~Yesterday~
*By Sun Kissed Girlie*
~Disclaimer: Do we really have to put
these things? Everyone already knows that Square Soft owns Final Fantasy VIII,
and like Michael Jackson paid million for this song? I dunno, he bought a whole
bunch of songs, maybe one of the Beatles still own this one. :-)~
Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
"What
do you think happens after you die?" Rinoa asked lazily as she layed beside
Seifer in the thick green grass of Timber with her hands behind her head,
looking up at the clouds as the passed them by.
Seifer
moved his leg off his other one uncomfortably and then stretched both his legs
out in front of himself, no longer sitting in his normal manner. He thought for
a long moment before he answered the dark haired girl who was lying beside him.
"I don't know…if your good, you go to Heaven, and if you act up; you go to
Hell…I guess…" Seifer paused thinking it all over.
Rinoa
stared up at the puffy white clouds, and shrugged. "Maybe, when you die, you
see everyone you love in Heaven. Maybe, someone made up Hell to scare people
into acting right. I think that Hell's on earth, and you pay for what you do
here." She stated matter-of-factly. Smiling to herself at this new revelation
she then closed her eyes and focused on the nice breeze that was softly moving
strands of her hair.
Seifer
didn't actually take in what she had said, instead he merely nodded his
agreement and lazily watched bright blue sky as the clouds went by.
Now it looks as though they're here to stay.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Rain pelted the window that Seifer was staring out
of blankly. Another battle, and he had almost no time to prepare, he had never
really been good in high pressure situations before…actually in every other
high pressure situation; he chocked. He failed the SeeD exam, back in Timber,
and now. Third time is the charm, right? He really hoped that was true.
Seifer couldn't get his thoughts to settle, they all
flowed out of reach before he could grasp them. One thought after another
crossed his mind, but he was too over-whelmed to understand what it all meant.
For once in his life he was scared, but he would never admit it to himself,
even at all costs.
Now Galbadia Garden was nearing Balamb Garden, and Seifer's hands were sweating. He quickly wiped
them on his pant legs, and set his quivering jaw. He could get out of this now;
he just had to do his best, and try not to think about what would happen if he
didn't succeed.
Suddenly, I'm not half to man I used to be.
There's a shadow hanging over me.
Seifer
looked at Ultimecia, awaiting his next orders. It was too late to turn back
now; he was too deep in this. Now, all he was, was a lapdog, following orders.
He had lost of his pride, all of the pride he had worked so hard to get. It was
all gone, just like a summer breeze.
He
felt her eyes on him, and it made a cold sweat pop up all over his body. Fear;
he had never been afraid of anything, he had been so young and naïve. Seifer
slowly lifted his gaze to meet her evil glaring smile, and he clenched his fist
to stop his hands from shaking; this was far from being over.
Oh, yesterday came suddenly.
Why she had to go, I don't know she wouldn't say.
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday.
Why
did he let her go? She was the best thing that had ever happened to him, and he
had let her go without second thought. Seifer cursed his own name,
there was no one on the planet he hated more than himself. He had single handly ruined his own life; what an accomplishment, he
should be proud of himself, at least he was good at something.
He was
now only left with the memories and broken pieces of his life. Somehow, he
would have to rebuild, from scratch, his life. It would never be the same, but
one has to try.
Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
"I
think Hell's on earth." Yes, Rinoa, I believe that, too. Seifer thought to
himself as he stared up at the Timber sky; the sky was the same, but he sure
wasn't. He was now paying for what he had done, and it was almost too much for
him to bear. Being lonely for the rest of your days, having failure writing on
your forehead; these were the things he battled with day to day now.
Why she
had to go, I don't know she wouldn't say.
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
It's hard to be alone, and
unless you've been there, you wouldn't understand it. Seifer had dreams of the
past; the good memories hurt more than the bad ones amazingly. They burned at
his heart, and made that deep pit in his stomach have a dull ache. It would be
hard to rebuild his life when he didn't have the slightest idea where to start.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
"Maybe, when you die, you see everyone you loved…"
Yes, everything would be alright. Seifer knew it, even if he never saw Rinoa in
this life, when it was all over, she'd lay beside him
in the grass again, and they would talk about non important things; just like
yesterday.
