Character POV- Mukuro
Disclaimer: I do not own KHR
This metal board means nothing. The many needles they have in me means nothing. The only thing I can hear are my thoughts. The only thing important is my soul. I prayed each day to be saved. There is no god. No merciful being out there to save me. It's just me and no one else.
I feel fear. It's strong. Is there no other feeling?
I believe human beings are just animals meant to live and die. The history they make will not make a difference, for when they go extinct their history will not be remembered. They go through their lives, and die without realizing it. Human Nature is cruel. They label things right or wrong, when they truly don't understand. What right do they have to call things bad? There is no right or wrong. Morals are molded and shaped by those around them, making everyone follow the same principals. I believe there is no right or wrong. Humans destroy my life, why should I like them? Should I say such things even though I'm human to? I dislike them, even though I'm one of them.
There is no escape. No place to enjoy. All there is are four concrete walls and a window. I sit in the corner feeling numb. I don't understand this world people think it is. It's suppose to be this loving, caring place where people live. They are all idiots blinded by the shelter of their petty little lives. I do not feel pity on myself nor do I feel sympathy.
I'm afraid of tomorrow. Afraid of growing up. I do not wish to become an adult nor do I believe I'll grow up to become one. The promise of tomorrow is never there. The joys of childhood not experienced. Do you feel my fear, my pain? Wishing to enjoy everything life as to offer but not being able to. I am human to, so before I know it, my life is going to end, and I'll not be remembered. The need to be remembered is strong, and yet when I think of it, that's not the feeling I feel. I do not wish to become famous, but to be in someones mind. Someones thoughts. To be needed.
What does it feel to be wanted, loved, cared for? Is there such a thing? I wish to experience and enjoy such feelings. I wish to live. I am human, I can't deny it. This feeling is natural. I truly wish to live. I realize, that my fear of growing up, fear of accepting humans, is just my fear of death.