Pan is standing in the middle of a meadow that stretches as far as you can see. The skies are clear and blue but suddenly everything changes. The sky and everything around her turn gray.
"Ah!" Pan steps back holding her chest as if she got shot.
"What's going on? What is this feeling? It…feels…like pain, but a different kind…" Everything is still.
"Aaaaaahhh!!!" In an instant everything you see is pitch black. "Aaaaahhhh!! Stop it! What's happening to me?! NO! Leave me alone! Whatever you are!"
Pan pulls her head backwards screaming and then forward between her knees. She begins sobbing and falls to her side. Holding herself and shivering she feels all kinds of misery: guilt, pain, failure, despair, disgrace. The darkness seems to surround her, trying to grab her. But then, a golden light appears from nowhere and breaks through the blackness. Strangely, the two colors began to clash against each other making the entire space swirl with darkness and a yellow shine. Pan is watching this with fear and amazement. When the golden light appeared some of the pains went away but the feeling of disgrace stayed, along with a new emotion that the light had brought: hate. After some minutes of this battle, Pan begins to feel a tiny sense of relief. As soon as she realizes this feeling, a new light begins to shine. It was a white light, a pure light. It then separates into rays that twirl around the area and finally twirl into a form, a figure. Pan tried to put her hand over her eyes but she couldn't. Somehow, her heart wouldn't let her. The figure began to walk through the gold and black towards her. As he did the two lights disintegrated from his path. As he got closer to her she felt more and more relief. He stopped in front of her and held out his hand, she grabbed it and was immediately cleansed of the feelings of hate and disgrace. In its place a feeling of eternal peace was formed in all of her body, heart, mind, and soul.
"Who are you?"
Instead of answering the being pulls her closer to him, making her lean onto his chest. She looks up unto this faceless, pure white being and he begins to move his head toward hers. She then feels his lips come on to hers as he kisses her.
"Ah!" Pan flies up, sitting up on her bed panting and sweating.
"Pan! Are you okay?" asks a worried Videl.
Gohan and Videl are sitting on Pan's bed staring at her.
"Uh, yeah…I'm okay."
"Are you sure? We heard you screaming and when we came in you were holding your head and squirming." Gohan replied.
"It's okay, really, it was just a bad dream, that's all. I'm gonna just take a shower, eat, and go to Bra's, okay?"
Gohan and Videl hesitated but said alright and they left to start their own day. They both knew that there must have been more to that dream. Of course, they also knew that Pan wasn't going to tell and didn't want to either, so they weren't going to bother.
Pan had gotten out of her bed and looked toward the kitchen where her mother was making breakfast. She then continued toward the bathroom. When she got out and was drying her hair she began to think about the dream she had had.
It had been five years since Goku had left with the dragon. And this had been about the 60th time that Pan has had this same dream. She figured it must have been trying to tell her something but she still couldn't understand what. She went downstairs, ate breakfast, and left.
She flew towards Bra's house at first so that Gohan wouldn't find out where she was really going when he sensed for her. After getting halfway there though, she made a turn to go to her real destination. Pan continued to fly until she came halfway across the globe into a wasteland. She landed and looked around. Ever since the day her grandfather left she had been coming to this place almost everyday. She had found a desire to grow stronger now, and when she had her dreams, she would also come to think.
She wanted to forget about the dream and concentrate on her training. She started powering up and stretched her hands out toward a large piece of rock. Concentrating hard and powering up more, she began to use her power to lift the stone up little by little. She was already beginning to sweat when she finally pulled it out of the ground. Then, Pan powered up greatly and began screaming; at this moment she threw her hands up towards the air where the rock followed immediately. After flying a mile up she stopped the rock and left it hanging in mid-air. She then dropped her hands and instantly started powering up a kamehameha as the huge mass began falling towards her.
"Kaaa…Meee…Haaa…Meee…" in half a minute she had an energy ball three times the size of her head in her hands. The rock was halfway down when … "HAAAA!!!"
She threw the blast straight towards the stone where it made a direct hit in the center. A huge explosion occurred and smoke and dust was everywhere in the sky. Pan powered up two small energy balls in her hands waiting for the remaining debris to fall. In the second she finished them millions of small stones came crashing towards the ground.
"What! There shouldn't have been that many pieces left!"
