Spencer's POV
Right now I'm at Aiden's house, laying in his bed and he is curled up behind me. Why is it that I know I'm supposed to have this feeling that butterflies are fluttering around in my stomach when I'm with my boyfriend the normal feeling a teenage girl has but you only have that feeling when you're around his gorgeous best friend Ashley? Why is it that in the Bible it says being gay is wrong but it was St. Paul who says that and not Jesus-our savior nor God- our Lord who we were taught loves all his children just the way they are? Why is it that I can't stop thinking about Ashley? Why is it that her lips are so perfect and they look so soft? Why does my body tingle when she tou- no Spencer. Stop thinking like that.
Am I gay? No you're not.
I think I am. Stop thinking like this Spencer. It's wrong according to everything you believe in. You are not gay so forget it.
I should just stop thinking like this and focus on my boyfriend-yes Spencer do that, because he is a boy, a BOY not a girl. A girl with a girl is an abomination.
I am just going to put these thoughts somewhere else. In the back of my head. I mean, I'm here with my boyfriend. Any girl would want to be with him. Look at him, he's Aiden Dennison. The star point guard of the King High basketball team. He's gorgeous and he's strong and popular. He's the best basketball player on the West Coast. And he wants YOU. A cheerleader, a goodie-two-shoed little church girl. Or formally known as, Spencer Carlin.
Ashley's POV
Is it so bad for me to have feelings for my best friend of fifteen years girlfriend? Yes it is. He's your BEST friend dammit!
It's not like anything would happen anyways though. She's straight. Maybe she isn't.
Of course she is, why is she with Aiden then? Cover up.
That's bullshit. Oh my god, I'm crazy. I'm completely nuts, I'm talking to myself. You have noone else to talk to. What are you going to do? Go to Aiden and tell him that you have the hots for his girlfriend?
I have a very good point there.
Why is it that me, Davies, out of all people, a girl that consists of one night stands and me, a girl who has never kissed the same girl twice before (yes I'm gay) wants a relationship with a person that I can possibly never have? Sure, Spencer is hot- like a California fucking twenty-five hot, we're talking Carlin here, drop-dead-gorgeous, b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l.
Oh my god, look at me, I want a relationship and I haven't wanted one since the miscarriage with Aiden (yes my best friend got be pregnant but that's not the point right now.)
This person, this person that is talking about commitment here, is not the Ashley Davies everybody knows, she's not the rockish, guitar playing, gorgeous girl everybody knows. Who is this person and what has she done with the real Ashley Davies?