Giving you up is something I just can't do.
Okay, so this is my first story ever. I thought about writing a story for a long time now, so bit by bit I started writing this. I would like to know if I'm good at it or if I suck also some pointers so I can gradually improve. I would also want to let you know that my mother language isn't English but Dutch. I learn English at school and by watching TV and movies and so on but still. If I have mistakes (probably a lot, probably a lot on tenses) please tell me and I will correct them. Oh and sorry if my Japanese words are spelled wrong.
Domo ^^
Fuji's pov
Warning: Yaoi, you don't like? Don't read it duh
Pair: perfect pair (tezuxfuji) my favorite from pot ^^ slight golden pair
Disclaimer: I do not own prince of tennis
Chapter one: realization
"Triiiiiiing"
The bell went, last class was over. I was sitting in my seat at the back of class next to the window. The sun was shinning brightly and there were almost no clouds in the sky. My favorite activity during class was looking out of that window, looking at the clouds or the people who were outside.
Today there had been these two little birds flying up and down, in and out of the tree next to the window that had grabbed my attention while my mind was concentrating on an entirely different subject than class and it had been like that all day long. But unfortunately the two birds flew away the moment the bell went.
I started packing my things and waited for my best friend before heading out to the courts. I couldn't wait to start practice and get my mind off of things. All day long I couldn't help but wonder why I was feeling so strange lately, I really had no clue. My mind had wondered off again for the umpteenth time this week, it used to be less frequent but lately this subject just wouldn't get out of my head.
Sometimes I had these strange desires and odd thoughts about it, and I was getting quite confused thanks to it. But obviously I didn't show it, I just put my smile on like I always do. It's not like I'm depressed or something and don't want people to notice that, I just think that it is easier than showing my true emotions than to hurt other people with it or to worry them. So I hide my emotions either if it's sadness, confusion, fear, I conceal them with my always present smile and closed eyes so they can't see it.
My red-haired friend was still talking to Inoue-san, a girl from class. She was thin and had a small figure, long dark blond hair and brown eyes. She was very friendly and always helpful to the people who needed it as far as I noticed during class. Inoue-san sits in the front of class right in the middle and is quite smart so I wonder what it is she needs from him.
Eiji was in the same group as her for a science project. So I think that is what they were talking about. As I looked at Inoue's face I saw that she was blushing. I had seen her blush frequently when she had been talking to Eiji and she was always smiling at him.
I felt kind of sorry for her, poor girl. Eiji wouldn't even notice that she liked him. She would need to say it directly to him if she wanted him to know it. But then again even if she did that she would just be rejected. Eiji wasn't interested in her; he was interested in someone else. Okay, I am the only one who knows that but still it is rather obvious.
When Eiji comes over he can't stop talking even if we are making our homework. He talks about his weekends, some tennis match he saw on TV and of course his crush.
As I was thinking about all of this, I was looking around me, trying to find something interesting to look at. I looked back over to Eiji and noticed that he had stopped talking and was walking into my direction.
Oh? He's ready, finally!
"Oi! Fujiko, you waited for me, domo," said Eiji. And I was pulled in one of his numerous bear hugs.
"It's no big deal," I said as soon as I was released from his hug and smiled at him. "So, what did she want?"
"Eh?... oh! You mean Inoue-chan? She had some trouble with solving a problem for the science project and asked me if I knew how to do it, so I helped her. Nya"
"Oh, so you actually knew how to do it!" I smiled teasingly while thinking that Inoue just wanted to talk to Eiji since she most likely could figure the problem out on her own.
"Fujikooooo…., that's mean, I'm going to tell Oishi!"
"Gomen gomen, it was a joke. Come on let's get to the courts."
"Hai!" said Eiji cheerfully.
We walked downstairs and went outside to go to the club room. The weather wasn't exactly great but still it was quite warm today. The trees were lightly swaying with the wind, dancing on some music only trees could hear. The flowers were enjoying the rays of sun shining on them and so were the smaller plants. The path we were walking on was peaceful, there were only one or three people on the path all the rest were going to their own club activities which were somewhere else and mostly inside.
While we were walking, Eiji was blabbering about tennis practice, and what we might be doing today.
"I just hope that Inui didn't make another one of his juices, I get sick from just thinking about them," shivered Eiji.
I laughed a little at that, it didn't taste so bad, okay aozu was really bad. But still, it is fun seeing all the others suffer. I don't really care actually about drinking it. It's not like I would die if I drink it. I hope.
"Hey, Fuji-senpai, Eiji-senpai!"
"Ah, Momo-kun, how are you? I heard you were sick during the weekend, feeling better?" I asked.
"Daijobe, daijobe, I'm ready to practice," Momo said as he went to walk beside us on the path to the clubroom.
"Glad to hear that. Well shall we get going, otherwise we will need to run laps for being late."
"Ah, no lets go, lets go," and their went Eiji smiling and running to the changing room.
"Will all the regulars please gather?" asked Oishi trying to get the attention of the regulars. "Now, today we are going to have some practice matches. Eiji and Kaidoh court A, me and Echizen court B, Fuji and Momoshiro court C and then Tezuka-buchou and Takashi court D. Clear?"
"HAI!"
"Oh, wait I need to tell you something before you all start. The person who loses the match will have to drink my new improved special Inui juice," said Inui while shoving his glasses further on his nose looking like some mad scientist or something.
"Nani! Oishi I don't wanna drink that. It has a really weird collour, nya," whined Eiji to his doubles partner and best friend.
"Then you just have to win, ne, Eiji-senpai," replayed our cocky little Echizen.
"Ochibi….!"
"Fsssssschhhh….."
"I really don't want to drink that but I'm against Tezuka-buchou. So I r…."
"Here, Taka-san."
"Oh? Thank you Fuji….. BURNING!" yelled Takashi as I had given him his racket.
"Come on Fuji-senpai, let's start," Momo said as Takashi went on about him being GREAT and BURNING.
"Hai, coming," I said smiling as I walked to the court.
I saw that Tezuka was also walking to his side of the court and as he was standing there waiting for Takashi to serve I thought that he was actually looking kind of sexy.
No! I need to concentrate on the game. What is wrong with me? I sighed and focused my attention back on Momo.
Seconds later, all the matches had started.
