Chapter I
"In the Temple"
Ahsoka's POV
"Be mindful of your feelings", Anakin's voice came to me through the shimmering hologram.
"Yes, master. I know."
It had been the day before the success of the Onderon mission when I had open communications to speak about the planned attack to my master. That was the day that Lux Bontari made his motives clear. He no longer felt anything towards me. What was this feeling?
Jealousy. There was a jealousy burning within me. I am a Jedi. I thought to myself. why did I feel that way? I failed to keep my emotions in check. Even my master had sensed it.
These are the thoughts that swam in my head as I sat in my room on Coruscant in the jedi temple. It had been a while since I had the chance to sit and meditate on my thoughts, processing all the previous missions. After the mission to help the rebels and Lux on Onderon, I was tasked with the training of those younglings. Then I had gotten captured and eventually un-captured by those pirates. We had been deep in the war, never staying in this room for more than a day, constantly being sent on missions or summoned to the front lines with my master.
Oddly enough, just as I remained in meditation, I felt the presence of my master. A knock on the door,
"Ahsoka, may I come in?".
I went to open the door, "Master, please come in". He came in and plopped down on the couch opposite my bed.
"Please, snips, sit" He motioned towards the bed. Following his gesture, I returned to my spot.
"Master, are you okay?" I asked. He looked tired and unsettled. Shoulders tensed and back arched, resting his forearms on his knees.
"Huh? Oh I'm fine, don't you worry about me. I'm just starting to get sick of this place."
"Master, it's been a while since we've been back, do you not enjoy being here?"
"Well it's just — ah, never mind. I came here to ask something of you" He looked up at me.
"Fire away, Skyguy" He relaxed at that. Smiling for a second before looking concerned again.
"Ahsoka, how are you doing? I know this war is crazy, it must be hard on you." His eyes searched me looking into mine deeply. Then before I could respond, "I know how you're feeling. Trust me." I sensed that he was referring to Lux.
"I know that he really made you feel like you weren't important, how he neglected you. I'm sorry."
"But master, you said not to focus on those feelings."
"Yeah well I got that from Obi-Wan. Looking back, I realized that it was wrong of me to say that."
He looked at the floor again, "Lately, I have been placed in a position where it is hard not to think on these things. Hurt, anger, jealousy. I know that these are not tolerated by the Jedi. I feel like I am a failure of a Jedi —"
" — No master! You are the most talented Jedi I know!"
"You really think so? After all I am the chosen one" He smirked. I couldn't help from laughing at his stupid smile when he said things like this. He again smiled for a moment before returning his stare to the floor,
"I just can't find any way of not focusing on these feelings. They are always at the forefront of my mind."
"But we have to overcome these feelings with instead thoughts of tranquility and meditation and peace."
He looked up with an idea in his eyes, "Ahsoka, how would you like to go on a little trip?"
I eyed him suspiciously,
"No I mean a quest outside of this war. With things quiet right now it would be the perfect time to get some master-padawan training. You never got the chance to get proper one-on-one time training before the war like my and Obi-Wan did!" He was genuinely excited. There was a light in his eyes that I hadn't seen in a long time.
"You know me, I'm always up for an adventure! So where are we going?" Now I was starting to get excited.
"I think I have an idea" He smiled.
Anakin's POV
I knew the exact place that would get me far away from these feelings. Feelings of betrayal.
Betrayal from Padme.
She had crossed the line. I caught her again putting her life in danger recklessly. We got in a huge argument. One that didn't end well. I love her but I can't live like this. Every time I finally get back to Coruscant it seems she is always too busy or even worse, finding her with Rush Clovis.
That guy pissed me off. And what was she thinking trying to be around him. It got even to the point where I am sure she is meeting with him to spite me. Last time I caught them, who knows what would have happened if I hadn't arrived. Apparently, she has feelings for him. I know it. I just need to get away from that mess. From this planet. Get away to Naboo.
Naboo was the polar opposite of Tatooine. Lush, beautiful waterfalls, and the first planet I ever set foot on besides Coruscant. How ironic this would be, going to the place Padme was from to get away from her.
The next day I met Ahsoka outside the Jedi Temple, she was clothed in her normal jedi battle-ready gear. This was going to be a problem. We needed to get some disguises as not to freak out the public.
Once we made it to the transport station, she ran into a shop to get some grey cloaks to put over our Jedi outfits.
"Now we are ready!" She smiled and led the way to the transport.
As the transport rose into the air and set off to the stratosphere, we watched the city become smaller and smaller. And as we watched, an ease settled over us me. For the first time, we were leaving Coruscant not for a battle or secret mission but to go on a vacation of all things.