It was my decision to come here in order to destroy this evil, to free myself from this curse that has plagued me for longer than I can try to remember. And if not only for myself, then for the sake of entire the world. For you…
The weight of your pure heart crystal that I now hold within me is almost comforting in a way. It practically feels like you're right here with me, giving me the courage to accomplish this deed. If taking your crystal hadn't rendered you a soulless shell, you probably would have sneaked your way in here anyway just to cheer me on.
Wouldn't you, Chibiusa?
This place feels so lonely and dark, and even having a small part of you with me doesn't make it seem any less isolated.
You really are my only friend, you know. Everyone else is afraid of me over something I can't even control. It almost seemed like I was dreaming when you came into my life. Almost too strange to think that you didn't automatically shun me like others have done in the past.
But you aren't like everyone else, are you? I could almost laugh at myself for even thinking that you were for just a second. Just looking at you shows that you're different. I was happy whenever you came to see me, even if I didn't show it or say it. The fact that you cared in any way was more than I could ever ask for.
I can only think about what could have happen to us if I didn't need to engage in this battle. Maybe our friendship could have grown into something more after both of us were older. I wouldn't mind at all if you wanted that kind of relationship with me. You were the only one who ever accepted me for who I was. How could I deny something I've never had to begin with? Maybe we would have just stayed the way we were forever.
Just having you by my side would be enough for me.
But…
I doubt I'll live through this. I wish I had said goodbye, but it's too late for regrets now.
Is it wrong of me to want to keep a piece of you with me for when I die? It's almost a shame, really. Even if I wanted to keep your crystal with me in my final moments, I could never bring myself to actually do that. I would be taking you away from the people that care about you, from the people that love you. I'm not so selfish as to do something like that.
I just needed you with me for a few moments. Was it wrong of me to want that kind of comfort? But don't you worry. You will be back to normal soon.
Edit 5/12/2014; Removed author notes.