A/N's: Dedicated to my friends and the recent fight/issue we had. You know who you are and what I'm talking about.
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What Should I Do?
He's gonna kill himself. That's what he told me.
He said he's tired of being made fun of. He's tired of being clumsy. He's tired of being picked on. He said he's tired of being weak.
He's threatened to do it before…five times I think. All of them after something majorly hurtful happened, like when Hiei pointed out his weakness after he had lost all of his battles, or when Yusuke mocked his not perfect relationship with Yukina.
He told me one time that he'd already cut open a vein with a knife. I begged him not to do it again, but he wouldn't listen. He told me he'd do it again if he felt like it…and then he hung up.
I don't think he knows how many knots my stomach was suddenly able to tighten into when he did that.
He hasn't killed himself yet. Though every time he hangs up without warning or signs off on instant messenger I panic. I pale, I worry, I reason, and I wait…for him to come back and show me he's still alive.
My stomach hurts.
The team got into a major fight this afternoon. The usual bickering between Kuwabara and Hiei was going on when out of the blue Hiei tossed in something about Kuwabara drinking. The others who hadn't known about this problem of his were shocked and immediately jumped on Hiei's side. Tempers flared, voices rose and the whole thing was shot to heck. It ended with Kuwabara saying he could do whatever he wanted to do and the others refusing to talk to him and kicking him off the team until he changed his ways.
I hate being the only one that can stay calm.
He called me earlier tonight. He told me he was gonna kill himself. I tried to make him promise not to, but he wouldn't. He said hated it when people tried to make him promise something…and then he hung up.
I don't know what to do.
Should I call Shizuru? Maybe he's really serious…but what if he's not? Would I be ruining a friendship? Does he want me to call? Would he think I overreacted? What do I do?
So here I sit, holding the phone in one hand and my head in the other, wondering what to do and worrying and ulcer in my stomach. I, Keiko Yukimura, who can solve any problem, somehow can't solve her own.
What should I do?
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A/N's: For all those who can't stand suspense/cliffhangers, don't worry I plan on posting a second chapter soon.