1 It's not too late
Part one
Q/N: OK, it's official Seiftis and Quall are my two fave types of fanfic. This is a Quall but with a difference, cos instead of Quistis moping over Squall getting with Rinoa, it's gonna be Squall moping over Quistis getting with Seifer. Bound to be entertaining and I'm adding in some lyrics from a few songs that I really love at the moment. This is an R for the simple reason that there's gonna be self-inflicted damage and maybe suicide but it all depends on how I feel. OK story start, now!
Chapter one Run Away
1.1 Sometimes I feel I've got to
Run away
I've got to
Get away
From the pain you drive in the heart of me
The love we share
Seems to go nowhere
And I've lost my light
I toss and turn can't sleep at night
Once I ran to you
Now I run from you
This tainted love you're giving
I gave you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
1.1.1 Soft Cell/Marilyn Manson – Tainted Love
Squall sat nervously and alone in his room just staring blankly at the wall. He didn't know what to say or how to feel. He'd been so mixed up for the last few weeks. Everything that had been going on around him had been a blur. He hadn't been able to focus on his work or his training. Nothing seemed to matter to him anymore. All he wanted to do was run. Run away from Garden and all the problems harboured within it. He didn't know if he could take the pressure or not of being the commander any longer. It was all because of her. It wasn't Rinoa's sudden departure from Garden that had left him so mixed up; it was his dearest friend getting with his rival. He clenched his fists tightly and stood up. Rinoa hadn't wanted to stay at Garden; she had wanted to return home to Timber. Squall had refused to go with her so she went to Timber alone, promptly ending her relationship with Squall before she left. Just after she left though, Quistis had let out about her passionate relationship with none other that Seifer Almasy. They were very much in love and very much involved. Whether they'd slept together or not was another story. Squall walked over to the window and brushed his floppy brown hair out of his eyes. He couldn't just stay in his room until the relationship between Quistis and Seifer ended. He had to get up and get on with his life, even if it meant intervening in their relationship. He was suddenly driven by a deep determination to end Quistis and Seifer for good. Maybe this could be the new driving force in his life. Squall turned and walked out of the door. He walked out of the dormitory and into the Quad. He didn't like the side of him that wanted to make Quistis unhappy. He knew she'd be sad if he split her and Seifer up, so maybe it wasn't a good idea. As he walked down the steps he saw two familiar faces sitting on a bench together, happily holding hands. It was them. Quistis and Seifer. Squall stopped and stepped back a few paces. If he was going to intervene it wasn't going to be now. Through the corner of his eye he could see Seifer gently kissing her cheek. This hurt Squall to see. Despite the way he'd treated Quistis in the past, he still had strong feelings for her, feelings that went way beyond being just friends.
"Squall!" a voice in front of him said. He turned his head and jumped when he saw Selphie's happy-go-lucky face inches away from his.
"Hey Selphie," Squall said as calmly as he could muster in his current predicament. Selphie smiled.
"You doing OK now? We haven't seen you for a while," she asked. Squall nodded.
"I'm doing fine now thanks Selphie," he replied, exchanging his gaze between Selphie and Quistis. Selphie picked onto this and grinned.
"Whatcha looking at Quistis for?" Selphie smirked cheerfully. Squall's gaze snapped back onto Selphie.
"Er…er…" Squall stuttered.
"You're not jealous of her and Seifer now are you?"
"Er…er…"
"Is that all you have to say?"
"…"
"Okay, I'll take your silence as a 'yes Selphie I am jealous.'" Selphie smiled as Squall turned bright red. "Oh my gosh you've gone red!" she squealed. "Have I embarrassed you that badly?" Squall bit his lip and said nothing. Selphie squealed even louder and began to jump up and down like a rabbit on steroids.
"What's going on here?" a female voice enquired from behind Squall. Selphie stopped jumping and Squall's whole body went numb. He knew who'd be there to face him if he turned round now.
"Hey Quisty!" Selphie chirped. 'Dammit' Squall thought. 'I knew it'd be her.' [Calm down Squall] a reassuring voice in his head told him. It was Shiva. 'Calm down? How am I supposed to calm down? The woman I have just a slight crush on is standing behind me with her bloody boyfriend! I can't be calm!' Squall thought, enraged at Shiva's helpful comment. [You'll never accomplish anything powered by rage] she replied. Squall thought about this carefully. Shiva knew him too well, just like Quistis did. He took a deep breath and calmed himself down.
"Hey Selphie, me and Quistis are going into Balamb to look around a bit. Do you and Irvine wanna come along?" Seifer asked, putting one arm around Quistis' waist.
