A/N: Wow it has been forever since I have been on. Well this was written around the same time as The End it is my take on how things could have gone in Ch 502. Hope you enjoy this super short fanfic, and as usual I own nothing... T.T
~Broken~
As his eyes flickered open the first thing he noticed was Ichigo. He was finally here. Then shock as if someone had thrown a bucket of cold water on him. Byakuya. Where was his captain? He couldn't sense him. Renji forced his body up, through the pain, he stood shaking, swaying like a leave on the breeze. He began walking towards the destruction and what he saw broke his heart. Blood. The crimson liquid was everywhere on the wall. He saw the empty eyes, the torn clothes, and the emptiness made him sick. Byakuya, his captain, was supposed to be unbeatable. He didn't know where he got the strength to do so, but he ran. Moving to Byakuya he was shocked when his lips curved up in a slight smile he felt tears flowing down his face.
"….Renji… Forgive Me." The broken whisper shocked him. He did not expect his captain to be alive not after losing so much blood. He moved towards the noble gently pulling him into his arms and cradling the broken body.
"There's nothing to forgive. Besides shouldn't I be the one asking for forgiveness I failed to protect you…." Renji mumbled burying his face in Byakuya's hair. He wanted to say everything would be ok, he wanted to believe that Byakuya would pull through, but deep down he knew that his Captain would be just another casualty in this war.
"Byakuya you'll be ok… You have to Rukia needs you… we all need you. Please don't give up on us." He kept repeating nonsense trying to convince himself that Byakuya would pull through somehow. He was filled with regret for all the things that he needed to say, but never had. As he held the broken man he thought back. He could have said it when Byakuya was hospitalized after Aizen's betrayal, after Muramasa, and yet he hadn't and now it is too late.
"Captain I need to tell you something… I…" He couldn't bring himself to say it not now. It was too late anyways his captain wouldn't last much longer. Where was the fourth squad? Where was Captain Unohana? He wanted to scream! Where were the healers? Why weren't they doing something to save his captain?
"There's no need Renji… I know… and I'm sorry. I'm sorry I never told you I knew that I knew what your heart desired. Forgive me for being too weak to make it possible." Renji tried to hold back the scream that was bubbling up in his throat. They deserved to be happy didn't they? He shook his head planting a gentle kiss on Byakuya's forehead.
"Stop talking like that. It'll be ok Byakuya you'll be ok. You always are. No matter how bad things seem you're always there." Byakuya smiled shaking his head. Renji gripped his hand tighter he didn't want to let go.
"Abarai it's too late. The Captain Commander has died as well. Our last hope rests on Ichigo and on you. To those that are left. Our legacy, our struggles, they're yours to continue." Renji growled he couldn't stand this conversation. Byakuya was not supposed to talk like that. Even though Renji's frustration was obvious Byakuya continued.
"I have always loved you Renji. Save Sereitei do what I was unable to do and be who I was not able to be." When Byakuya's eyes closed Renji screamed.
"Stop it! Just stop ok…" When he got no reply he closed his eyes he wanted to hide from the truth. Byakuya couldn't be dead. He just couldn't.
"I love you too. I'm sorry I didn't have the guts to say it earlier." Renji whispered gently laying Byakuya on the ground. He was furious at the quincies memories of Byakuya ran through his mind as he realized his new goal was to avenge his beloved captain.