I think it is time for me to focus on myself. Jacob sent us back to Sam's pack because he did not want us to be alone sine he was moving to Massachusetts with his imprint and the bloodsuckers. So here I was again in Sam's mind, at least now I can control my thoughts a little better. I could allow the people to hear the thoughts I wanted to hear. In this past few months, everything has changed so much. I have changed so much. I now realize what I want. Who I want to be? I don't want to be the evil lady in the neighborhood who yells at everybody because life screwed her over. So that's what I am doing here tonight? Asking a simple favor, one favor he can do for me since he broke all the promises before. I walked up the steps on the porch, and knocked lightly on the door. I knew him or one of the pack brothers would hear it.
Emily answered the door. " Leah, what are you doing here?"
"I came to talk to Sam." I said bluntly.
"Hold on right here I will get him." She rushed inside, and I turned around and looked at the moon over the water. It was almost whole except a little piece was missing. The extra piece, I would see tomorrow. Only if life could be like the moon's creation. I felt a light pressure on my shoulder.
"I heard you want to see me." Sam said, remorse in his eyes.
"Come on lets go for a walk." I said with a smile. I led him down the tiny wooden stairs, across the driverwawy to the concrete on the curb. " I was wondering if you could do me one favor. I know since your getting married next week, I needed to ask you this before you know."
He looked away. He hated this subject. "Look Leah…"
"Its okay!" I cut of humorless laugh. " I was wondering if you could just kind of let me go."
He looked down at me with confusion. "I'm not following."
"Here let me explain. You understand. How you have group meetings?" He nodded. "I was wondering if you can keep me out of them you know unless you really need me. Do you understand?"
"You don't want to be part of my pack." He stated with sad eyes.
"No, well yes." I stammered. " Being inside each others heads. Its not goin' to help me move on. You know it. I know it. You already moved on. I am just a nuisance to the pack."
"Lee-Lee, no your not. Stop thinking that." He laced his fingers in his hands on the back of his head. " I love you. I will always love you. You know how hard it is to fight it. I know it was like a Jerry Springer betrayal."
"Great analogy, Sam. But I think its time for me to get over it. I need to grow up, and help my mom and brother. Be someone who he can look up to. Because of right now he probably looks down at me, and I look up at him." I smiled.
" Leah, between me and you, promise me one thing. You'll remember me."
"How can I not. You were my first love."