Awhile later the match of Tezuka ended. It was as predicted 6-1. (I'm still sweet to Takashi I actually think it would be 6-0 but oh well)
A little later I finished the match with my Higuma Otoshi as Momo used his dunk smash as last resort. He saw Takashi go knock-out from just a sip of Inui's new juice and he went all out from that moment on. But still the match ended in my favor with 6-3. So Momo needed to drink Inui's juice. He took a sip of the weird looking juice and fainted only seconds later. Well it was more like a choking and then fainting actually.
The match with Eiji and Kaidoh ended some minutes later, as both of them really didn't want to drink 'that', the match got heated up and it ended with 6-4 for Eiji. He was jumping around like crazy just because he didn't need to drink the apparently bad juice. But Kaidoh wasn't so happy, he took a sip and tried to hide how bad it was. But as all the rest, he didn't last long.
He too ended up lying on the tennis court with a terrible look on his face, one of horror and abomination.
The match of Oishi and Echizen lasted a while longer, but in the end Echizen won with 6-2. We all know Oishi is a lot better in doubles, but since he lost he needed to drink that horrible juice.
I'm kind of curious now actually, I want to know if it really tastes so bad. But oh well, I won so I'm not allowed to drink that. What a pity.
Tennis practice was over so the first years started gathering all the stuff. You could see them running over the court to pick up balls, to go to the net and take it off the poles. I remember doing that, so nostalgic. The second years and third years went to the changing room.
I was walking with Inui, who was as always writing in his notebook.
Wonder what he's writing I really should just take it from him and see what is in it.
As I was thinking of a way to take Inui's notebook away from him when Tezuka called me "Fuji, can you wait for a bit after changing, I want to talk to you."
"Sure."
Why did my heart just skip a beat? I wonder what Tezuka wants to say to me. Maybe he'll tell me… Wait, what the hell am I thinking, more so what do I want him to say to me. Aaaah, I'm going nuts! I don't even know what is wrong with me! I am way too excited for only talking to Tezuka. Really I need to have my mind checked or something.
After some time everybody had left and only me and Tezuka were left in the changing room. Tezuka was still changing since he needed to watch the first years gather all the stuff and that they wouldn't slack of.
Man! Did he look hot shirtless, I could just watch him for hours. Just looking at his firm muscles, and following the lines of his back. It's not that he doesn't look sexy with his shirt on, he always looks just stunning. He probably doesn't notice it himself at how handsome he really is and ….
Shit, I really need to stop thinking like that, but still…
"Fuji?... Fuji?"
"Uh… hai, I'm sorry. I was thinking about something, I didn't hear you."
"Ah,… okay," he said, looking curious at me.
"So what did you want to tell me?" I asked before he could ask further.
"Ah, right, I wanted to talk to you about today's match," Tezuka said while I felt sort of disappointed even though I really have no idea why.
"Yes, something wrong Tezuka?"
"Yes and I believe I have already said it, but I will tell you again since you apparently didn't listen to me. When will you start playing tennis at your own level instead at the level of your opponent? You could have won that match easily, and probably a lot quicker so Momo didn't have to go all out. You could have gotten into trouble. So why?"
"Saaaaa,…" I smiled
"Fuji!" he insisted.
"Gomen, let me see, maybe it's because I'm lazy or because I want some tension and excitement. But who will know it could be anything."
"….Sigh…, fine, if you won't tell me you can leave. But I won't leave it at this."
"Okay, see you Tezuka," I said while thinking that Tezuka looked like he was disappointed in me and for some reason I didn't want that.
I'll just go home and make my homework. Maybe Yuuta is home? I think he has a day off tomorrow. Perhaps I could make his favorite pie that will help me think of something else!
"Tadaima!" I yelled as I went inside my house. I stepped out of my shoes and went in further.
"Okaeri Syusuke," said Yumiko while I walked into the living room where my sister was watching TV.
"Ne, nee-san do you know if Yuuta comes home tonight?" I asked thinking of my previous idea.
"Hai, he'll be here around dinnertime. Why?"
"Oh. I want to bake a pie so because Yuuta will be coming home, I'll make his favorite."
"What a good idea!" smiled Yumiko "Do you need any help?"
"No, I'll be fine, domo," I said as I smiled back at her.
I walked to the kitchen and started searching for the needed ingredients for the pie. Once I had all that I needed I started baking, it had really helped to get my mind off of Tezuka.
So the cake is in the oven now all I have to do is wait. Mmh, what should I do now? Oh yeah I still need to do my homework. That should take my mind off of him for a while longer, why do I even think about him all the time? That's not normal anymore; okay he's my best friend but still …
"Ding dong"
Uh? Who will that be? Oh maybe it's Tezuka!
I walked to the front door and opened it thinking about why in God's sake I want it to be my buchou.
"Oh aniki konbanwa. I'm sorry but I forgot my key, so I rang the doorbell," My little brother who is almost never home since he stays at the dorms in his school came walking in with a smile on his face.
"No problem Yuuta. How was school? Is that …. Uhm, what's his name again?" I started saying, hiding my disappointment once I knew it wasn't Tezuka, even though I don't know why I want him to be here.
"You mean Mizuki-san?" Yuuta asked cautiously.
"Ah yes him. Is he nice to you? He's not asking to much from you is he? Cause if he is then I will call him or even visit him personally and I will let him know not to…"
"Aniki! Everything is fine, okay. Don't worry," Yuuta almost yelled on high alarm afraid that I might do something to Mizuki as my voice was getting a little threatening.
"Oh, …. Okay then," I said smiling at him, my tone back normal.
"Do I smell pie?" Yuuta asked with his eyes sparkling a little his mind on something else now. Man did he like raspberry pie. I thought as I snickered.
"Yes and since you would be home today I baked your favorite, raspberry pie. But you still need to wait a bit; it just went in the oven."
"Hai! Arigato aniki!" he said happily as he was about to go to the room next to us to watch some TV.
"I'll be upstairs for a little while; I still need to do my homework. So if you need me just call." I heard Yuuta saying okay as I went upstairs to my room.
I was finishing my last exercise of math while I heard Yumiko talking to Yuuta as she probably went to check on the pie. My door was open so I could hear Yuuta asking if it was ready and Yumiko who said that it still needed around 15 minutes. I could just imagine Yuuta sitting on the couch pouting as he heard the fact that he still couldn't eat a piece of the pie.
I started to put my books back in my backpack after I finished that last exercise as I heard my ring tone.
"Moshi moshi," I said picking up my phone.
