I take a deep breath now,
Because I know I'll be drowning later.
Right now, in my fear…
Fear that I will never be good enough….
Than I have never been good enough.
So right now, in my fear,
I smile;
To cover my hurt,
To hide my emotions from the world.
To be as I am without being my true self.
I have always hidden.
Not in fear; in caution.
When those you love are hurt,
So injured are you,
In a way that cripples you,
Scars you.
I will never be the child I wasn't able to be.
I might be far more mature than my age should allow,
But I am "happy" where I am.
Happy to my family, happy to the world.
But dying on the inside.
Don't feel bad for me-
Take heed, these are words of caution,
Love yourself as you love others.
Enjoy your life to the fullness of color, sound, taste- love, above everything else but God Himself.
Laugh, and laugh hard.
Don't hide; we all must face both good and bad with the inner braveness we surely do possess.
You, you are unique.
Like me, you may hide it to also hide your "faults."
But you- you and I- we will stop hiding.
We will stop surviving,
In order to begin living.