Buffy has finally realized her feelings for Spike, but he's gone, What's a pregnant woman to do? Go after him of course. More trouble ensues during their relationship. R/R pro-flames. Lots of fluffy love and babies. B/S D/OMC A/X W/OZ
Rated PG13 – chapters 14- Buffy the vampire Slayer- Romance- Author- BookwormLKH
DISCLAIMER: none of this is mine. The only four characters I own are James Zach Ashley and Wolfe plus some very minor characters in epilogue.
AUTHORS NOTE: I think its written around season 6 or 7. I lost count
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Buffy woke up in Spikes bed. She sat up on her elbows and looked around
/I cant believe I did it again. Ive got to stop this. I'll tell him today\
She thought to herself and got up to look for Spike. All she found was a note.
Slayer,
I know your going to wake up and regret last night, as you do all the others, So I'm leaving. That way you are free of regret. I can no longer stand to love you and not be loved back. The meaninglessness of our sex to you is eating away at me. If ever you change your mind about me, contact Lorne, he'll Know where I am. Im sorry, I do Love you, But until you realize that you love me too I cannot let 'us' continue..
Spike
P.S. I have to tell you something, The night before last I did something rash, I can not tell you this on a piece of paper, but if you love me and you find me, I'll give you the biggest shock of your life. I hope you come to call because you are the reason I made this rash decision.
Buffy set the note down and took a seat on the edge of his bed. She did it. She drove him out, just like Angel, only this hurt a lot worse. Their sex wasn't meaningless. It was just… forbidden. What would her friends and her sister think of her if they knew she was sleeping with a vampire. Another vampire. Buffy pounded her fists into the mattress in frustration.
/ok, calm. Just breath. He'll come back.. yeah right, just like angel came back? No! Spike will come back. He has to. No he doesn't. With the way you treated him, im surprised he stayed this long. Well I couldn't have, but he could ruin my reputation. What reputation? Well the one where… well… I im the slayer and oh shut up!\
Her mind was battling furiously with itself. She finally stood up, grabbed her purse and got dressed. On her was out she jotted him a note just in case he came back for a few of his things.
Spike,
I am so wretched. I do feel regret, but only because I am keeping a very large secret from everyone for their own good. I understand why you left, and its probably for the best. If I can muster enough courage to tell people, I will come to you. I promise. I refuse to tell you I love you for the first time spell free in a note, so for now I will just tell you I have strong feelings for you. I know this will not make up for whatever else I have said for you. But Im sorry, forever yours
Buffy
Ps Last night was the best I have ever had, with you Riley or Angel. I hope you get this
She creased the note and put it in the fridge with his liquor and blood, Where he was sure to see it. Briefly thinking about what surprised he had, she grabbed the rest of her belongings and pulled the heavy crypt door open, and shut it sharply. Buffy walked the well-worn path back to her house and climbed the steps sleepily. She checked on dawn and curled up on her bed. How she loved Saturday.