"Fuji, it's me." my heart skipped a beat as I heard his oh so familiar sexy voice.
"Yes, something wrong Tezuka?" I said while panicking a little at the thought of me finding his voice sexy. This really wasn't normal anymore.
"Yes, I apparently forgot my textbook of history and I have a test tomorrow. So I wondered if you had yours and that maybe I could borrow it," he asked
"Oh, so the great Buchou forgot something, did he?" thinking that he probably wasn't mad at me for earlier I teased him a bit.
"Fuji, do you have it or not?" he said in his stern voice.
"Yes, I have it here with me."
"Can I come and pick it up?"
"Of course, see you in a couple of minutes then."
"Okay, arigato."
Happily I put my mobile back in my back pocket of my pants and went downstairs to tell that Tezuka would stop by in some minutes to borrow my textbook of history.
About seven minutes later Tezuka arrived at the door and I went to the front to let him in. I opened the door and looked at him, he was still wearing his school uniform just like me, but he had a button open so I could see more of his skin which I really liked for some reason I as not sure off.
"Konbanwa Tezuka." I greeted with a big smile on my face, a genuine one. Another thing that was strange, I noticed that I smile a lot genuinely when Tezuka is around. Wonder why that is?
"Ah, konbanwa," He replied to me in his stoic yet sexy voice.
"You can go into the living room, while I'll get my textbook. I'll be right back." smiling happily at Tezuka.
"Ah" he responded and went into the room.
He was sitting on the couch next to Yumiko when I got back and stepped into the living room. I saw that he was looking at me with an expression I hadn't seen before in his eyes and I couldn't quite place it.
I handed him my book "Here my textbook."
"Ting ting." the little clock want saying that the pie was done and interrupted Tezuka from saying thank you.
"Oh? It looks like the pie is done." And Yuuta immediately jumped off the couch and went straight to the oven. He watched as I took it out, checked if it was ready and put it on a plate. Tezuka was watching as well.
"There, it's ready. You can have a piece now Yuuta," I said as Yuuta eagerly went to sit on his chair.
Yumiko walked to the table and took a seat. "Do you want a piece, Tezuka-kun?"
But Tezuka politely said that he didn't want to intrude.
"But that's no problem, come take a seat and have a piece of pie, we have plenty." Yumiko said friendly insisting he ate a piece with us.
"Uhm, okay. Arigato," Tezuka said and went to sit beside me. I genuinely smiled at him while I gave him a piece, I was really happy that he was here with me even though I didn't know why.
"Itadakimasu!" yelled Yuuta as he started eating.
Tezuka took a bite of the raspberry pie "Oh it's really good."
"Yes, indeed. You did a good job Syusuke as always" Yumiko smiled at me.
"Oh, Fuji, you made this?" he asked surprised.
"Uhm…well yes." I said a bit shy. Nobody except for my family knew that I could cook and that I even could cook meals without wasabi in it.
"It's delicious. I didn't know you could cook so well. But it's probably no surprise, since your good at almost everything," Tezuka said with, if I'm not mistaken, a little pride in his voice and he blushed a bit too. It's like he noticed that he had just said something out loud which wasn't meant too be heard by others.
"Thanks," I said as I smiled widely at this so-not-Tezuka-like comment while Yumiko eyed me as in trying to figure out why I was smiling so widely.
"Well, I need to go now otherwise my parents might worry and I still need to study for my history test. See you tomorrow at school Fuji. Oh and thanks again for the pie, it was really good," said Tezuka as he waved at me and if that's even possible, smiling a little.
"No problem, oyasumi Tezuka," I said waving back at him and smiling as I closed the door.
"Ne, aniki. Why are you blushing?" Yuuta asked as he popped in out of nowhere.
"Oh, Yuuta, you scared me." What! I'm blushing! "I'm not blushing; it's just warm in here. Well I'll be upstairs again. I think I'm going to bed early. Say hello to mom and dad for me when they come home. Oh and I don't need to have dinner anymore."
"Sure, oyasumi," he said looking a little strange at me.
I went upstairs, changed clothes and crawled into my bed. Minutes later and I was fast asleep.
I woke up and looked at my clock. Pfff it's 3.25 am. That's too early I should go back to sleep. I looked around my room as I lay back down. It was almost pitch black and here and there I saw something like a part of my closet as the light of the moon shone trough the window.
Why did I actually wake up? Must be because I went to bed too early, to bad I think I was having a good dream. But what was it about? I can't seem to remember. I should just go back to sleep and stop thinking about it.
Oh! Now I remember it was about Tezuka. Wait, I had a nice dream about Tezuka. That's like the sixth time this month. Why do I actually dream about him? Okay he is my best friend but I don't dream about Eiji all the time and he is my best friend too.
Oh,…. this can't be happening. But if I look at all the facts it kind of makes sense.
First I have weird thoughts about Tezuka. Second I think that Tezuka is hot, oh no lets rephrase that I KNOW that he is hot. He probably is the best looking guy in school, but then again my fan club thinks that's me, so… okay according to me he is the best looking guy in school. He looks so masculine and…
Oh there I go again. Sooo…. Weird thoughts, Tezuka is hot, I don't want him to be disappointed in me, I blushed when he praised me, I dream about him and my heart sometimes skips a beat when I hear or see him, and more of those weird things that I feel around Tezuka. Those are all in all the symptoms of love. Wow good that I finally figured that one out.
….WAIT….
I'm in love! I love Tezuka Kunimistu! What do I do now? And since when maybe I've been in love with him for a long time and I just didn't notice until now. But I don't really care actually, I don't mind being in love with him if I think about it.
He's nice, very intelligent, an amazing tennis player, really good looking, responsible,…
No wonder I like him. I thought smiling when I had calmed down from freaking out.
But does he love me back? Probably not, it could even be that he doesn't care about me at all. But he is my best friend so he must care even for a little. I think it's better if I just go back to sleep. I'll think about it some other time. And it's probably the best if I just keep my mouth shut about it, I don't want to ruin our friendship.
But what if Tezuka feels the same about me as I do about him? Mmmm…. That….would…. be….. great…. And I fell back asleep with a big smile on my face.
I woke up with the same big smile from this night and checked if my cacti needed anything. Then I went to take a shower and after that I went downstairs to eat breakfast. A little later and I was off to school.
I stepped out of the car "Arigato nee-san."
