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BELLA'S VIEW

I blame Edward.

Nothing could have brought me to do this...

Besides him.

I blame him.

I asked him just about every single day to do it. And every single day he declined. I begged him, I even left. I found I couldn't stay away for long, or he for instance, could not either.

And now I'm in the process of asking Alice. I want to stay with him forever, and I don't care if he's angry at first. He's always angry. I just hope that his anger would cause him to do anything drastic...

Edward was away for his hunting trip. This one seemed to be a bit longer than usual. Apparently he had starved himself too much in my presence, and had to go away for at least 3-4 days.

It was better now. We didn't get into fights too often...We did for a bit. A short bit of course, because, he had the incredible ability of dazzling me. While he made me angry sometimes, upset even, I could never seem to hold it long. I just forgot what I was thinking about, he would win all of our arguments ( no matter how short they were).

I was in the process of calling Alice right now. After calling her cell twice, she finally picked upped.

"Hey Bella," she greeted warmly into the phone. "I don't mean to be really rude or anything, but can you please get to the point. I have, um...company." I knew Jasper was with her, it was obvious. She and him had started spending (at least so it seemed to me) a lot more time together. They both seemed happier these days.

"Okay," I said. "Hey Alice, after you're, um...done. Can you come over? It's important."

'Wait...why?" I realized I had her attention now.

"Just promise me you'll come," I sighed. Charlie was away for a few days. He'd also been given a heads up notice that Edward had been leaving for quite a few days, and had eagerly taken that opportunity to go to a police meeting or something, leaving me all by myself for a week.

Alice came within the hour.

"What's wrong Bella?" She asked as soon as she came in. I sighed, and faced the wall so I wouldn't have to look at her right now. "Oh my god. Is it something bad? You know you can tell me anything Bella!"

"Alice I want you to," I turned to face her. "I want you to..."I stopped at this point. Her expression had gone blank, but for a shorter time than usual.

"Kill you. Is that right?" She knew.

"Yes. You KNOW that Edward will never do it. And he never has to know. Remember, you told me that you could block him out of your mind occasionally, if you wanted. And I'm pretty sure you could do it for awhile. He's away for a while, and I could..."

She cut me short. "You want me to KILL you. Edward's going to kill ME if I do that," she squeaked.

"No, he won't. You know he won't."

"He would. Rosalie's already considered that."

"You and Jasper could go away for a few weeks, a month even. PLEASE Alice. I'm begging you. I KNOW that right now is the moment. You have to do it Alice, before it's too..."

"Late," she finished. "Before it's too late. You know, if I'd do it, there would be no turning back. Ever. You'd be dead. And," she turned to face the wall at this point. "Edward would leave you. At least for awhile."

"He wouldn't," I argued. "I know he wouldn't."

"You haven't known him for as long as I have Bella. Trust me on this." She turned to face me then. "It's the biggest betrayal, you know. For a loved one."

I was about to start crying, since I knew that what she was saying was right. "Please Alice,' I begged. "For me."

"Even though it's against my better judgement Bella, I'll do it."

"When," I asked.

"Now."

"Thanks Alice." Before I could say anything else, she bit me. Hard.