Looking into the shadows and seeing the one person that wanted everything you had to offer, should have been a comforting thought, but only in these conditions could someone that was all eternally devoted to you mean something bad. Something that meant that you had to leave everything and everyone that you had ever loved and would ever love, behind. Even if they already had, when you loved someone, you never forgot them.
It is in circumstances like these that you feel most reluctant to accept love, and feel that the little old lady down the street with the forty-seven cats, had the right idea. Without anyone around you, you couldn't be hurt. Because in this very moment, accepting the love from the only person that was willing to give it to you, was the last thing that you wanted to do.