"Aaaaaaah,…. Fuji-sama! Ohayo !" I heard as I went to the school gate. I could just see my sister laughing in her car. I would hear about this later, again.
"Ohayo ladies. If you'll excuse me I'm off to my classroom," I said as I looked around to see who it was that greeted me this morning. It was always different but there were seven or eight who were always there greeting me al the rest came when they felt like it.
"HAI!" and I waved at them
"Aaaaaaaaah,…" if I would turn back now I probably would be seeing some girls who had half fainted. Instead I just walked straight ahead to my classroom because I would only make it worse when I turned back to help them.
There a couple of meters in front of my classroom was a very funny picture. I saw Tezuka ,who was looking stunning like always in his school uniform, surrounded by a lot of screaming and weird acting girls, probably his own fan club, and he was looking quite puzzled. Maybe I could help him out a bit. And a sly grin slipped across my face.
"Ohayo Tezuka," I smiled "ladies, if you'll excuse us I need to ask my buchou something." And I put a charming smile on my face as I looked at the girls of Tezuka's fan club.
"Ooooh,.. of course. Sayonara Tezuka-sama, Fuji-sama."
"What did you want to ask me?" Tezuka said as soon as all the girls disappeared from our sight.
"Nothing," I just simply said, we stayed standing there at the side of the hallway while other people were passing by and some were looking at us with interest.
"Then why did you say that?" he questioned a little confused. Really sometimes Tezuka could be a little stupid.
"That's simple, because you looked like you needed some help with those girls surrounding you," I said as a matter of fact. "Really Tezuka, you don't look like a guy who can't handle a girl."
"I can handle a girl!" he said of tone. "Just not a bunch of those girls," He said with a clear emphasis on the 'those'.
"Ha-ha." I laughed and that earned some more heads turning around at us.
"That's not funny, they are really annoying sometimes."
"You just need to know how to get rid of them." I stated still snickering a bit.
"Oh, and the oh-so great Fuji-sama knows that?" Tezuka said acting not like himself. Really Tezuka seems to react a lot different when he is around me.
"Well of course, do you need some lessons Tezuka-kun?" I said in an all knowing yet teasing voice.
"No thanks, I don't trust that sadistic look on your face," he merely answered.
"Well I have no idea what you are talking about," I replied in an innocent tone.
It's really fun seeing Tezuka so not stoic, sort of relaxed even. I slightly smiled at that thought, I really was in love with him and there was nothing or no one that could tell me otherwise.
"Triiing!"
"Oh I have to go, see you at practice Fuji, don't be late."
"Of course not buchou."
I walked inside the classroom and went to my seat next to Eiji who was already in the room along with most of our classmates and there were some others who came almost running into the room so they wouldn't be too late.
"Hoi hoi Fujiko, you look very happy today. Nya. Something happened?" asked Eiji in his own hyperactive voice jumping op and down his chair.
"Hello Eiji, and not really I just figured something out."
" Ooooh, nani, nani?" asked a very curious looking Eiji.
But before I could answer, well actually more before I could dodge that question, the teacher walked in and the talking in class slowly stopped.
"Ne Fujiko?" whispered Eiji, who had already forgotten his previous question. "Can I talk to you during lunch, I need to ask you something."
"Of course you can ask me anything," I answered; happily that he hadn't asked his previous question again. I really had no idea how to tell Eiji that I was in love with our stoic buchou.
"Domo," smiled Eiji back at me.
The next boring hours of class started, so I just went to my normal activity; looking outside the window and occasionally writing some stuff down. It is really useful that I can pay attention while actually not paying attention and that the teachers don't even notice that or that they don't even care since my grades are always at the top of class.
"So what did you want to ask Eiji?" I asked as we sat down on our usual spot, the roof.
I don't know why we actually go here or since when, I sort of think we just went here once and liked the view or something because we still go here to eat our lunch. But that's beside the point.
"Uhm,… well…I…." a shy Eiji tried to answer.
"Come on, just say it, you know you can trust me," I smiled reassuringly.
"Well,…you know that I like somebody, right?"
"Yes, since you can't stop talking about him. Why?"
"Well, I kinda want to know if he feels the same. But I'm too nervous to ask."
"So you want me to ask it for you?" I asked already knowing his answer.
"Yes, will you do that for me?" he asked pleadingly looking at me with puppy eyes.
"Sure, I'll talk to him."
"Arigato Fujiko!" Eiji said smiling happily before he started eating his bento.
As I finished mine I stood up and looked around me. I looked at the beautiful blue sky and wondered about what I should do with my love. Should I say it or should I just leave it as it is. Will I have any regrets later if I don't talk to him about it? Maybe there is even a third possibility. But for now I just need to concentrate on Eiji and his 'crush'. That's easier.
"Fujiko, it's time for class, are you coming?"
"Ah, yeah coming," I said as I walked towards the door to the stairs for the rest of my classes.
"Ne Eiji I'm already going to the tennis courts okay? See you there."
"Hai!" answered Eiji as I walked out of class and went into the direction of the courts.
"Ohayo Oishi," I said as I ran into him on my way downstairs. That's convenient now I don't have to look for him.
"Ah Fuji, ohayo," He greeted back.
"Ne, I need to talk to you for a bit," I stated
"Sure something wrong?" Oishi asked with immediate concern in his eyes.
"Not exactly, it's just… have you ever been in love Oishi?"
"Uhm,…yes. Why?" asked Oishi who is sort of the mother hen of our tennis team.
"Okay so you know how it feels right?"
"Yes,… What is this about Fuji?" he asked a tad suspicious.
"Let's say that there is a person in love with you, but that person is to shy to actually tell you or ask you how you feel about that person. What would you do?" I asked ignoring Oishi's previous question.
"Well,… uhm… It depends on who it is and how I feel about that person," Oishi said a little cautiously.
"Let's say you love that person back," I suggested "What would you do in such a situation?"
While Oishi thought a little about it I saw the change in his eyes. I saw the look he always has on his face when he looks at his doubles partner, lovingly, caringly …
"I would probably go talk to him and tell him how I feel about him myself if I know that he feels the same. Or I'll wait till he has the courage to ask it himself," Oishi answered.
I noticed that he subconsciously changed 'the person' in 'him' and then I was absolutely sure.
"Why do you ask Fuji? Is this about you?"
"Oh no, I just thought about it and wondered what I would do in that situation, so I wanted to know what you would do if something like that happened." I just bluntly said.