"Hyne," Squall muttered.
"Did you just say something Squall?" Selphie asked.
"Nope, not a word," Squall replied, putting on a false smile to hide how pissed off he was.
"We'd love to come!" Selphie focused her attention on the happy couple once again. "I'll just go get Irvine!" Selphie skipped off to go and find her ruffled cowboy boyfriend.
"What about you Squall? You up for coming?" Seifer asked him. 'Do you think I'd want to be around you while all you're doing is sucking up to Quistis?' Squall thought. [Temper] Shiva reminded him. That was how close he and Shiva were. She acted like his mother. In a way this gave Squall a sense of security, knowing that there'd be someone to talk to, even if she was just in his head for now. Squall pivoted round to face the pair. It was all to sickly sweet for him to bear.
"No sorry I'm way too busy!" he said in the happiest tone he could manage without raising their suspicions.
"Oh no," Quistis said. "We can't just leave Squall out of this. He hasn't been out much since Rinoa left him." Squall smiled. She still cared about him. Quistis left Seifer's side and put her hands on Squall's shoulders. "I'll tell you what, Irvine has invites to a couple of parties this week, we'll bring you along, is that OK?"
"Sounds OK," Squall replied. "What about…"
"Seifer?" Quistis replied, perfectly as usual. "He can't make it. Too much work to do."
"You'll escort Quistis to theses parties for me won't ya Squall?" Seifer asked. Squall was surprised. Did Seifer know what kind of risk he was taking? [What did I tell you?] Shiva said smugly. 'Thanks mother' was Squall's silent sarcastic reply.
"I'll do that for you, sure Seifer," Squall replied. Seifer smiled.
"OK then, See ya round Squall," Seifer walked on past him and beckoned Quistis to follow.
"If you ever need to talk I'll be here," Quistis said, kissing his cheek gently. Squall heard Seifer chuckle as Quistis ran over to him. Squall felt a smug, content smile creep onto his face. Maybe this week wasn't going to be a total loss after all.
Ooh! Squall is being such a sneaky boy! Let's see if his mean little scheme will come out roses for him in the end. The lyrics are from one of my favourite songs ever. At the time I was thinking of the Marilyn Manson version but either will work. I think I got the lyrics right but if I didn't, well nobody's perfect. See ya for part two soon!
Part one
Q/N: OK, it's official Seiftis and Quall are my two fave types of fanfic. This is a Quall but with a difference, cos instead of Quistis moping over Squall getting with Rinoa, it's gonna be Squall moping over Quistis getting with Seifer. Bound to be entertaining and I'm adding in some lyrics from a few songs that I really love at the moment. This is an R for the simple reason that there's gonna be self-inflicted damage and maybe suicide but it all depends on how I feel. OK story start, now!
Chapter one Run Away
1.1 Sometimes I feel I've got to
Run away
I've got to
Get away
From the pain you drive in the heart of me
The love we share
Seems to go nowhere
And I've lost my light
I toss and turn can't sleep at night
Once I ran to you
Now I run from you
This tainted love you're giving
I gave you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
1.1.1 Soft Cell/Marilyn Manson – Tainted Love
Squall sat nervously and alone in his room just staring blankly at the wall. He didn't know what to say or how to feel. He'd been so mixed up for the last few weeks. Everything that had been going on around him had been a blur. He hadn't been able to focus on his work or his training. Nothing seemed to matter to him anymore. All he wanted to do was run. Run away from Garden and all the problems harboured within it. He didn't know if he could take the pressure or not of being the commander any longer. It was all because of her. It wasn't Rinoa's sudden departure from Garden that had left him so mixed up; it was his dearest friend getting with his rival. He clenched his fists tightly and stood up. Rinoa hadn't wanted to stay at Garden; she had wanted to return home to Timber. Squall had refused to go with her so she went to Timber alone, promptly ending her relationship with Squall before she left. Just after she left though, Quistis had let out about her passionate relationship with none other that Seifer Almasy. They were very much in love and very much involved. Whether they'd slept together or not was another story. Squall walked over to the window and brushed his floppy brown hair out of his eyes. He couldn't just stay in his room until the relationship between Quistis and Seifer ended. He had to get up and get on with his life, even if it meant intervening in their relationship. He was suddenly driven by a deep determination to end Quistis and Seifer for good. Maybe this could be the new driving force in his life. Squall turned and walked out of the door. He walked out of the dormitory and into the Quad. He didn't like the side of him that wanted to make Quistis unhappy. He knew she'd be sad if he split her and Seifer up, so maybe it wasn't a good idea. As he walked down the steps he saw two familiar faces sitting on a bench together, happily holding hands. It was them. Quistis and Seifer. Squall stopped and stepped back a few paces. If he was going to intervene it wasn't going to be now. Through the corner of his eye he could see Seifer gently kissing her cheek. This hurt Squall to see. Despite the way he'd treated Quistis in the past, he still had strong feelings for her, feelings that went way beyond being just friends.
