Want
Every day. Every day I helplessly watch her fawn over him like he's treating her right and giving her his all.
As if he's the most perfect boyfriend ever.
But it was my fault that they got back together, if I hadn't interfered they might still be single. But I being the generous and zealous Tori Vega, I had to open up my mouth.
Jade West is a gorgeous and mysterious creature, the way her blue eyes some times appear to be green, and light up like a thousand Christmas lights when a new pair of sharp scissors are presented in front of them.
The way her full pink lips curl up in to a devious and feigning smirk when she strikes at me with venomous words.
But I'd do anything to kiss those lips.
They way she scores the highest in every single one of her classes and is a secret genius, her intelligence incomprehensible, yet no one realizes it but me.
When Jade is reading a script in class, the words flow off her tongue with incredible ease, and she captures the character's emotions and actions so precisely it makes you captivated by how she makes it look so easy. It's as if she's done it her whole life, and the passion is so evident in her eyes and movements while she performs.
Or just the littlest things, like the way Jade is addicted to coffee and must have it at all times. Or how she snips the ends of her hair when she's nervous or completely bored.
It's these minuscule habits that I've fallen for these past two years, that I've fallen in deeply and utterly in love with the things that make up Jade as a whole. Sure the girl has an almost poisonous and extreme hate towards me, to which I still don't understand.
Yet she is an absolute goddess in my eyes, I just wish she knew. But then again I don't, for the fear of her most bitter and wicked response to my confession.
Besides, she's in love with Beck.
Emotionless robot, egomaniac Beck.
Beck.
The name makes my heart ache as if it's been ripped out by wolves, thrown under a bus going 1 million mph, stabbed repeatedly with shards of broken glass, rubbed with sandpaper, and cut in halves.
He gets all her love, the love I crave each and every day to have.
He is the only barrier that comes between Jade and I, and if he wasn't around I would immediately tell Jade how I felt. And despite the horrid comments she might make, I wouldn't care because she would know my genuine feelings. She deserves to know how much she means to me, and that I would treat her like gold.
The thought of actually being Jade's girlfriend makes my heart skip a beat.
I never really fathomed being with a girl before I met Jade, thinking the possibility was outrageous and wrong as society depicts it as. But something about Jade made me just want to love her. I push her words aside and focus on her real self, knowing that she is not a cold hearted person, she has feelings and just desires to be loved and cared for.
I swear, those lips would be kissed with any chance I could get, I would let her know how much I love her in small but not overly romantic ways. Jade would never feel neglected because I'd let her know that I am there for her. To hold her, to kiss her, to listen to her, to understand her, to simply love her. And if we did fight I would take the blame because knowing what Jade went through in her past is enough pain to last a lifetime.
I wouldn't make a big deal out of her birthday. She hates that.
Of course Jade hates a great deal of things, but she says birthdays just celebrate another year closer to death. Which is honestly true, but if she didn't want to celebrate it, I would accept that.
But I know what I would get her as a present. A bunny.
She hates everything but bunnies, coffee, horror, and scissors, and they way she almost acts innocent when she talks about these things is quite adorable. It shows a side of her that is hidden away but I would love to get to know.
I am aware that Jade is capable of being vulnerable like all of us are at some point in out lives. The time she showed up at my house in desperate tears and pleaded for my help because of Beck was when I came to the conclusion that Jade West has a heart.
A heart that I will never get to listen to.
A heart I will never get to love.
A heart that I want more than life itself.
Hey there. I don't even know how to apologize for my absence, but I am soooooo sorry for not updating. I am thinking of rewriting Give Love A Try. But I'm not sure yet. I will be adding to Treacherous this weekend, and I might add to Give Love A Try if I don't rewrite it. I am still alive, but these past couple of months have drained me both emotionally and physically. I will make it up to you guys! So sorry!