There were too many pieces of rock to get away so Pan had no choice but to get rid of as many pieces as she could. She shot forward into the air and quickly began shooting small energy blasts into the oncoming assault. All of her shots hit but there were still too many, she was forced to begin dodging the debris like a maniac. While doing so she was powering up for a move that would most likely get rid of the remaining debris. She was about to thrust her attack forward when she saw the same white being from her dream appear before her eyes. He did nothing but look at her. Pan stared at him for awhile and was starting to move towards him when he disappeared. After continuing to stare at the spot where he once stood she returned to reality, only to realize she was about to be hit with all the remaining rocks in the sky. She had no time to even think when she was hit continuously with the stones. Each one made contact with her, smacking her face, arms, legs you name it. She was falling at full speed toward the ground while still being attacked by more rocks. Unfortunately, halfway down, Pan felt her right arm being cut.
"Aaah!"
As she looked up she got sliced across her cheek with a sharp slab of rock. Apparently, the rocks were starting to become sharper as they hit. Pan tried to start up another blast but at that moment she hit the ground. A large crater formed where she had crashed and the last of the debris fell into it as well. As the smoke cleared, Pan stay lying in the center panting, she was bruised, cut, and very bloody. After a few minutes she opened her eyes only to be blinded with the hot sun.
"Ah man, what am I gonna do?
She lifted her self up wincing at her pain but fell back down as soon as she got on her feet.
"Crap, I'm way to weak to fly. And even if I did get back home, everyone's going to see me and find out what I've really been doing this whole time. DAMMIT!"
She punched the ground and felt a surge of pain run up her hand when it contacted with the dirt.
"Ow! …Dang, I don't have a choice, either way I'm going to have to get fixed up, which I obviously can't do on my own…Wait a sec…HOW AM I GONNA GET HOME?!" she yelled into the air.
Just then she remembered someone that could help, she just hoped he could hear her from here. She took a deep breath and screamed,
"FLYING NIMBUS, COME TO ME!"
While getting her breath back she could hear something coming her way. It was Nimbus. He flew straight to her hovering very low above the ground.
"Thank goodness. Nimbus you think you're not too old to get me home?"
Nimbus puffed up and flew around the crater at lightning fast speed and came back to her side to prove to her just what he could still do. Pan chuckled but then felt a pain in her chest as she did.
"Okay I'm sorry, you're still the best, Flying Nimbus." Pan slowly and painfully pulled herself onto the small yellow cloud and laid flat on it. "Alright, let's go."
With that the Flying Nimbus shot towards the sky, heading for home.
THE SON RESIDENCE
At home, ChiChi was already starting to prepare dinner since the entire Son family was going to eat together tonight. She just took the pot of rice away from the stove and looked at the window. It was a beautiful day, the skies were clear, it was warm with a slight cool breeze forming, and all the animals in the forest were making a wonderful orchestra of cries and chirps. ChiChi smiled as she listened to the music. This was why she loved having their home in the forest; everyday was perfect. She opened her eyes to look at the blue sky again when she saw a bright yellow streak flying across it and heading straight towards the house. She leaned out the window when it was getting closer to get a better look at it.
"Hey, that looks like the Flying Nimbus."
She concentrated harder to see something else.
"And it looks like he's carrying… A PERSON!"
ChiChi quickly turned everything off and ran outside as Nimbus stopped in the front yard. She ran up to him and gasped in surprise.
"PAN!"
"…Hi, Grandma."
SATAN CITY SHOPPING MALL
In a giant department store, Gohan and Videl are walking into the dresses section.
Man, how does Videl always drag me into shopping with her? I've gotta find someway to get out of here.
♪Head Cha La theme song starts to play loudly♪ Gohan quickly picks up his cell phone so that he can be released from his boredom.
"Hello? …Hey mom how…wait, why do sound so…WHAT! HOW!…okay, we'll be right there!"
"Gohan, what happened?"
"My mom says Nimbus came home with Pan and she was really beat up and that they're in the hospital!"
"Oh my gosh, let's go!"
The couple runs out of the store, their wind causing all of the clothes to fly everywhere and all of the other shoppers to be covered with them.
SATAN CITY HOSPITAL
Gohan and Videl are running down the hall of the hospital and burst into one of the rooms. They see Pan lying in a bed and rush to her. Pan is bandaged up almost everywhere and her right arm is in a small cast.