"Squall!" a voice in front of him said. He turned his head and jumped when he saw Selphie's happy-go-lucky face inches away from his.
"Hey Selphie," Squall said as calmly as he could muster in his current predicament. Selphie smiled.
"You doing OK now? We haven't seen you for a while," she asked. Squall nodded.
"I'm doing fine now thanks Selphie," he replied, exchanging his gaze between Selphie and Quistis. Selphie picked onto this and grinned.
"Whatcha looking at Quistis for?" Selphie smirked cheerfully. Squall's gaze snapped back onto Selphie.
"Er…er…" Squall stuttered.
"You're not jealous of her and Seifer now are you?"
"Er…er…"
"Is that all you have to say?"
"…"
"Okay, I'll take your silence as a 'yes Selphie I am jealous.'" Selphie smiled as Squall turned bright red. "Oh my gosh you've gone red!" she squealed. "Have I embarrassed you that badly?" Squall bit his lip and said nothing. Selphie squealed even louder and began to jump up and down like a rabbit on steroids.
"What's going on here?" a female voice enquired from behind Squall. Selphie stopped jumping and Squall's whole body went numb. He knew who'd be there to face him if he turned round now.
"Hey Quisty!" Selphie chirped. 'Dammit' Squall thought. 'I knew it'd be her.' [Calm down Squall] a reassuring voice in his head told him. It was Shiva. 'Calm down? How am I supposed to calm down? The woman I have just a slight crush on is standing behind me with her bloody boyfriend! I can't be calm!' Squall thought, enraged at Shiva's helpful comment. [You'll never accomplish anything powered by rage] she replied. Squall thought about this carefully. Shiva knew him too well, just like Quistis did. He took a deep breath and calmed himself down.
"Hey Selphie, me and Quistis are going into Balamb to look around a bit. Do you and Irvine wanna come along?" Seifer asked, putting one arm around Quistis' waist.
"Hyne," Squall muttered.
"Did you just say something Squall?" Selphie asked.
"Nope, not a word," Squall replied, putting on a false smile to hide how pissed off he was.
"We'd love to come!" Selphie focused her attention on the happy couple once again. "I'll just go get Irvine!" Selphie skipped off to go and find her ruffled cowboy boyfriend.
"What about you Squall? You up for coming?" Seifer asked him. 'Do you think I'd want to be around you while all you're doing is sucking up to Quistis?' Squall thought. [Temper] Shiva reminded him. That was how close he and Shiva were. She acted like his mother. In a way this gave Squall a sense of security, knowing that there'd be someone to talk to, even if she was just in his head for now. Squall pivoted round to face the pair. It was all to sickly sweet for him to bear.
"No sorry I'm way too busy!" he said in the happiest tone he could manage without raising their suspicions.
"Oh no," Quistis said. "We can't just leave Squall out of this. He hasn't been out much since Rinoa left him." Squall smiled. She still cared about him. Quistis left Seifer's side and put her hands on Squall's shoulders. "I'll tell you what, Irvine has invites to a couple of parties this week, we'll bring you along, is that OK?"
"Sounds OK," Squall replied. "What about…"
"Seifer?" Quistis replied, perfectly as usual. "He can't make it. Too much work to do."
"You'll escort Quistis to theses parties for me won't ya Squall?" Seifer asked. Squall was surprised. Did Seifer know what kind of risk he was taking? [What did I tell you?] Shiva said smugly. 'Thanks mother' was Squall's silent sarcastic reply.
"I'll do that for you, sure Seifer," Squall replied. Seifer smiled.
"OK then, See ya round Squall," Seifer walked on past him and beckoned Quistis to follow.
"If you ever need to talk I'll be here," Quistis said, kissing his cheek gently. Squall heard Seifer chuckle as Quistis ran over to him. Squall felt a smug, content smile creep onto his face. Maybe this week wasn't going to be a total loss after all.
Ooh! Squall is being such a sneaky boy! Let's see if his mean little scheme will come out roses for him in the end. The lyrics are from one of my favourite songs ever. At the time I was thinking of the Marilyn Manson version but either will work. I think I got the lyrics right but if I didn't, well nobody's perfect. See ya for part two soon!