story was born.

disclaimer~ I do not own Hetalia.

-Two months-

That's what the paper in Lovino's hands read. He had gone to the doctors a week prior to today. He went in after feeling random jolts of pain time from time. He went in to see what was wrong with him. He just thought it was something simple like a nerve problem or something along thoughs lines. He never expected it to be anything like this at all.

The paper in Lovino's hands was telling him he had a large tumor growing on the left side of his brain. The tumor itself was already to big to have removed. Instead Lovino had to live the rest of his life with it but that wasn't going to be very long. The paper also stated that Lovino had only two months left to live. The tumor was killing his slowly and by that time will have completely taken over his brain.

The news killed Lovino on the inside. He held onto the paper tight not wanting at all to believe that what was on this letter was true. However it was and eventually Lovino excepted it. He stared at the paper his eyes watered up. Before any tears could spill though the sound of the front door being opened sounded. Lovino quickly crumpled the paper and stuck it into his pants pocket. He wiped at his eyes and turned toward the door to see his lover Antonio walk in.

Antonio looked over and smiled at his adorable lover. His smile changed to a frown when he noticed Lovinos eyes were red. He walked over and gently placed his hand on his cheek. He looked into Lovino's eyes and noticed they seemed distant almost.

" Whats wrong mi tomato."

Lovino looked at Antonio and bit down on his lip. He wanted to throw his arms around his lover and cry but instead he shook his head. He didn't want to tell Antonio about the letter so he decided to keep it a secret.

" Nothings wrong bastard... I just missed you that's all."

This made Antonio's frown return to a smiled. He wrapped his arms around Lovino and nuzzled his head against his hair. Lovino, who would have usually shoved the man away, instead let him do what he was.

" Aww Lovi if you missed me you should have texted me. I would have come home earlier for you."

Lovino smiled a small smile. He then frowned when he felt like he was going to cry. He felt so bad now thinking about all the times he and Antonio had fought and how bad he treated the Spaniard. Even after Lovino had treated his lover so bad he still stayed around he still loved the Italian with all him heart and even more than that if it was possible.

Lovino was so absorbed in his depressing thought he didn't notice Antonio was speaking to him. He looked at the man and shook his head trying to focus.

" Lovi are you going to answer me I asked if your results from the doctor have arrived yet."

Lovino instantly felt horrible again. He however wouldn't let Antonio see him sad. He put on a fake smiled and stared at the Spaniard. He simply nodded and turned away from him.

" Yeah I got them turns out nothings wrong with me. I wasted my time going to that stupid hospital."

Antonio laughed while Lovino just felt miserable. He was forcing himself to lie to his lover to the one person who ever understood him and loved him for who he was and not for his money. This was the worst thing Lovino had ever done to his lover and it would just get worse over the next two months.

" Really that wonderful to hear. I was so worried that something terrible was wrong with my Lovi but now that I know your ok I can stop worrying."

Antonio flashed his famous smiled and Lovino just about died because of it. He bit his lip and tried so hard to smiled but ended up failing. Good thing though Antonio didn't pay much mind to Lovinos frown because the boy was always frowning. He ruffled the boys hair and turned toward the kitchen. He began to walk to it.

" I'm going to make a wonderful meal for you Lovi to celebrate your wonderful health."

This caused Lovino to crack. Some tears escaped his eyes and he ran upstairs to his room. He buried his face into his pillow and cried more than he had ever done in his life. He was glad that the pillow muffled his loud sobs. Eventually Lovino stopped crying and was now just laying in his bed dreading the time he had left. He didn't want to have to get up but he knew he would have to when he heard Antonio calling for him. Lovino got up and went to the bathroom to wash his face off before making his way down to the kitchen. Antonio turned toward Lovino and smiled. Lovino smiled back at him trying to act like things were normal though they weren't and they wouldn't be.

" Aww Lovi your smiling! You never smiled oh so lindo~"

Antonio attacked Lovino into a tight hug. The hug was returned which was a very surprising thing to both the males. Lovino was never the one to show his emotion and love toward Antonio. So returning a hug is a very very rare thing. Even though it was a surprise to Antonio the hug brought joy to him. He was happy to see his lover was finally opening up to him. Though the actual truth was Lovino just wanted to spend the time he had left treating Antonio the way he should have always been treated. He wanted to give the Spaniard all the love he could before his time came to an end.

Antonio was the one who broke the hug. He turned away from Lovino and headed toward the counter which to plates sat. He picked the two plates up and handed on of them to Lovino. Lovino looked down at the food and almost cried again. It was his favorite dish that Antonio had made for him. He looked up at Antonio who leaned forward and place a light kiss on his cheek. He then walked out of the kitchen and into the living room.

" Come on Lovi lets eat and watch some TV together."

Lovino sighed and followed the other into the living room. He sat down next to Antonio and began to slowly eat his food. Once the two finished what they were eating Antonio took their plates and put them in the sink. He returned to the living room and put on a movie. Lovino pretended to watch the movie while he was really deep in thought. About half way into the movie Antonio had fallen asleep. Lovino looked over at him and sighed. He got up and left the room returning with a blanket in his arms. He placed the blanket over Antonio and sighed. He looked at the mans gentle sleeping face. The face he would miss to much. Lovino felt a tear fall from his eye and quickly began to wipe it away. He needed to stop crying and start facing reality. He was no longer going to be here with the man he loved. He was going to be joining his grandfather in the afterlife.

Lovino clenched his fist and furiously swiped his hand over his eyes to try and stop the tears that were making there way down his cheek. He couldn't help but cry for all that he would be losing and leaving behind. He began to wonder how his brother would react when he died. He bet that the boy would break down and cry as if the world itself was coming to an end. Then the potato bastard boyfriend of his would comfort him about it. He began to wonder how his best friend Matthew would be. He to would probably be hysterical and cry as much as Feli. These thoughts were just making things worse. Now Lovino was full on crying. He had his hand over his mouth so his sobs wouldn't wake Antonio. It however didn't help at all. Antonio had woken up. Instead of saying anything however he just pulled Lovino onto the couch and into his arms. He rubbed Lovinos back soothingly and allowed the boy to cry. He never once questions why he was crying he just remained quiet. Lovino was thankful for that and soon enough his crying died down. He laid his head in Antonio's chest and allowed the mans heartbeat to sooth him to sleep. It worked out well and before he knew it Lovino was out cold.

However though all of deaths thoughts still lingered around Lovino even as he slept. His usually peaceful sleep was now taken over by the thoughts of him dieing. The images that began to pay out on Lovinos mind were to much for him. He jolted awake to find that he was still laying on Antonio. He sighed and rested his head down on the mans chest again. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath trying to fall back asleep.

The next to months are going to be hell.

First chapter up~

I hope that my story is good so far. I hope to get the next chapter up soon.