"Pan, what happened to you?" Videl asks as she puts her hand on Pan's forehead to touch some bandage.
Pan looks over to ChiChi as if to ask her what to do. ChiChi crosses her arms across her chest, gives her a scowl, and nods. Pan sighs and turns back to her parents.
" I was training and, well, there was a little accident."
" A LITTLE accident?!" Videl replied.
"Who was with you?" Gohan asked.
Pan pauses and then answers, " No one."
"What?! Pan, you know you shouldn't have been training so intense like that by yourself! Now look at what's happened to you!" Pan lowers her head to avoid looking into her parents' eyes.
"Gohan, Videl, maybe we should save the scolding for later."
ChiChi gives her granddaughter a glare through the corner of her eyes. Pan tenses up under her grandmother's stare.
"Besides, Pan needs to rest and we should ask the doctor if she can come home today."
"You're right ChiChi. Come on Gohan, let's go find the doctor. Pan," Pan quickly turns to her mother. "You get some rest, we'll be back later."
She nods and the adults leave the room. When the door closes Pan lets out a sigh of relief and falls back unto her pillow. She stares at the ceiling, soon growing bored and starts to close her eyes and begins to dream…
Pan slowly begins to open her eyes. She looks around to see that she's in the air. She looks in front of her, surprised to see who's there. It is the pure white being. But this time, something's different. She looks closer and is slightly shocked to see that a few facial features are now visible on him. She quickly ignores this and is filled with a little bit of anger and annoyance towards this person.
"Hey! Who the heck are you? Do you know that you nearly got me killed? Why do you keep on showing up in my dreams? What do they mean?! Well! ANSWER ME!"
He does nothing at first but then starts to float towards her. Pan gets into a defensive position. He stops right in front of her face making her whole body tense up. They look at each other in silence when something finally breaks it.
"I'm sorry."
Pan immediately jumps back with his response. Although she wanted an answer from him, she didn't actually expect for him to respond after five years of silence, this action was a little more than surprising to her.
"What did you say?"
"…I am sorry. For the troubles I have been causing you. I do not want to see you this way, I promise, but I cannot tell you anything. For, I am not sure of everything either. But I do know that you and I will both be finding out soon enough."
Pan is left staring at him dumbfounded. She didn't really understand what was going on.
"I must go now, goodbye…"
The being's body begins to disintegrate piece by piece.
"Wait! Don't go!"
She's not able to say anything else for she blacks out…
Pan slowly wakes up staring at the ceiling. She pushes herself up until she is sitting, holding her head.
"Well, you're finally awake."
"Huh?"
Pan looks across the room to see her parents sitting in some chairs and then getting up to walk to her.
"Are you okay?" Videl asks.
Pan shakes her head. "Yeah, just a little groggy since I just woke up."
"I hope you're not making that up." Gohan replies sternly.
Trying to calm the atmosphere, "Anyway, get dressed, the doctor said you can come home now just as long as you keep on resting and you don't do any more training until you fully recover." Videl includes.
"Where's grandma?"
"She went home a while ago to finish dinner." Gohan answered.
"Come on, hurry up so we can eat."
With that, Pan remembers she hasn't eaten anything since breakfast and quickly dresses. The family then leaves and heads home.
THE SON RESIDENCE
"We're back!" Gohan yells as he opens the door to his house.
Pan walks in as Videl motions for her to lie down on the couch until dinner's ready.
"Videl! Help me get the last course finished!"
"Coming!"
Videl rushes to the kitchen, Gohan sits down to watch T.V, and Goten comes into the room from the back door.
"Hey, bro. Hi, Pan. Now tell me," Goten sits next to Pan on the couch. "What kind of training were you doing to get you so beat up by yourself?"
Pan groans but Gohan gives her a look saying to answer the question. Pan hesitates and starts.
" I was lifting a large boulder out of the ground and threw it into the air. After a while I let go and powered up a kamehameha."
Gohan looks at space as if he's trying to remember something but then focuses back onto Pan.
"Anyway, I hit it dead on but for some reason my attack didn't disintegrate as much of the stone as I thought it would. I began firing blasts at them but was forced to focus on only dodging them instead. I was about to perform an attack that would've got rid of all of them, but…something…distracted me. When I got back to, it was too late and I was hit with the rest of the debris."
