Disclaimer: I don't own Roswell

Authors notes: just a short fic hope you like.

Summary: Tess's thoughts.

Do you understand how it feels to be hated by everyone you've ever cared about?

If you do then you understand how it feels to be me.. An accused murder. that's what I am.

I remember my past life. it was magical I had everything I'd ever wanted.. Zan's love. a life people envied but most of all I had friends people who cared for me.

It seems like all I'll ever do is put my self on the sword for those I care for.. But they don't know it in their eyes they see me a cold heartless murder.

I can remember Ava how she felt about everything how it felt to know your husband didn't really care and then find that your friends thought you were planning something.

History always repeats it self especially when your me.. I though I had escaped my past life but I haven't I am still here trying to find an opening to save Alex.

You see I never killed Alex he had been kidnapped and I killed a shape shifter pretending to be him.

I wanted to tell everyone but you know they never would listen in their eyes I'm still cold. vindictive. heartless.

But I know that some day when I do rescue Alex and we return I know they'll wish they'd never hated me they'll wish they'd helped me.

But maybe I'm just crazy and maybe my minds playing tricks on me.

I know in my heart they'll never listen.. They'll never believe its Alex.. And they'll never believe I've done what they couldn't.

I risked my life to save the people around me.