"Oh and why did you think about it, it's not something that just pops in your head? So is there an underlying reason that you think of something like this?" he asked like a mother would.
"Literature does strange things to my mind; I really have no idea why that popped in my head." I quickly said. "Oh and Eiji wants to talk to you, he said it was important. So you should talk to him after practice. You could even ask his opinion about this. I didn't have the chance to ask it myself." I added to make him think of something else as we walked into the changing room.
"Oh, sure," Oishi responded.
"Konnichiwa buchou," And I smiled at Tezuka who was already in the room and who had already changed into his regular outfit.
"I'm on time just like you asked. You didn't have any problems with some girls again, did you?" I asked mischievously.
"Girls?" Oishi asked curious. "Has something happened Tezuka?"
"Oh, just some minor issues," he replied nonchalantly.
"Ha! Some minor issues? You were surrounded by your own fan club buchou. And let me say that you have quite a large fan club," I said grinning.
"Your fan club is probably twice as large as mine and nothing happened."
"Oh, of course not, I needed to help you to get rid of them." I teased while I saw Tezuka blushing. I was probably the only one who noticed but still I definitely saw him blushing even if it was just a tiny bit.
"Yes, but I said I could handle them. I just needed some time." he defended himself.
"Sure…." I said while other club members entered the room and looked surprised, terrified, curious,… to the scene that was displaying right before their eyes.
Me and Tezuka were standing face to face to each other and Oishi sort of between us looking like a chicken without a head, confused at what was happening.
"I am not having this discussion with you again. Go get changed and get to practice." And then all the bystanders knew that the conversation was really over. Since Tezuka clearly didn't want to talk about this and let it know in his voice.
Well not me, I would continue to just see Tezuka acting all different, well not really different more like on the defensive side. I really like teasing him, but since a bunch of the members were already here, I just went with the flow.
"Hai buchou," I said smiling and went to change my clothes.
Tezuka went to the tennis courts to wait for all the others who still needed to change.
Those others were still not really sure at what just happened but they were afraid to ask. And even if they asked, Tezuka would probably say something like 'it's none of your business and if you don't start concentrating on practice you'll need to run laps.'
While I would just smile and say something like 'saaa…'and the persons who wouldn't be satisfied with my answer would get a glimpse of my eyes open, but that isn't a good thing at least not in those circumstances.
And then Oishi would say something like 'I would like to know the same actually. But it is not polite to meddle with other people's affairs. So just go practice." So every one left it like it was and changed into their tennis outfits.
Once everybody was done changing and on the courts tennis practice started.
"That was a good practice we had today, I'm even a bit tired." I said while I stood next to Tezuka who was watching the first years like always.
Tezuka responded, like he almost does every time someone says something to him, with "Ah."
Really what is it with him; he knows other words than 'Ah'. So why not say something like 'Yes' or 'You're right.' No always the 'Ah.'.
Not that I mind, I really like the way he says that. He makes it sound sort of sexy.
Mmm how I love the way his voice sounds. He makes my name just roll of his tongue; no one else can say my name more beautifully than Tezuka. I wonder how he would say my first name, maybe it sounds even better. I'll probably never find out.
"What are you doing Fuji?" Tezuka asked after a while, pulling me away from my thoughts.
"Me? I'm just standing here." I said innocently.
"Yes, and why?' he asked further.
"Because I'm waiting for you so we can walk home together, and you need to give me my textbook back." I responded.
"I figured that one out, but why are you waiting here instead of in the changing room?"
"Oh, because I thought you might want some company. I'm not bothering you, am I?" I asked.
"Not really," he said back.
"Okay then I'll just stay here and wait," I said smiling at Tezuka and being happy that I was allowed to stay by his side.
I hope that Eiji and Oishi are almost done talking and leave the changing room already. I don't really think that they would like it if Tezuka and I walked in on their conversation. Especially if neither of them have told what they needed to tell. If they are still talking that is. It could be possible that they are doing something else right now, and they would definitely not like the fact that we would interrupt them in their first kiss together.
So I just need to stay here as long as possible and hope that it would be long enough. I will hear everything later from Eiji, he probably can't wait to tell me what happened. And it's not that I mind the fact that I have to stay here next to Tezuka.
I know they are meant to be together and that they will be a couple sooner or later. Since both of them are just head over heels in love with each other and since I helped them a little to finally confess to one and other.
It's so simple for them, they just need to tell each other how they feel and it will turn out okay. It's not that easy in my case. How can I possibly tell Tezuka that I love him? I could end up with the perfect boyfriend, but those chances are really, really small. The most probable thing that would happen is that he won't even want to look at me anymore let alone talk to me ever again, and I would lose my best friend.
I don't want that to happen, so the best thing to do is just to keep my mouth shut and stay friends, even if I'll regret it for the rest of my life.
Everything was cleaned up and the first years went to change. I saw Eiji and Oishi saying goodbye to the first years as they were walking away together. Eiji turned around and gave me a quick glance; I could see his sparkling eyes and his big smile. He moved his hand to make clear that he would call me later, and I nodded back at him as a sign that I understood.
"Fuji, let's go to the changing room."
"Hai," I said as I followed Tezuka into the room. While we were changing all the first years left and Echizen said goodbye as he went out of the room. Me and Tezuka were the only ones left in the room.
As I was changing I felt like there was someone watching me so I turned around and saw that Tezuka was already done changing and that he was waiting for me.
If I wasn't mistaken which I probably was, I saw Tezuka blush when he turned away from me although I didn't know why he would be blushing in the first place. It probably was my imagination.
I put my shirt on, grabbed my jacket, tied my shoes and grabbed all of my stuff, and then I looked over to Tezuka. "I'm ready."
"Ah," Tezuka said back in that beautiful voice of his.
We went outside and he closed the door with his key. Since he is the captain of our tennis team Tezuka has a spare key to open and close the door to the club room. Oishi also has one and of course Ryuzaki-sensei.
We walked out of the school gate and went home together. Even though there wasn't much said except some small talk; like how our classes went, the walk wasn't uncomfortable it was sort of peaceful.
If you walk with Eiji there is no moment of silence. Not that that is a bad thing, Eiji has some interesting things to say and I don't mind listening to him. But he'll most likely walk with Oishi from now on; I'll just need to walk home alone then. Or I could wait for Tezuka. Yeah I'll do that; I'll just walk home with Tezuka more often than usual.
