EPOV
I looked at the newest tombstone in the Forks graveyard. The coffin was just lowered a few seconds ago and the hole filled up with dirt.
Isabella Marie Swan
Loving daughter and friend. She will always be remembered as the kindest of us all.
My heart ached so badly for her, to hold her, to be with her. I couldn't take this, I felt like my heart was being ripped up into little pieces. She was dead. This picture would be burned into my mind forever, haunting me, taunting me. Maybe I could have stopped this if I hadn't left. Oh how I wished I didn't leave, but I was being selfish. Now she was in heaven, somewhere she never could be if she was with me. But I longed for her touch, her scent, her voice.
It seemed me leaving didn't have the effect I hoped it would. I knew she was strong, that she would move on and she proved me right. She moved on, she was engaged. And this all happened within a year after we left. She was planning to get married when she graduated college. (sorry if this doesn't seem like Bella because she's moving on too fast but I didn't want her to be in her 20s when they were reunited).
I never thought that she would move on so fast, maybe I didn't mean as much to her as I thought I did. But she would always mean so much to me. Always. I guess I made the right choice not turning her because if I did that would have been the biggest mistake of her life.
Edward, don't beat yourself up about this, there was nothing you could do (Carlisle)
Ha! Nothing I could have done, how wrong he was. I could have stayed. But I left for her sake. Right now, I don't know if I made the right decision, maybe I did, maybe I didn't. I've been miserable ever since I left her and now she just shattered my heart. But maybe she was really happy during the time that I left; maybe she was happier than I could have ever made her.
It's not fair. IT'S NOT FAIR!!!! She shouldn't have died like this, she shouldn't have died! It's all my fault, I should have seen this coming! Why? WHY????(Alice)
Alice's thoughts crashed into my head. She was obviously grieving, as calm as she was on the outside but on the inside she was a mess. Jasper had a hard time calming her down when she first found out and but after that she's been quiet. Too quiet, she only ever talks to Jasper anymore.
Poor thing, if only we could have prevented this. (Esme)
She died…she died…I wonder how Edward's dealing with this. (Emmett)
This is all my fault, this is all my fault. If I hadn't ruin her birthday party, she wouldn't be like this. (Jasper)
Perfect, now we can be a family again. I was starting to get worried but now that she's dead, everything will be fine…(Rosalie)
She broke my heart but I guess it was only fair because I broke her heart first. After the day I left her in the forest, I couldn't think of a reason not to just kill myself but then I remembered. For Bella, I would continue to live until she died. And I tried to stay away, and I succeeded for a while. But each passing day, I found it more and more difficult to not be around her. To know she wasn't with me. To know that she would eventually end up with someone else. I couldn't take it, so I thought I'd come back to Forks just to see how she's doing. I hoped that she was having a happy and normal life, not dwelling on me. But part of me hoped that she was.
What I saw broke my heart, she said yes. He had asked her to marry him and she said yes. And from then on, I knew. She moved on and it was going to be like I never existed to her. But nothing mattered anymore, because she's dead.
In a time of 2 years in Forks, she managed to break 3 hearts. Mine, the werewolf's and Charlie's. She was the only thing left for Charlie and now that she's gone.
I couldn't take it anymore, seeing her tombstone, knowing she's 6 feet under. No one but my family was around now so I ran. I ran away.