This is it, I coached myself. I can do this. I can't believe my friends turned me into this monster. Why do I care about designers, and what clothes me and my friends wear? Why did I give up sports? I never cared about all of this girly girl crap. My friends were the ones who told me to go out for this alpha position. I never wanted to do it, and now look they've turned me into this girl I don't even recognize. What the hell happened, why didn't anyone stop me, oh right because everyone became super scared of me and I acted like a bitch to my friends, I acted like a spoiled brat. I can't do it anymore.
The Pretty Committee is now against me and Alicia wants to be alpha, I can't believe she told everyone all of my secrets along with the rest of my friends. 7th grade was supposed to be awesome, not full of drama and crap like that. If Alicia wants to be Alpha, then go ahead because I'm sick of this, I mean I'm just not cut out for this alpha stuff because if I was then I would be able to tell all of my friends' secrets but I can't, no matter how much they hate me right now, I just can't. And then Josh Hotz, my former best friend who became my boyfriend, he was a great boyfriend but who didn't tell me to take a step down, he let me become this and now he cheated on me with Alicia and you wanna know how I found out.
He asked me to come to the park for a date and then when I get there he's making out with Alicia. He breaks away and says, I wanna break up with you Massie, I've been cheating on you w/ Alicia for like 3 weeks and then goes back to making out with Alicia. What a douche bag, who does that, I hate him. Ok maybe not hate, I loved him but if he did this to me then he's not worth it, but it hurts so much and it was a really horrible Christmas present. I mean it's not Christmas but Christmas break is almost here and I've been studying for exams, I know me studying? Well I used too until all of this alpha stuff, my grades totally dropped and I haven't been paying attention so now I've always been holed up in my room trying to teach myself everything that I never paid attention too and you know what, I've been doing a really good job so far.
Dad's been talking about how he got a job transfer to Hollywood and I was totally against it but now I think I want too. I mean it'll be a good beginning and I can finally be away from all of this stupid drama. I hate it here and I can't wait until I leave.
So back to the beginning in where I was trying to do a pep talk to myself, well it's because Alicia just said this stupid remark to me and this is it, this is when I'm going to tell every one that I'm moving.
I stand up off of my lunch seat and stepped on to the table and blew a whistle with my fingers. Everyone shut up immediately and stared at me, expecting me to say something bitchy to Alicia bu then I said it. "I give up. You heard me! I give up, I'm sick of this drama and this bitchiness. I hate being mean and a bitch to everyone especially to all of my old friends who now I don't even talk to for no apparent reason. You know that the only reason I even became this stupid alpha was because my friends wanted me too and with great power comes great responsibility and I didn't have that responsibility. I became so obsessed with coming to the top I started to order my friends around, be mean to my old friends. Told my friends what and what not to do and you know what, they didn't even stop me.
I just wish someone could have stopped me and told me to look around and see the damage that I had done but no one did and for that I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I was a bitch to all of you or if me and my ex friends spread rumors about you, I swear that right now I didn't mean any of that, I just became a monster. I quit sports and my school work and got caught up in this girly girl crap. My best friends went against me and used every secret against me but seriously did you see me use your secrets against you, no! Alicia, if you want to be alpha then go right ahead, but no one's going to respect some who steals other girl's boyfriends.
Yup you heard right BOCD, Alicia Rivera went out with my ex-boyfriend Josh Hotz, 3 weeks before we broke up. But I wish you all good luck starting after Christmas break because i'm moving, I'm leaving and I don't plan on coming back because I don't want to come back to all of this drama, we're only in 7th grade for crying out luck so I pity all of you who have to go through the rest of your lives with these bitches I used to call my friends, good bye BOCD and I hope to never see you guys again. With that I strutted my way out of the cafeteria and skipped the rest of the day to study, I mean we were going to do the same thing in our classes so why not just study at home.