Yay for the fourth book being posted!

Note:Someone mentioned something about a one on one with Danielle at Bellview. Unfortunately, I wrote the series a month ago(at least), and have no idea where to put a scene like that. However, there is a wonderful scene with Casey, Danielle and Danielle's therapist that she sees in the fifth book. It's a very interesting scene(I can't say anymore! I said too much!Aha), but unfortunately, the fifth book will be rated M(believe me, the last book of the series is very intense).

Disclaimer: I decided that I really don't like typing this. ahaha, so I do not own any of the Law and Order SVU characters, but all the characters I own are mine.

Warning: I must say that this has to be the least triggering book in the series. There is some mention of self-harm, and some detail about the rape, but I think that's it. It's not as bad as the other ones.Hence why this book is rated T.

Enjoy :)

-blueskies

December 19th, 2006

I'm in so much pain. I told Josh that it was over between us the day after the incident. I think Casey is catching on to my emotional ways, but I keep telling her that I'm fine. I tell myself that I'm fine, even though I cut myself and cry myself to sleep every night.

Meanwhile, no period, but I did my research; they said to wait another week to find out if you're pregnant or not. There are a lot of factors, and one of them is stress. Gee, maybe Josh triggered it...

Danielle walked out of the small grocery store with a bag in her hand. She started walking down the street to the apartment. It was a cold and snowy day, but Danielle didn't mind; she loved the snow falling in the sky.

A few minutes later, she unlocked the door to the apartment. Luckily, Casey wasn't home; so Danielle took the opportunity to do what she needed to do. Casey wasn't going to be home for another hour, since it was Christmas Eve. It was 1 in the afternoon; Danielle took the full advantage of the time as she ran into the bathroom and locked the door.

She reached in the bag and took out the box that contained the pregnancy test. Danielle opened the box, then read and followed the directions.

When she was waiting for the results, she started pacing around and constantly checking the pregnancy test at first. But then she decided to leave the bathroom to see if Casey was home. Danielle walked into the kitchen and the living room, but there was no sign of Casey. She knew that her older sister wasn't home she just wanted to pass the time.

Danielle slowly walked into the bathroom and shut the door. She glanced at the test and when she did, she had to do a double take. She walked over and picked it up. She started crying as she saw that the test proved that she was pregnant.

December 24th, 2006

Hi, I'm Danielle and I'm pregnant. What the hell am I going to do now? I'm so scared; I really am. How am I going to provide for this kid, do I tell Josh? How the hell can he possibly do this to me?

Well, I know what I'm not going to do. I'm not going to tell Casey...

Casey was putting her bath robe on when she noticed something interesting in the trash can.

It was the day after Christmas, and Casey had the day off. When she went in the shower, Danielle was starting to wake up; only because Casey wanted to wake her up. They were going to go shopping, but now Casey wasn't so sure.

She went through the trash can with one hand as she started drying her blond hair in the towel with her other hand. She picked up the pregnancy test, and was really confused. She knew that she wasn't pregnant. She had to think for a minute as she put the towel on the rack. Then, the realization hit her and she started to get angry.

She swung the bathroom door open with the pregnancy test in hand. She stormed into the kitchen where Danielle was eating Cheerios. Danielle was about to laugh when she saw her sister in her bath robe, her shower slippers, and a towel on her head. But when she saw Casey holding the pregnancy test, she knew that she was in trouble.

"You know, this must be the interesting Christmas present you forgot to give me yesterday" Casey said. Danielle looked at her, but couldn't say anything. She didn't want Casey involved.

"So when were you going to tell me that you were pregnant? Never?"

"Casey, I didn't mean to hide it from you..."

"Sure you did!" Casey said in an angry tone "You wanted to hide the fact that you're partying ways actually got in trouble for once in your life. Here's a newsflash for you; your life just got worst, and I'm thinking about kicking you out of this apartment!"

Danielle started having tears in her eyes as she looked at Casey with a sad, but sincere look.

"Casey, I'm sorry..."

"That's not good enough for me!"

Casey threw the pregnancy test in Danielle's cereal, stormed away, and slammed her bedroom door.