Lies Amongst Us
Chapter One: Addiction
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It's true what they say about addiction. It kills a part of you and takes a piece from the person you had once been. Changes the person that you had always been.
I know, because as I hold this small bottle I feel weak and less of the man I should be. My fingers grasped it tightly, as if dependent.
It calls out to me, tempting me. "Do it. Do it Reid."
The tears leaked from my eyes and streamed down my cheeks.
"Do it. Do it."
The words rang in my ears and consumed my thoughts.
How can I not listen?
"It makes it better. The pain, it goes away..."
It was true, wasn't it? I found myself desperate for relief, for a way to escape into utter oblivion.
The needle was in my hand and my fingers wrapped tightly around it's body. I smiled when it was suddenly filled with clear liquid.
I crave it, was determined to escape.
My arm was suddenly tied, the needle positioned at the crook of my elbow.
How?
There was nothing left to stop me.
Why?
I was dead inside. Why resist? She was gone?
I could be free.
No more pain. Emily...No more pain.
I allowed the point to prick the skin and blood dribbled down my arm. I smiled.
There was nothing left to stop me. Nothing.
It could all be over, everything.
"Do it."
The needle slid in my vein easily. My finger held the plunger. It was just a matter of seconds.
I had to. I was doing the right thing, right?
It felt so natural to me at that moment, my finger applied pressure and the liquid slowly entered my veins.
Bliss, utter bliss.
I felt it's comfort, no longer would I be alone.
The pressure increased and I moaned in ecstasy.
Thoughts of Emily dissipated. She wasn't dead. The love I felt for her, no longer a distant memory.
Now, I could love her and be with her because in this world, she was right here with me.