Ivy's birthday is coming up so.
This one is for you.
secret smile
A roxine for your twisted pleasure.
Dreams—nobodies can't feel but we can dream, can't we? We can dream a dream, so real that we can just make believe it's emotion—just for that night.
I have dreams, mostly about Sora and Riku—but I think those are HER dreams, more so then mine. If I had a heart, I would feel angry for not having dreams of my own—but I don't, not a heart of my own. I'll always just be a shadow of her, never the real deal.
Sometimes, I daydream about having something more then just her leftovers.
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Wishes—I have wishes, hopes, but are they mine? Nobodies can't feel, so are these really mine?
I wonder if they are my somebody's and then I wondered who he is. Who I was?
I want to protect people—a girl with auburn hair and a boy with silver hair—I don't know who the are, so I replace them; to stop the urge. Naminé; a girl in the white room and Axel; a fiery red head and a good friend, friends—do they require emotions too?
Sometimes, I wished I had a heart.
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Roxas; he doesn't know. Larxene promised so would torture him if I whisper a word, about his other. I can't let him know, he doesn't deserve that—not like he could feel, but still it isn't fair. I like him, when we talk; it's different, he talks to me like I'm someone.
I've started to dream about him and I, such silly little things—he and I on HER island together, laughing and walking hand in hand. They filled the void in my chest; give me a sense of hope and I don't know what else.
But I like it.
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This thing, what is it—I saw her smile today, she doesn't smile; much—neither do I. Unless I'm with Axel or her, its odd because it's the closest thing I have to a heart. She really is pretty, especially when she smiles.
If I had a heart I said, I loved her—but a kiss, would have to do until I got one. It was soft and warm—I swore I felt a beat in my chest.
She is the closet thing to a heart, and she's much better.