Disclaimer: I don't own JAG, but if I did Harm and Mac would've been together for a while. I'll let Belisario's writers do their own thing though.
Renee's Final Outburst
1534 ZULU
JAG HEADQUARTERS
FALLS CHURCH, VA
"Damnit Renee, don't you understand. I'm not going to marry you."
"But Harm, Mac is going to marry Mic."
Harm was getting tired of this conversation. For them to argue about it at his apartment was one thing, but for Renee to come into work…that was completely different. "Renee, just because Mac is marrying Brumby isn't a reason for us to get married."
"But Harm, I thought you loved me."
"I'm sorry Renee, but I'll never love anyone the way I love Mac. It's not fair for me to do that to you, whether you love me or not. You need to be with someone that loves you with all of their heart. I'm just not that someone Renee. I'm sorry, I really didn't mean for it to end like this."
"Harmon Rabb Jr. you're a heartless bastard!!!" And with that she ran out of his office slamming the door so loud until it could be heard in the Admiral's office.
"Well that went well," Harm mumbled to himself after his door had been slammed. Little did he know that a certain Marine Lt. Colonel had heard the whole conversation. She quickly went back to her office to do a lot of thinking. Within minutes she had figured everything out. Harm wasn't going to stop her from marrying Mic simply because he thought she was happy. He was willing to risk losing her forever because he thought that she no longer wanted him. She now knew what she had to do. "Hey Harm…can we talk for a minute?"
"As long as you don't end up slamming my office door and calling me a heartless bastard, sure."
"I'm sorry, about Renee that is."
"It's okay Mac really. I didn't love her and I never will. It's just that simple."
"You don't regret her leaving?"
"No, but Mac I'm sure you didn't come in here to talk about her."
"You're right I didn't…"
"Then what did you want to talk about?"
"Actually I just wanted to ask you if you had any plans for tonight, but…"
"You aren't busy with Mic making wedding plans?"
"Don't worry about it. Are you game or not?"
"Alright, 1900, don't be late."
"Harm, you must be kidding me."
"Hey bring our movies."
"Will do, I'll see you later, Harm."
"Bye Mac."
1800 ZULU
MAC'S APARTMENT
GEORGETOWN
"Sarah I'm not letting you go see him tonight. We have to make wedding plans and you know it."
"Mic, Harm is my best friend and I'm going over there to talk to him."
"If you leave, I'm not marrying you."
"Well then I suggest you pack your bags and take your sorry Australian ass back down under. You have no possession over me and I'm not some little bitch of yours that you can boss around."
"You are too my bitch and I won't let you be Rabb's."
"I'll never be Harm's bitch because he would never treat me like that."
"Oh, is that why he's confessed his love for you, because he loves you and respects you."
"Mic you need to leave now! Don't bother about your things, just get the hell out of here."
"Fine Sarah, if you think Harm will ever give you what I could have. If he was a real man…" Anything else that he was going to say was not heard because of a powerful blow that landed in his stomach and Mac's knee in his groin. "Damnit leave you bastard!" After that he managed to get to his feet and walk out of her door. Mac sat down crumpled on the floor with her back against the door crying.
1910 ZULU
HARM'S APARTMENT
NORTH OF UNION STATION
'Where is Mac?' Harm thought. 'She's never more than a minute late, hell she's never late'. With that he ran out of his door grabbing his keys and a jacket. He tried calling Mac, but he didn't get an answer. He was beginning to get worried. He decided to leave a message on her machine.
"Hi, you've reached Lt. Colonel Sarah Mackenzie. Sorry I'm not available right now. Leave your name and number and I'll get back to you as soon as possible."
"Mac, it's Harm…if you're there pick up…please Sarah."
"Harm…"
"Mac, are you alright. I'm almost there now…Hold on."
1946 ZULU
MAC'S APARTMENT
GEORGETOWN
"Mac open up…It's me, Harm." He figured out she wasn't going to open up the door so he used the spare key he still kept. It wasn't until she heard the door click that she turned her head. Her eyes full of turmoil and pain met Harm's. He hated to see her in pain and crying. Instinctively her went over to her and wrapped her in his embrace and just let her cry. "Let it out, it's alright, I'm here."
After about twenty minutes she finally pulled away from him, their eyes meeting once again for a brief moment. "Harm it was horrible."
"Tell me about it. What happened?"
"Harm I was reliving my childhood again. I promised myself I would never get in an abusive relationship…"
"Mic did this to you?! Where is he?"
"I don't know."
"Did he hurt you? Are you okay?"
"I am now that you're here."
"What happened?"
"I told him I was going to come over to your place so I could talk to you and he gave me an ultimatum…he said that if I went that he wouldn't marry me so I told him to leave. Then, I told him that I wasn't his bitch and that he couldn't order me around. He said that I was his bitch and that he wouldn't let me be yours, but I told him that you wouldn't treat me like that…"
"Mac I'm sorry."
"It's alright Harm."
"No it's not. Sarah you don't deserve to be treated that way. You're too special and you've been through too much."
"Harm thank you for coming."
"Mac, when you were ten minutes late I knew something was wrong and then you wouldn't answer your phone so I got really scared. I'm surprised I wasn't pulled over on my way over here."
"I'm sorry Harm, I'm always the one that needs protecting, you're so strong and you're never vulnerable."
"Mac, I need you to listen to me…we're a team and we're in this together, whatever it may be. Since day one, we never leave each other's sides, I protect you and you me. You've been there just as much for me as I have for you. You're right about me not disrespecting you, but I don't ever want you to think that you're weak or not as strong as I am. That's why I care about you so much, simply for who you are."
"Harm?"
"Yeah?"
"I heard you and Renee talking in your office today, I didn't mean to but…"
"I'm sure even the Admiral heard us, it's alright."
"Well that's why I wanted to talk to you. Did you mean what you said? About not loving anyone else the way you love me?"
"Yes, you know why I love you?"
"No, I mean I didn't think that you did."
"I love you because you're you. You're a kickass, no-nonsense, Maine Lt. Colonel, and you're a woman, a very desirable woman. I love all of you. You make me better by challenging me and I you. It's the way we work, sort of like the way world turns. I think it would stop if things weren't that way. I mean I can't even begin to imagine life without you."
"I know what you mean, Harm."
"You see Sarah, my actions speak louder than my words. If I didn't love you I wouldn't have been at your side every time you needed my help and I wouldn't be willing to give up anything, including flying or my happiness just to see you happy. That's why I wouldn't interfere with your engagement."
"I figured that out after I heard your conversation with Renee. That's what I wanted to talk to you about."
"I'm just sorry that I lead her on for so long. I mean I've never had any woman call me a heartless bastard. It's not my fault I fell in love with you and that she refused to accept it until I openly said it…I mean you think she would've known that after I called her Mac in bed, but no…"
"Harm stop babbling. And what did you just say?"
"I called Renee you in bed."
Mac started laughing so hard until she had tears rolling down her face. "Oh god Harm, I can only imagine what her reaction was."
"It wasn't very funny at the time, Mac. Now that I think about it, every relationship after I met you didn't work because of our friendship."
"Neither did mine Harm, that's why I'm sitting here in your arms. Harmon Rabb, Jr. I want you to know that I love you."
"I love you too Sarah."
This is it for now, but I'm warning you that something else is going to happen. I just thought that I would end chapter one off with a good note.
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