Hey!! I own nut-in' but this laptop, the curr-up-ted soul of a muffin named Bagel and a LOT of manga!! so please no sue me cuz i need them all!!
Umm, ya Joss something and company own Buffy and company...the song lyrics are by Nickelback intitiled Savin Me (like the titile...OMG)...
These things - () mean thoughts and the squiggle words means lyrics and the break between the letter is these --...yayayayayayayayayayayay dancing alines!!
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The moon, hanging low in the sky, shined brightly on house number 1630, Revello Drive. The Summers residence smelled of sleep and peace, nether of which Angel felt at the moment. Sitting on the porch steps, his head cradled in his hands, he wished once again that vampires could cry. (At least that way I could let my sorrow go...) Sighs rip from his human soul as he pondered the words soon to spill upon a lost love. (Gods, help me! How do I tell her...)
"Angel?" His thoughts interrupted by a confused whisper.
"Buffy..."
Walking slowly past the broody demon, Buffy headed up the stairs and towards her door.
"Why are you here? Is there some Big Bad that Angel Inc. can't handle and you need me?" Buffy smirked as she turned, leaning against the door and glanced at her ex "Romeo". (We were doomed from the start...)
Standing, Angel frowned at both her tone and insinuation. (Guess I'm owed some hostility...Still...)
"Buffy, I have some news...Its about Faith..." He paused, unsure of how to continue as Buffy tightened her jaw.
"What? What about Faith?" Her eye give the slightest twitch, something a normal human would miss, but not Angel.
Rubbing the side of his face, he struggled on.
"She...Well, there was a riot and..You know how she likes to get in the middle of everything...She umm..." Grinding his teeth, he looked away from Buffy's expressionless eyes.
"Go on. She what, Angel?" She asked, rising one eyebrow in a purely Faith look.
"She tried to stop it and got shot...She didn't make it."
Silence echoed in the evening air. Buffy stared at the souled vampire, shocked and for once, speechless.
"She...She's what?" Buffy, feeling confused twice in as many minutes, stammers out.
"She's dead. You've won," Angel spits out as he tosses her an envelope. "This is what you've wanted, right?"
Buffy's eyes narrow in anger as she watches Angel walk away.
"I must be going now, I'll leave you to celebrate in peace..." Could be heard from disappearing shadows.
"Humph...Whatever..." Buffy mutters as she walks into her home.
(Stupid Faith!! If she thinks that dying is going to get me to forgive...GRRR!!)
She growls as she balls up the envelope and tosses it.
(Who the FUCK does she think she is?! Trying to play the hero...She gave that up a long time ago!!)
Mumbling to herself, she slides down the door as her eyes start to tear.
"Stupid, stupid girl...Why?!"
Slowly, she gets up and heads towards to living room where the paper ball had landed. Glaring at it as if it had done her some great injustice, she picks it up and sits down to read it, hoping that her tears won't smudge it to bad.
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Prison
gates won't open up for me
On these hands and knees I'm
crawlin'
Oh, I reach for you
Hiya
B!!
Thought I would write this like I was talkin' ta ya, face to
face. I know we didn't use words much, my fist always gettin' my
point across for me an' all, but I thought I would try. Ya know, I
musta wrote this letter a thousand times...Well here goes lucky
number thousand and one, huh?
Well
I'm terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can't hold my
soul in
All I need is you
I really miss ya, B. An' the rest of the Scooby gang, even the brat, I mean Dawn. She's a really good girl, ya know? Heh, course ya know! Anyway, Angel, he visits me from time ta time...Even got "Queen C" Cordelia ta up an' see me, nice an' everythin'! Scared me worst then Kakisos! But, ya know, she wasn't really who I had hoped ta show...
Come
please I'm callin'
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin',
I'm fallin'
Well
I'm writin' you this cuz...Well...Ok ya got me! I'm kinda chicken ta
call ya, ok? Yup, that's right! Big badass old Faithy is a pansy and
can't pick up the phone ta ring ya. But, I kinda have a good reason,
don't I? Man, I ask a lot of questions! Whenever it came ta you
though, I always doubted myself...
Show
me what it's like
To be the last one standing
When we first meet, I thought, "Man, ya every bit the golden girl my watcher said you were...Light hair, soft eyes and a smile ta out shine the sun. Perfect. Yup, you sure the champion of all that is good." I think she was hopin' that a lil of your light will add some shine to me too...
And
teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
If ya had asked, just say the word an' I promise I would'da tried to be better, honest! Would a, could a, should a, huh? But in the end, ya ain't perfect an' I ain't got no shine... Nutin' but darkness for me...
Say
it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Hey, B? I know you tried to help...Teach me right an' all, but I think we both knew that you weren't tryin' to hard, right? Cuz you never really thought I was worth saving. Otherwise, you would have said whatever it took ta make me right... Ya know those three lil words...
Say it if it's worth saving me
I'm sorry! I know ya said ya would kill me if I said it, but... I'm sorry! I'm sorry I'm weak an' broken. I'm sorry that I hurt others so they could feel like me. I'm sorry that I'm dark an' evil. I'm sorry that I made ya hate me... An' I'm sorry... I'm sorry that I fell in love with ya only ta hurt ya the most!!
Heaven's
gates won't open up for me
With these broken wings I'm fallin'
And
all I see is you
I heard ya died, B. Guess ya went up ta the big shoppin' mall in the sky, huh? Tell me, was there a "Holy shoe sale" or what? Heh, bet ya all the money in the world I end up dragged down to hell by the devil himself! Watchin' ya shake ya head with that knowin', self-righteous smile that, personally I think ya made just for me. I feel so special, thanks! Sorry, sorry! Got a lil' Red babble, huh?
These
city walls ain't got no love for me
I'm on the ledge of the
eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you
After ya stabbed me an' I saw the monster that I turned ya inta...That really got ta me. I couldn't go on, livin' like that... So I fell. Your smilin' face was the last thing I saw behind closed eyes... From there, it kinda gets fuzzy, but ya know the rest...
Come
please I'm callin'
And all I need from you
Hurry I'm fallin',
I'm fallin'
Angel thinks I've changed... Kinda growed up a lil', ya know? Nah... Ya don't know, do ya? It's ok... I don't blame ya, I wouldn't want ta know ether... After all the shit I put ya though... Fuck...
All
I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And oh, I scream for you
Ya know, some of the guards make fun 'a me cuz they know I won't do shit... They tell me that at night, when I sleep, I'm always calling out for someone. But ya can guess who I beg an' cry out for... "Crazy slut, whoever this Buffy or Muffy... She don't give a Damn about you!" Ya... Even if they're right, an' I know they are... Even if you don't give a damn... I still think about ya...
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin', I'm fallin'
I just can't seem ta say sorry enough an' I really hope that ya forgive me, even though I kinda know I don't deserve it. But I need the hope... Cuz without it, I would lose what little soul I have, huh? Heh, bet ya never thought I could talk all deep and shit, huh B? Anyways, better end this here before ya think Angel coached me or somethin'...So "Gotta Motorvate!"
Heh, later days, B!
Faith
P.S. I had the potential to be good, real good! ... Did you know?
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Kneeling on the floor, Buffy clenched at her and bowed her head till it rested on the carpet.
"Oh god..." She sobbed. "FAITH!!"
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so...that's it...if peeps like it I might go on and do sp-ed new chap or something...idk...
PEACE, HOMES!! KittenDoll