"Fuji, your textbook," Tezuka said bringing me out of my thoughts again. I noticed that I must have subconsciously walked to my front door because I was already at my steps.
"Ah, you're right I almost forgot gomen ne."
"That's okay, here you go," He said giving me back my textbook of history.
"Domo, ne… Tezuka, can I ask you something?"
"Sure."
"Well since Eiji most likely won't walk home with me anymore or at least a lot less than usual, can I walk home with you more often?"
Tezuka looked like he was thinking about something and I started to worry a little. What if he didn't want that, what if I'll just be a bother to him, I don't want that.
"You don't have to; I'll walk alone if you don't want to," I said still smiling and hiding my disappointment.
"No, it's no problem," He quickly said smiling at me and my heart fluttered at this sight. "It's just that… why won't Eiji walk home with you? You didn't have an argument or something?" Tezuka said a little worried now.
"No, not at all, I just think that he'll want to walk with Oishi from now on that's all." I said while my disappointment disappeared and I was happy again.
"Ah, okay then." he replied. "I'll see you tomorrow then, sayonara Fuji."
"Yes see you tomorrow, sayonara." I waved at him when he turned to leave and I walked inside.
"Tadaima!"
"Okaeri,' responded my mother.
"Oh, you're home early oka-san," I said as my mother walked into the hall where I was taking off my shoes.
"Ah, yes I got home over an hour ago. I thought since it was pretty late yesterday I'll just go home earlier today. Is everything okay dear?" my mother asked worried.
"Yes, why do you ask?"
"Well, since you didn't come down yesterday. I thought maybe you were sick or having a problem. And Yuuta said you looked like you were blushing. Maybe you had a fever."
"No oka-san I didn't have a fever. I was just tired so I went to bed early. Is Yuuta still home or did he leave already?" I asked changing the subject.
"He already left; he said that he still needed to do some homework but that he left his books at school. Oh that reminds me I needed to say 'thank you for the cake' from Yuuta."
"Okay. I'll be upstairs oka-san, call me when dinner is ready," I said going in the direction of the stairs.
"Of course honey," my mother said sweetly.
I could hear my mother asking Yumiko if she knew if something happened to me since I was looking happier than usual while I walked upstairs. I also heard Yumiko telling about this morning at the school gate and that I indeed looked happier this morning at breakfast.
My parents are already gone since they need to go to work early in the morning. So we don't see them in the morning.
I went into my room and sat on my desk next to my bed. I put my desk lamp on and took my papers. I started to do my homework while waiting for dinner to be ready.
Eiji called around 10 pm to, as I already guessed, tell about earlier. I could just see him sitting in his room being very happy and hyperactive with his eyes all sparkly and with a big smile on his face. "Ne, Fujiko arigato."
"Uh for what Eiji?" I asked while actually knowing what he meant.
"You know, for talking to Oishi and saying that I needed to talk to him. I don't know why but he started with describing some sort of scene where a person was in love with another person, but the first person was afraid to say it. Then he asked me what I would do if I was in that situation. I really have no idea where that came from. But thanks to that I finally succeeded in telling Shu…Oishi that I love him."
I chuckled a little with the fact that Eiji didn't know that I actually was the one who asked the same thing to Oishi. At least he finally said it. "How did he react?" I asked thinking at how Oishi would process the sentence that Eiji had said to him.
"Well at first he kinda looked really dumbfounded and I was starting to feel like I was being rejected… But then seconds later when I started to apologize and say that he should just forget what I had said, he answered back and said that he loves me too. I was so thrilled and ecstatic I think I was almost hyperventilating or something nya. I just couldn't believe it, I probably had a really strange look on my face because Oishi looked kinda worried. But after it had finally hit me that it wasn't a dream but reality I sorta…k..kissed…him."
At that point the rambling of Eiji came to a stop. He was most likely blushing like hell on the other side of the line by just thinking back at it. So I pulled him out of his thoughts "Soo…did he kiss back?"
"Uh?... oh! Not at first, I think he was just too surprised to immediately react, but did he react some seconds later wooh! Did you know Fujiko?"
"What?" I asked.
"Shuichiro.. I mean Oishi is a REALLY good kisser!"
"No! Really? I didn't know that one. How can that be?" I said acting mocked surprised. "Maybe I should see for myself, yes I'll do that. Mmm let's see tomorrow after school, I could…"
"No! He's mine Fujiko!" Eiji quickly said protective as I just chuckled at his reaction.
Eiji heard me chuckle over the phone "Ne,… Fujiko don't tease me."
"Gomen gomen. So did you two go somewhere after school?" I asked changing the subject.
"Oh yeah we went to a little café and had a drink there. Then he walked me home and my mother asked if he liked to stay for dinner. He actually just left fifteen minutes ago, right before I called you. But Fujiko…" Eiji asked trailing of his voice getting this apologizing sound in it.
"What?" I asked again.
"Well,…since Shuich…Oishi said…"
"You can say Shuichiro Eiji I don't mind." I told him as he needed to correct himself for the third time.
"Okay well since he said that he'll pick me up tomorrow so we can walk to school together nya…I…well…." His voice was almost a mere whisper as he tried to say something.
"I get it Eiji don't worry, I can walk to school alone. You'll probably want to have some privacy." I responded already knowing what Eiji was trying to say.
"Demo, won't you be lonely if you need to walk alone?" he asked worried.
"No, I'll be fine. I've asked Tezuka if he wanted to walk with me more often."
"Oh! Okay, I'm sure he won't mind that," said Eiji in a weird tone.
"What do you mean with that?" I asked curious.
"… Oh? I'm sorry Fujiko, oka-san… is calling me, I…I need to go. Sayonara."
I felt like he dodged my question, I wonder why? But I still responded "Ah, okay. Oyasumi." and Eiji hung up.
I put my phone on my nightstand and went to take a shower. I went to bed around 11 o'clock in the evening and fell asleep almost immediately. I had a dream again, it was about me and Tezuka for the umpteenth time that month. Not that I mind I really like having dreams about Tezuka, they are always good dreams. But still dreams stay dreams.
Wednesday morning, the middle of the week, everything went as usual. I stood up, showered, got dressed, ate breakfast that Yumiko had made and waited for my sister to drive me to school. At school I waved at my fan club, Yumiko was laughing again in her car, the girls hyperventilated; I got rid of them and went to my classroom.
