"Goodbye Bella" he said in the same quite, peaceful voice.

"wait" I choked out the words, reaching for him, willing my deadened legs to carry me forward.

He leaned down, and pressed his lips very lightly to my forehead for the briefest instant.

"Take care of yourself" then with a light unnatural breeze he was gone.

I took one unstable step forward before I fell.

"Edward" I knew no matter how soft I whispered it he would hear. "You promised me Edward"

I could hear the sound of birds, so I knew he wasn't near. He was gone. They were all gone. They all left me. Even Alice. She didn't even tell me goodbye. His words echoed in my ears "You're not good for me, Bella" I always knew I wasn't good enough for him. And now he knew it to. He had come to realize that he could do better than me. That he didn't really love me.

I noticed it was getting darker. Charlie would be home soon. "I'm thinking of Charlie of course. He needs you. Take care of yourself" The only reason he even cared if I was ok was because of Charlie. He cared more about Charlie than he did me!

I realized I was sobbing then. Breath taking, body shaking, sobs that rocked every inch of my body. It was hard for me to calm down enough to stand. If Edward could pretend he did care then I could pretend that I didn't care. Right?

I started walking back along the path that he had lead us on. I had just reached the edge of the forest when I saw Charlie's cruiser pull in behind my truck. When I was close enough for him to see me, he ran to close the distance.

"Bella? Bella, what's wrong? Where is Edward? Are you hurt? Why are you crying?" Charlie reached to grab me into a hug. I moved out of his grasp and said " I'm fine dad, really. I just need to be alone ok?"

"where is Edward? Why where you in the woods alone?" I stopped walking toward to door and turned to look at my dad. " I wasn't alone. He took me there to tell me he was leaving. He's gone dad and would rather not talk about it ok? I'm just going to go up to my room, can you order pizza?"

I didn't wait for him to answer, I just walking into the house and up the stairs. There was something I had to find. Please, please, let it still be there, I thought to myself. I walked into my room and headed for the stereo. I hit the open button, only to find it empty.

I sunk to the floor. No. He took it. My lullaby.

I curled into a ball and cried. I didn't care that Charlie could hear. I didn't care that I said I wouldn't let my hurt show.

I was still crying when Charlie came in a few hours later. I know he hates female tears and for him I tried to stop but it only got worse. How could he do this to me? Why did he pretend to care for me? Why couldn't he have just left me alone in the beginning. I regretted the thought as soon as I had it, but it was there anyway. He should have just let James kill me. The pain form that day was still fresh in my mind. I would take on all the pain James had for me, just to take this pain away.

"Bella? Come here honey. Let me get you in the bed."

I didn't move. I don't think I would have been able to. I felt Charlie lift me up onto the bed.

"why is the window open? Its freezing in here" Charlie mumbled. I knew he didn't mean any harm by the comment. That didn't change my reaction. If the way I had been scared Charlie before, the new stream of sobs must have nearly given him a heart attack.

I felt him run his hands up and down my back. "shh Bella its ok. Shh. He is an idiot to leave you. He will come back. It will all be ok. don't you remember when you broke up with him. It all worked out. Well except you falling down the stairs."

"Its o-okay C-ch-Charlie ill be f-f-fine" I managed to choke the sentence out. Charlie seemed to debate it for a second before he gave me a final pat and walked out, closing the door behind him.

Finally sleep overcame my grief stricken body. And I dreamed. I dreamed of my angle. The angel in the sunlight, sparkling beautifully. Then he turns to look at me. He smiles that dazzling crooked smile and melts my heart.

Then his smile fades and his liquid golden eyes turned hard and black.

" I don't want you. I don't love you. You were just a distraction to me."

I woke up screaming. Charlie came busting through the door looking around my room. I was still screaming when Charlie got to my bed and grabbed me in a tight hug.

"Bella its ok. Shh I'm here. Its ok."

I silently wept in my fathers arms as the dream continued to haunt me.

I don't want you, I don't want you, I don't want you