"Ouch." Goten commented.
"Hey, that's the same thing Dad did when he was still recovering from the fight after Vegita--"
"Diiiinnnnner!"
The three saiyans forget the whole conversation and jump the couches and chairs to the table. They immediately start chomping down when they reach their plates.
sweatdrop from both of the wives
"Saiyans will never learn."
After a ten-course dinner the saiyans are finally full and the family returns to the living room. Of course, ChiChi knows what's about to happen.
"Well, I think Goten and I should head on home."
"But, Moooooooom."
ChiChi gives her son her trademark glare telling him that he better not object for his own good.
Gulp "Uh, yeah, I guess I'm a little tired. Well see ya you guys."
"Goodbye Gohan, Videl, Pan!"
Oh, no. They're leaving already? That's gonna leave Mom, Dad, and me alone. Just great.
They close the door and you can hear the hover car start up and leave.
Gohan and Videl turn to look at their daughter. She slowly turns to look at them. After about three seconds Gohan speaks up.
"Pan, you, your mother and I all know that this isn't that big of a deal. All we wanna know is why you've been lying to us about such a thing, because I figure every time you told us you were going somewhere for the day you were lying, right?"
"…Right."
"But Pan, why? There's nothing new about training with this family," Videl asks.
Pan hesitates but then answers her mother.
"If I would have told either of you, I know Dad would have wanted to come with me."
"What's so wrong about me coming?" Gohan asks starting to feel slightly hurt by that.
"No, Dad. I don't mean it like that. I just didn't want anyone to come with me. I wanted to do this on my own."
"Why would you want to train alone? Having someone there would have helped you a lot more than going at it by yourself."
Pan stares down at the floor unable to reply back immediately.
"Pan, what's wrong?"
She quickly jerks her head up with her reply. "That's just it Dad! I don't want anyone's help anymore!"
Both Videl and Gohan jump back at this.
"I'm tired of people constantly having to help me, constantly having to come to my rescue. I'm always in the way when there's a fight! Always needing to have someone to get me out of there. I'm tired of it! I'm tired of slowing everyone down! I'm tired of being so weak!" Pan's ki begins to rise.
" I'm a disgrace to the saiyan race! I can't even finish my own battles without someone having to come in to fight my fight for me! Look at me! I'm a part of the Son family, the family where each member was able to become a legendary super saiyan before anyone else! Reaching that level of strength faster than ever imagined!"
Hot tears are already rolling down Pan's cheeks, evaporating when they reach her chin due to the heat that is coming from her body, forming a red aura around her.
"But look at me! I haven't become super saiyan yet even after training ever since I was four years old! You already reached the level of a super saiyan and exceeded it before you were my age! I'M A DISGRACE TO THE SAIYAN RACE! I'M A DISGRACE TO MY FAMILY! I'M A DISGRACE TO MYSELF AND EVERY ONE! I'M A DISGRACE!!!"
Pan's hair begins to flicker gold as she arches her body back screaming in rage. All of her bandages and casts burn in the power that's surrounding her. Everything in the room is thrown into the walls and Gohan grabs Videl right before a chair comes flying towards her. They fall unto the floor and stare in awe and fear at their daughter. She is looking at them dead in the eye. Her stare is emotionless. Her hair is still flickering gold and her eyes are beginning to flicker aqua-green as well, but neither of these colors are staying in. They're just coming on and off. The air around her is moving like waves due to the intense energy surrounding her. Pan once again arches her back screaming but flies out the door soon afterward. The house becomes quiet and calm again.
"Gohan! What happened to her! What's going on?!"
"She was starting to become a super saiyan. She let out what she felt inside of her. But, she didn't fully become a super saiyan. So that means she hasn't let out all of her feelings and pains."
"You mean, after everything she just explained, that's still not everything?"
"Exactly."
"Gohan! What in the world is she going through that's making her feel this way now?! She was never like this before!"
" I don't know…wait…of course…father"
"Goku?" Gohan leaps out of the house. "I'm going to get Pan back! Wait here!"
He flies at top speed through the forest trying to follow his daughter's leaving ki.
What in the world was that power? Goten starts to leave but…
Goten, stay there. Don't follow me or Pan. I'm going to take care of this, don't worry
Goten nods. {SMACK!}
"Ow! Mom! Why'd you hit me with the pan?!"