There I saw sitting at the back of the class a very happy Eiji, his smile all across his face, his eyes sparkling like a t-shirt full of glitters, sitting more like jumping up and down his chair. With the class looking at him and wondering what his reason was for being happy. But since he was a lot like this they didn't even mind to come and ask him.
"Ohayo, Eiji. Is everything okay?" I asked smiling at my ecstatic friend but obviously I already knew the answer.
"HAI! It couldn't be better, domo Fujiko for your help. You know he was at my door this morning and we walked to school together. Shuichiro is so cute I could just eat him. Oh and we kissed again and also before we…." And the rambling of Eiji Kikumaru had again started and as always was stopped by the teacher coming in the room.
Class had started again.
After my lessons I went straight to the clubroom for practice. I was one of the first people to enter and I noticed that Tezuka was already changing.
He already has his tennis short on which lets a part of his long muscled legs show. He just finished lacing his shoes and started pulling his jacket off and unbuttoning the buttons of his shirt one for one, revealing his toned…chest…and…his…very… very… very …fine…abs…
He folded his shirt and put it aside taking his tennis shirt. I was watching him intensely until I snapped out of it and started changing into my own tennis outfit.
Seconds later and the room was filled with people, I saw Eiji and Oishi coming in and blushing a little and then I noticed Tezuka looking at them with a puzzled look on his face which disappeared soon after. He probably figured out why I said that Eiji would be walking home more often with Oishi instead of me.
So after everyone was on the court and we had our warming up done and the latecomers were sent to run laps, all the regulars were to do an endurance test and after that some practice matches.
I took a little pause after I finished my second match and before I started on my last one. I looked around and saw Momo playing against Takashi who were having a little power match, Kaidoh and Echizen also taking a break and Oishi playing Tezuka.
I started staring again, watching buchou go to the front to hit a drop volley, going back to hit the ball that was lobbed in the air by Oishi. I saw his body moving graciously, his muscles stretching and bending, his eyes concentrating on the ball and on the movements of his opponent, sweat rolling of his forehead from the previous endurance test. I was entranced by just watching Tezuka move on the court, watching him play.
"Fujiko?...Are you ready?" asked Eiji. "Fujiko?... you're doing the staring again."
"Uh? Oh sorry," I said. You would think that Eiji probably already noticed something that I like Tezuka. But if you looked around there were more people staring at Tezuka, well he is the best so that's not strange, and I always stare outside the window during class. So Eiji wouldn't notice it.
"Oh, I asked if you are ready for the next match, nya."
"Saa, I'm fine." I responded so my last match started.
I waited again for Tezuka after practice. I stayed next to him and we went to change when almost everyone was gone.
Tezuka locked the door and we went to the school gate. There I saw a girl waiting for someone and apparently that someone was Tezuka.
"Uhm…Tezuka-kun can I talk to you for a second," The girl asked in a gentle voice.
"Ah….Fuji can you wait a bit?" Tezuka asked while the girl was eying me.
"Of course," I said smiling at Tezuka and the girl. She somehow looked familiar to me, she had long blond hair with light brown eyes, a small figure with a thin waist yet a well formed chest; you could say she was pretty. But where had I seen her before? I don't know why but I had this feeling that I really won't like that girl. Wonder why?
I looked around while I was waiting and noticed that the sky had become a lot darker and had this grey color.
It's probably going to rain any moment now; we should better hurry up a bit. Oh great! I don't have my umbrella with me since the weatherman said it wasn't going to rain today, stupid weatherman. Next time I'll ask Inui he probably knows it better than all the weather people. Sigh, let's just hope it isn't going to rain while I'm still outside I don't want to get all wet.
Tezuka came back when he finished talking to that girl, who looked a bit sad now, and we started walking. There was a silence but a comfortable one when I felt a droplet on my hand then one on my cheek, nose, and hand again and then slowly everywhere. It started pouring.
Of course! It's raining, now I'm getting all wet. I think Tezuka heard me sigh because I think I saw him smile a little. I was so caught up in my own thoughts that I didn't notice what Tezuka was doing. In the mean time my hair was getting wet and my shirt a little drenched, it was really pouring I'm probably completely wet when I come home.
Uh, the rain stopped already? I looked up to see what was the cause of me not getting any wetter and saw an umbrella above my head.
A simple green umbrella held by none other than Tezuka. I noticed that he was walking a little closer to me so we both wouldn't get wet since my arm was occasionally brushing against Tezuka's.
As I inwardly went ecstatic by this simple fact I said on a neutral tone "Domo Tezuka."
"Ah." And we walked further with a comfortable silence between us with a little small talk here and there about practice which was fun but tiring, class, and yes even a minute on Eiji's and Oishi's new found relationship. Oh and I was right about earlier that he found it out. Really Tezuka is sometimes so easy to read.
I stopped in front of my door and turned to say goodbye to Tezuka. He looked heavenly, his hair a little wet from the rain from before he took his umbrella, his glasses of so he could clean them and remove some of the droplets on it, his beautiful eyes looking down at it. I suddenly felt like I wanted to kiss him, so I said goodbye before I actually would.
It's not like I don't have self-control, I have plenty of it, but I don't dare to try to find out how much actually, especially not with Tezuka and the fact that I want to kiss him.
So I said goodbye to him and walked inside, I went upstairs to dry my hair a little and do my homework after that I ate dinner with my family and watched some television and around 11 o'clock I went to my bed.
My classes on Thursday were so boring and I'm not the only one who's thinking this. I looked around the class and noticed a lot of students staring into nothing, doodling, whispering to their neighbors and Eiji even almost asleep. To say it shorter: not paying attention to class.
Then I looked at the clock to see that there were still more than 10 minutes before the bell rang.
What will we do today? Oh right Ryuzaki-sensei said something about individual practice yesterday. Maybe I'll ask Tezuka to play a match with me or ask Echizen. I also can just practice my three counters… nah then I'll better just think of a new one. I don't want to act all high and mighty but I just don't need to practice them anymore.
Wait, my best idea so far, I'll go tease Oishi a little with telling him that Eiji told me about their kiss and see his reaction, I'll most likely make him look like a red tomato. But then again if I do that I'll have to run laps. Oh well I'll just make sure that Oishi also needs to run laps so if I stall it long enough Tezuka will say that we aren't aloud to slack of and say that we'll need to run a couple of laps. Oh and after that I could tease Tezuka himself which would probably lead to more laps for me.
