While I sulked in my bedroom today, I wrote this. It has nothing to do with my personal life lol... I did not just lie, either... haha I am very confusing right now :-l

Enjoy my poem/story thingy[!]:

No-Where World

The ones who know me hardly notice as I space out, going into no-where world.

Why the hell does no one notice my confusion and pain?

I have to watch.
I have to witness.

The person I want the most has their body so close to another one.
One that I used to call friend.

Shit, I hate her.
God dammit, she should not be worth it.

I am worth it.
He needs to shape up.
I need him.
And he will never need me…?

He used to like me.
I thought so, at least.
Didn't his eyes only catch mine in that way?

It happened every day, and in every class we had together…
Well, in every class we had together without the huge heads before our vision.

I was almost positive that we shared a secretive smile as we walked past each other every single day.

Does this always have to happen to fucking me???
I have to watch as the one I long for goes and leaves.

We grew further and further apart, but we were never close to begin with.

At first, I thought we had somewhat of a chance.
We saw each other everyday.
We got to talk.
And joke.
I loved to see him looking at me in that way.

My thirst for his everything turned into the vast desire I could never explain.
Lightheadedness turned to the point of falling.
Waking up in rooms I was traumatized to unearth.
But I always got up and found my way back to that.

The teachers are idiots who need to be taught.
Isn't it their job to give those who spread their bodies on others, detention?
Idiots!

Go die.
No, that's too harsh.
Instead, I'll go die.

I feel like an over-exaggerator with under-controlled overly-emotional feelings.
A drama queen.

I don't care.
Just look at him!

He stares at me as his hand so visibly gets squeezed by hers.
With those eyes.
I never see him staring at anyone else.

Always me as I melt into a puddle of swallowed sobs.

My throat gulps down all happiness when he walks by me another time.
His hand grazing that girl'swaist.

Stop!

My mind races.
I cannot see.
The puddle around me evaporates.
But I am that puddle!

I leave the world, going into no-where land.
Floating around translucent no-where colors, into the no-where space.
Beyond space.
I am in no-where space.

As I turn into no-one glued to him, he rubs all of me against her.

I am so small in this no-where space while I get pressed and prodded by uglies.
Suffocation will never leave, but my heart still pounds down.

Although in some words, I am dead while my whole world is an alternate reality of facts.
Everything is completely true and compacted and ignored, but I am still in my own no-where world, constricted.

Even in the lonely place that I discovered, he haunts and taunts me.

How did you like it? I thought it was okay, but who knows :P

GUESS WHAT! it is 10:23 right now! switch around the 1 and the 0, and ignore the colon... and what do you get? '0123'!!! Isn't that cool?

Haha okay sorry, bye now!!!

PLEASE REVIEW!

-Maia