"Boy, you were just stuck in mid-step nodding to the air. I just got you back to reality."
What the hell was that?
Vegeta jerks his head up from his training in the gravity room while Trunks does the same from his room. They begin to run out their doors.
Stop, you guys.
"Gohan?" Trunks wonders out loud. Vegeta grunts.
Yes. Don't worry about that power. It's not an enemy, I just have to solve a little family conflict
"Heh, your little family crisis's are worse than ours, brat."
Pan was flying at full speed into the warm night. She was going nowhere. She didn't know where she was going, nor did she care. She just wanted to get away. Of course, she didn't know from what. It wasn't her parents. And she didn't know how you could get away from your feelings. She just needed to go somewhere. The power flowing inside of her body was telling her to just go, to just go anywhere. This power was making her mad at everything. She hated everything in her sight, everything and everyone she knew. She had no real reason; she just wanted to get rid of everything. The power she was receiving now was already taking its toll on her. Her mind couldn't take much more of this. She had to stop. She stopped in the middle of her flight and lowered herself to the ground. She fell unto her knees and leaned against a nearby rock. She stuffed her head into her folded arms and began sobbing. Her hair and eyes stopped flickering and completely returned to their natural black color.
Gohan had felt that Pan had stopped flying and landed, so he did the same. He slowly started walking towards her location so as not to frighten her. That would certainly not help the situation at this moment if he did.
Pan continued to cry until she ran out of tears to shed. She looked up into the forest around her to take in the scenery so that maybe it would calm her. It wasn't that big of a help. She rested her head on her elbow and just continued to stare at the forest and its trees. All of a sudden, she saw a ray of white light shine on the forest floor in front of her. She raised her head and a figure was forming from it. She knew who was coming. It was the person from her dreams. He walked until he was close enough for her to hear his breathing. He kneeled down so that he was face to face with her. Pan gasped at what she saw. She could now see eyes on his face. They were a beautiful almost black, dark-blue that seemed to lightly swirl in his eyes. But what really caught her eye was the item behind him. It was a tail. It glowed white like the rest of his body but she could still tell it was a saiyan tail. He gently held her face in his hands and looked into her eyes. Pan was becoming mesmerized by the look of his dark-blue eyes staring deep into hers. She couldn't help but feel warm inside herself. She was forgetting all of the pains she had just felt, the hate, disgrace, everything.
He did nothing but look at her but finally said, "Soon."
Pan was broken out of her trance when she heard those words.
"What? …What do you mean 'soon'? …Soon what?!"
He just gave a warm smile as a new cool wind blew away his light as if he were grains of sand. Pan continued to stare at the place where he had just been a few seconds ago. She looked at herself and realized that she hadn't been dreaming.
"Wait, if I've been awake this whole time then, that figure, it was really him himself! Or at least, partly," she ended in a whisper.
{The sound of dead leaves crunching is made behind her} Pan jerks her head behind her to see what's there. She looks straight at her father. He stares at her with sympathy and concern in his eyes. She doesn't move from her spot, still staring at him, but finally lowers her head with tears in her eyes.
"I'm sorry."
His eyes widen with her apology but return back to normal as he walks toward her. Gohan kneels down next to her and puts a hand on her shoulder.
"I'm sorry for letting my anger out on you and mom."
Gohan pauses to think, staring at the dirt but then puts both his arms around Pan in an embrace.
"It's alright. You didn't have enough control in you to hold it all back anymore. Actually, I'm glad you told us all that, so is your mother. Now, we know what you've been going through by yourself, or at least half of it. Now we can help you out more as parents to make everything easier to bear."
Gohan feels Pan's head turn away when he said that last sentence.
"Pan, I know you don't want anyone's help anymore. I understand that, because I wanted the same thing when I was smaller than you." Pan looks up to see his face.
"Yes, I wanted that to, you should have seen me when I was a little kid. I was practically no use at all. I always got in everyone's way. One time, when I first started fighting, Piccolo even told me to just go home while we were in the middle of a battle. Pan, we've noticed a change in you recently before today. And I've also noticed the change started soon after your grandfather left." Pan looks down again.
"Is that why you've been acting this way? Is that when you started feeling those things about yourself?"
"I'm not sure. I did start to feel those things afterwards, but I don't think it was because of that. I just started realizing those facts after that." Gohan quickly but gently makes Pan face him.
