I Hate Myself for Losing You, a mediator fanfic

I own nothing. Thins is I hate myself for losing you by Kelly Clarkson. Paul's POV.

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I woke up today

Woke up wide awake

In an empty bed

Staring at an empty room

I have myself to blame

For the state I'm in today

And I'm dying doesn't seem so cruel

And oh, I don't know what to say

And I don't know anyway

Anymore

I hate myself for losing you

I'm seeing it all so clear

I hate myself for losing you

What do you do when you look in the mirror

And staring at you is why she's not here

You got what you deserved

Hope your happy now

Cause every time I think both you its killing me

Inside and now I dread each day knowing

That I can't be saved

From the loneliness of living without you

And oh, I don't know what do

Not sure that I'll pull through

I wish you'd know

I hate myself for losing you

I'm seeing it all so clear

I hate myself for losing you

What do you do when you look in the mirror

And staring at you is why she's not here

I hate myself for losing you

And oh, I don't know what to do

Not sure that I'll pull through

I wish you knew

And oh, I don't know what to say

And I don't know anyway

Anymore

I hate myself for losing you

I'm seeing it all so, I'm seeing it all so clear

I hate myself for losing you

What do you do when you look in the mirror

And staring at you is why she's not here

What do you say when everything is said

And the reason is why he left you in the end

How do you cry when everyday is shown

They'll never bring it back again

I hate myself for loving you

I guess I could never lose you if you were never there. I hope he makes your life happy. Because you've ruined mine.