Edward's Point of View
All I wanted to do was keep her living, for her cheeks to stay red when she was cold, for her floral scent to linger, for her to experience true life, grow old, and not throw everything away. Was it really that bad to want to keep someone you love alive? I moved my hand to intertwine with hers, I needed to feel that human warmth that I longed for, that human warmth that would soon disappear and turn to ice in a matter of moments. She sat beside me, listening to Carlisle tell her what pain she would go through. She nodded every once in a while, her face emotionless, but I could sense uncertainty around her. Her eyes kept darting back to me every once and a while, she'd give me a nervous smile and I would force one out of me in return. She didn't know what was going to happen, if she did, she would surely run away in fear, wouldn't she? Three days of complete and total hell, and then an eternity of regret and misery. Did she want that? Did she even know what she was about to do? Was I the only one who cared? And if I was, then why was I the one to throw it all away for her?
Bella's Point of View
"When you feel the bite, you're going to get that same burning feeling that you felt when James bit your hand although, unfortunately since the bite will be on the neck, the pain will be increased." Carlisle said and I gulped. To tell you the truth, I was really nervous. I kept making nervous glances towards Edward, begging with my eyes for him to say anything to help. But all he did was smile back. Sometimes I wish that I wasn't the only exception to his mind reading.
When Carlisle finished speaking, he left to give us some time to talk before…well…you know.
"You don't have to do this, you know." Edward said, once Carlisle had left. "Just give me a few more months! Or get a feeling of college first, then we'll talk!" he was really desperate. He wanted nothing more than to keep me alive, and I just couldn't see the reason.
"Talk about what, Edward? There's nothing more to talk about! "I let my voice rise just a bit. This made him shut up since he knew for a fact that we had stopped negotiating this a long time ago. Truthfully, it was hurting my feelings a bit that he didn't want me to be with him forever.
There was a silence for a long time, he put his hands on his face and leaned over as if he were crying although I knew he couldn't. I just looked at him, waiting for him to say anything.
Edward's Point of View
Why was she doing this to me? Why couldn't she just see that I wanted to give her what I couldn't have? I knew the truth, not matter how much I tried; I wouldn't be able to convince her. No matter how much she would regret this, I couldn't help her.
…
Well, if you can't beat 'em, join 'em.
I took my hands off my face and looked her in the eye, "Are you positively sure of this." She nodded, a little hesitantly, but a nod none the less. I cupped her face with my hands and gazed into her chocolate brown eyes which would soon turn red, then gold, then black. "Then what are we waiting for?" and I swear her face could have lit up a city.
Bella's Point of View
After a while, Carlisle came back in the room. We decided it was best that he stay there with us just in case Edward lost control.
"Are you ready Bella?" Carlisle said, his voice was soft and unfazed as if nothing were about to happen.
I nodded slowly, but then, "Wait" I began, and saw Edward's head perk up, probably thinking that I would postpone this again. "I have a question."
"Whatever it is, you can ask." Carlisle answered, but Edward lost his perk.
"When I become…just like you guys, will I be the same…the same as in will I still be me?" It was a question that had been in my mind for so long, if I were to become one of them, would I still be myself? Would I still love him?
Carlisle rubbed his eyes and ran his fingers through his golden hair. "Physically, you'll look the same…although I should say you're features will be magnified quite a bit." He said, and I think I heard a small chuckle. "Personality wise, well, you should be the same person, but your memories will fade fast. Fifty to a hundred years from now, the memories you had as a human will get fuzzier. Besides that, you should be the same person you are today." He gave a quick smile. I let out a sigh of relief. "Is that all?" I nodded, "Ok, let's do this before Alice goes mad."
Edward's Point of View
I've never changed anyone before in my entire being as a vampire, and the thought scared me to death; if that were possible. Bella sat down on the couch in the living room, her face fearless, and if I hadn't known her, I would have thought she was. But I didn't need to be able to read her mind to know that she was scared out of her wits. Her fingers were fidgeting with the hem of her shirt, her face turned red (and probably for the last time), and her breathing was fast. I forced a smile, kissed her lightly on the lips, and leaned towards her neck.
Bella's Point of View
This is it, this is it. My heart rushed, my face was probably beet red, and I was scared more than anything else. As he pulled closer to my neck, a thousand thoughts went through my mind, thoughts about Charlie and Renée and how they would have never thought that my goodbye was the last. About Jake, and how he would never be my Jacob ever again. And right when I was about to pull away, it was too late.
Everything about the bite went by too fast and everything was in a blur. At first, the bite was a shock and I froze. I didn't scream and It didn't hurt…at first. Then everything came so fast, like a Frisbee to the head. I remember a long scream, blood, and fire a lot of fire. I screamed and screamed and the real problem was that Edward wouldn't stop. His teeth were dug into mine, he was going crazy. He had turned into what he always said he was: a monster. The pain was unbearable, I screamed, "EDWARD STOP! YOU'RE HURTING ME!" I tried pushing him, but he wouldn't budge. Then, when I thought it would be too much, I saw a golden head of hair rush passed me and push Edward away onto the piano, which broke into a million pieces.
Edward's Point of View
That blood, that scent, it was too much. I thought I could do it, but the monster in me took over and I went crazy. I could hear her screams, I could hear her begs, and the real me tried to stop but the monster kept going. It wasn't until Carlisle pushed me into the piano when the real me took over.
"Edward!" Carlisle yelled, and slapped me across the face, "wake up! You almost killed her!" he was really mad. Right when he said 'killed', I jumped up and ran to Bella. She was still screaming "fire, fire" I scooped her up in my arms, her scent was fading, and she was no longer human.
"She should be just like us in three days time. Keep her in your room, and don't leave her." Carlisle advised me, but I was already at the staircase before he could finish.
She was still screaming all the way up the stairs. We passed the family, who all stared in sadness except Rosalie who was nowhere to be seen. Alice came to help, but I nodded her away.
Edward, what happened! Came Alice's thoughts, but I shook my head and ran up the stairs.
We reached my room, and I lied her down on the bed and covered her with the sheets. She had stopped screaming, but was squirming as if there were a living being in her body, waiting to rip itself out. I lied down beside her and took her hand. It was pale white and cold as ice. I pulled her face towards mine and rubbed her forehead gently. She looked at me with squinted eyes filled with pain, but I could see the bright blood red of her irises through her lashes. "Don't….leave…..me" she whispered, a normal human would not have been able to hear it.
"Never" and I kissed her face. She went back to tearless sobs and screams. I dreaded the day that I would see this happen to her. I had imagined it many times in the past and it had turned out even worse than I had thought. She squeezed my hand and screamed, and for the first time, her strength actually hurt.
Her "life" would never be the same ever again. But she would always be Bella, and I would be there every step of the way.
For Eternity.