Now that I think about it Tezuka only runs laps if it's for practice like warming up or training his endurance, since he can't, oh no, let me repeat that, since he won't give himself laps.
I know! I should tell Tezuka to run ten laps for slacking off and doing nothing. Okay he isn't actually doing nothing, he is just looking at us to see if everything is okay and that we are doing our best. But still I just want to see how he'll react. He'll probably first be shocked a little, then angry and then say how many laps I have to run. How much would it be 30, 50 more? I think around 50, I'll just have to wait and see for myself.
"Triiiiiiiiiiiiing!" finally the bell rang and put me out of my thoughts. Really free time isn't a good thing for a sadist, well more like for the victims of the sadist since in that time a lot of funny plans could be formed.
"Ne, Fujiko what is it with that weird smile on your face, you aren't going to do anything during practice are you?" Eiji asked a little suspicious.
"Saaaa,…" I merely answered getting a bit scared expression as reaction from Eiji.
My hyperactive friend already went ahead so he could meet up with Oishi while I was still packing my things.
I walked down the hallway to the stairs passing some other classes; here and there I could see a girl swooning a little when I passed by.
"Fuji-sama! Konnichiwa."
"Well hello there, I'm sorry but will you excuse me I need to go to my club activities or my buchou wouldn't be really happy." I said as I turned around to see who had called me. I saw one of my fan girls with a friend of hers. He was looking straight at me, and when I looked at him he reddened a little but didn't turn away.
Oh yes I don't only have female fans but also some male fans. I'm not surprised though, and Tezuka also has male fans. Not that he knows that but you should see them staring at him. It's even worse when I'm walking with Tezuka or talking to him, it's like we're performing a show or something, almost everybody is watching us. But I got used to it and I don't really care who is my fan as long as they keep their hands off of me and don't run in my way.
"Of course Fuji-sama, ganbate," the guy responded smiling brightly at me. He had short dark hair and a well built body, he was probably on some basketball team or something like that. He looked like a junior to me but then again the girl he was with was a senior so maybe he was too.
"Hai, goodbye," I gently smiled back at them and walked away towards the stairs.
"Buchou," I greeted as I walked inside the room.
"Fuji, you were almost late."
"Gomenasai, I was stopped for a moment."
"Ah. Make sure you are always on time." His usual expression on his face, but something seemed different to me. Everybody most likely didn't notice, but Tezuka was having a bad day. Wonder what happened, maybe I'll ask him if we are walking home. No teasing Tezuka then just Oishi and Eiji.
"Ne, Momo, Kaidoh?"
"What is it senpai?" Momo asked and the response I got from Kaidoh was his usual sound "Fshuuuuu."
"I recommend that you don't start fighting to much today." I answered.
"Nani? Why?" Momo asked a little puzzled.
" Tezuka is having a bad day. I'm just warning you two if you don't want to run laps all the time," I said in a normal tone.
"Buchou is having a bad day? Really?" Momo asked still a bit confused.
"I didn't notice it." Kaidoh answered.
"Nya , me neither. Are you sure Fujiko?"
"Hai, he answered a little sooner than usual and he had this little annoyed tone in his voice. Oh and his eyebrows were more curved, and he'll probably handle his racket rougher than he normally does." I just said like it was the most normal thing in the world to know such things.
I saw everybody in the room staring at me with a weird expression. "What, you didn't know? Well I do spend more time with him than you do, but you should have noticed something?"
"Well I know about the racket, that when he is frustrated he grabs it different. But since I haven't seen him with his racket today I wouldn't know." Oishi responded.
"Mmmmh, well we better hurry up, don't want buchou to wait too long do we?" and I changed quickly into my tennis outfit.
Tezuka was locking the door again and we headed to the school gate, practice had ended and even though I had warned Momo and Kaidoh, they still had to run laps along with a big part of our team, yes even me since I went trough with my plan of teasing Oishi.
But now we were walking home. I was about to ask Tezuka what had been bothering him today when I saw the same girl from yesterday waiting at the gate. I stopped immediately and Tezuka stopped too and then looked at me, he followed my gaze and noticed the girl. I heard him sigh as he turned back to me.
"Sorry Fuji but can you go on alone today? I have something to take care off." Tezuka said.
"Sure see you tomorrow then." I responded walking past the girl. I smiled at her to hide my confusion from her and Tezuka.
I was a little confused, I didn't know what this all meant. Why was that girl here again? Why did it seem like I won't like her when I don't even know her? Why did Tezuka say that I needed to walk home alone instead of saying that I had to wait again like yesterday? Maybe it would take longer than yesterday so he didn't want to bother me with it, but then why would it take so long? And what were they talking about?
I don't know why but I even felt a bit jealous and sad since I couldn't walk home with Tezuka even though I really liked to.
I pondered over all of this while I was walking home alone, through the streets. There weren't a lot of people outside since it was a bit cold and the sky looked grey again. The people I did see were also students walking home or to a café and then some mothers with their children hurrying to their home or the grocery store.
Then I was in my street and went to my house. I opened our little gate and walked on our little path towards the door.
I opened the door and walked inside saying that I'm home and getting a response from Yumiko.
I made my homework, ate dinner with the whole family except for Yuuta since he was at his school, and when it was getting late I went to my room to go to bed.
As I lay in bed I thought again about earlier and became confused again. By the time I was almost fast asleep I had made this agreement with myself that I would ask Tezuka about it tomorrow and now just go to sleep.
For the people who don't know a lot of Japanese here are the translations, I think they are written right but I'm not sure.
Domo: thanks
Gomen ne/ gomenasai: sorry
Arigatou: thank you
Daijobe: it's fine/ everything is okay
Hai: yes/ okay
Senpai: you say behind the name of someone older than you
Ganbate: work hard/ do your best
Sama: you say behind the name of someone you respect a lot
Buchou: captain
Nani: what
Demo: but
Ochibi: shortie
Tadaima: I am home
Okairi: welcome home
Nee-san: sister
Aniki: big brother
Konbanwa: good night
Oyasumi: sleep well/ sweat dreams
Moshi moshi: a way to pick up your phone
Ohayo: good morning
Konnichiwa: hallo
Oka-san: mama
Wow that's actually quite a lot, :p oh well
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Thank you for reading and it won't be too long before my next chapter is on. I hope ^^
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