"Pan! Those things you said are not facts. You're not a disgrace to anyone! Our family is so proud to have you. You're the strongest female in the universe. And so what if you haven't transformed into a super saiyan? We don't care, do you think we revolve only around that? No, we don't. Pan."
He pauses. "I know at least a little bit of what you're feeling. And I also know that no matter what I say, you're still going to feel the same way about wanting to show to everyone just what you can do. I understand that, and I respect it too. But, everyone needs help sometimes, no matter how strong they are. Don't you remember showing us that in the fight with Bebi? Without your help, your grandfather wouldn't have been able to reach the fourth stage of super saiyan. And he wouldn't have been able to defeat Bebi. And that's why I'm going to help you. If you want to train hard and reach the level of a super saiyan, then I'm going to be there with you."
"What?" A confused look crosses Pan's face.
"Pan, I know a place all the Z Fighters used to train for the battle with Cell. It's called the Room of Spirit and Time, and we're going to use it. It allows us to spend a years time in just one day."
"How? That's not possible."
"Come on now, after being a part of this group don't you know by now that anything's possible?"
"You're really going to do this?"
"Yes, you're my daughter, I don't want to see you being tortured and hating yourself. And besides, I've also had a strange urge to become stronger now as well. I haven't trained in decades. Not ever since the battle with Buu actually."
"Ouch"
"Haha, very funny…But I really do need to continue, I'm probably so far behind from everybody, I think even Trunks and Goten may be stronger than me. I sure can't have any of that. Besides, I was just saying to myself that I needed to find a way to get out of your mom's shopping trips." The two saiyans laugh at this.
"So, do you accept my offer?"
Pan stops to think.
"Yes. When do we start?"
"When you fully regain your energy, that's when." Gohan says, pointing at her.
Pan stares at him but then gives the trademark Son grin with a small laugh. She just remembered her little accident.
"Speaking of which, let's get you back home so that we can get those bandages back on. You're mom's probably worried sick about us not having come back yet."
The father and daughter get back up on their feet.
"Oh wait! I didn't hurt you or mom while I was… out of control, did I?"
"Almost, but no. Come on, let's go." The two start walking back home.
"What's going on? It's already been half an hour and they still haven't come back."
Videl is standing on the porch looking into the forest waiting for her husband and daughter to return.
"I swear, if they don't get here in the next ten minutes I'm going to go after them."
"I don't think that'll be necessary."
Videl jumps at the sound of someone's voice. Startled, she snaps around only to be relieved with the appearance of her husband and child walking near the entrance.
"Pan!"
She throws her arms around her daughter and looks at Gohan. He nods, reassuring her that everything's fine.
"I'm sorry for getting angry with you and dad for nothing, Mom."
"It's okay Pan it wasn't your fault. Now get inside so I can fix you up, those cuts are beginning to bleed again." They all go inside their home.
It is a few hours later and Videl and Gohan are staring at space in their bed. Gohan wraps his arms around Videls waist and kisses her neck. ( :( Stop thinking you perverts out there, that's not where this scene is headed so quit dreaming )
"Gohan, I sense that you're going to ask me a question. Am I right?" Videl asks as she turns her head to face her husband. With his eyes still closed he answers.
"As always."
"Well?"
Gohan stops his kissing to tell her what he's going to do.
"I told Pan that I'm going to help her train to become a super saiyan so that she'll be satisfied with herself. I'm going to do it in that room I told you about that made a years time fit into one day."
"And? I know there's more."
"You know me so well. Well, also…I've decided to continue training as well. So, do I have your permission?" He asks with a smile.
"Hmm, one day without my man and child. I can deal with that without too much trouble. But you training again? …It's fine with me but…," her voice hints a bit of seriousness and sadness. "just stay near me."
She snuggles into his chest. Gohan knew what she was trying to say. She didn't want him going off like his father did with Ubuu those years ago. Goku meant well, but he just didn't take too much time into considering others' feelings about him going, specifically ChiChi, and for such a long time. He wasn't going to do the same thing.
"Of course. I'll never leave you alone my love. You will always be able to go to sleep with me by your side."
Videl smiled and gave Gohan a long, deep kiss.
"Alright, do whatever you wish."
They kissed again and fell asleep before they ended.