Title: Tainted Star

Chapter 1

Author: Phoenix

Rating: M for strong sexual themes, violence and language.

Disclaimer: I do not own Glee or anything having do with it.

A/N: Alright so first off I need a beta so anyone willing to please PM me! Second this is endgame Pezberry which is my otp with heavy Faberrittana friendship as well as other friendships. Hope everyone enjoys this and please review!

It wasn't the physical pain that hurt the most, she could handle that. She had been dealing with that for almost five years now, she was use to it. It was the emotional pain that slammed into her harder than any fist ever could. The names, the taunts, the accusations. She would be able to handle them if she knew they weren't true, but she knew they were. No matter how hard she tried to tell herself otherwise in the beginning. Evan the people at school who knew nothing about her seemed to realize that she was poison. Even the members of the glee club who were meant to accept her as family couldn't. She considered herself a fool for even believing for a second that they could. Her own father couldn't accept her so why should anyone else.

She didn't cry anymore when he beat her, she knew she deserved it. She's the reason why everything went wrong. Why her dads use to stay up late fighting, why her daddy use to work long endless hours, why her own mother rejected her for another baby girl, why her dad started drinking and finally she was the reason her daddy had died. Her father Hiram blamed her for Leroy's death and he reminded her of that everyday.

Her daddy wanted her to be a star because he believed she deserved nothing less. When he discovered how much she loved to sing and perform he went out of his way to make sure she was able to. He wanted nothing more than for his baby girl to reach her dreams and be happy.

When Leroy died Hiram decided Rachel was going to reach the goal of stardom not matter what the cost. He saw it as Leroy's dream, so Rachel was going to full fill that for him. It also helped that if Rachel became a star then Hiram would be able to take advantage of all the benefits given to her. She was under his complete control.

Rachel was selfish in glee club because she had to be. Getting those solos meant her survival. Hiram showed up to every performance and if Rachel wasn't the star then she was in big trouble. She had to fight to stay alive, no matter how much she wanted to die sometimes. She felt life she had a duty to her daddy to become what he sacrificed so much for. She didn't like taking the spotlight away from everyone else but as her father keeps reminding her she was a selfish bitch and that's all she'll ever be.

There was one thing Rachel knew for sure about herself and that was she's a phenomenal actress. No one suspected a thing, no one even knew that her daddy died in the seventh grade. When she disappeared for a week everyone just assumed she had taken one of her yearly vacations with her dads to New York. No one even cared to noticed when her usual show stopping smile turned into a fake show face.

The beatings were getting worse as her fellow members demanded more solos and got them. It was getting harder to conceal the bruises but she didn't think anyone would care enough to day anything anyway. But she was wrong people did start to notice and they planned on doing something about it.

Brittany wasn't the smartest person. But when it came to people and feelings she was very observant and smart. She could see past Rachel's show smile, she saw past it the first day she wore it. But something was different now. She noticed the desperation in her voice as she fought for solos and more importantly she noticed the limp the petite diva was have the day after not receiving one. She was afraid for the small girl, she considered her part of her family because glee club was a family and it infuriated her that no one else in there seemed to notice. They were suppose to be the ones to look past their difference and give everyone a safe place to confide in. But because they were all so caught up in the competition and the lets hate of Berry fest this school seems to have no one even tried to give her that safe place. Brittany was ashamed of herself for not doing something sooner.

"I think something's wrong with Rachel." Brittany declared to her best friend as they out in the Latina's basement bedroom with their other best friend Quinn.

"Manhands? Please nothings wrong with the tranny." Santana said unconvincingly.

"Don't call her that S! I know you've noticed, there's something seriously wrong." Brittany pouted as she thought about the pain she saw in the diva's eyes as she performed earlier that day in glee. Quinn and Santana exchanged looks. No one could resist Britt's pout but that didn't mean they wouldn't try.

"Britt, Berry's fine! She's just upset she's not the center of attention anymore or that Finn has finally moved on." Quinn tried to reason. The taller blonde shot her a rare glare making both girls take a step back.

"There's something more going on. Rach is happy when others sing, I can see it in her eyes." Neither girl questioned her they knew from experience Britt was almost always right when it came to reading people. But Quinn had to ask.

"Then why does she throw a temper tantrum every time she doesn't get a solo?"

Brittany sighed. "I don't know." her shoulders slumped in defeat she knew something was going on she just didn't know what... Yet.

"Then it must be Finn that bothering her, we all know Rupaul can't handle that he's finally not following her around like a little puppy dog." The rage in Brittany's eyes really shocked and unnerved the cheerleaders. They had never seen that look a sweet Brittany.

"Stop calling her those names!" she yelled.

She was tired of this. She didn't know what everyone else's problem with Rachel was, but she knew what Santana's was and it was finally time to call her out on it.

"Rachel never loved Finn. Sure as a friend she cares for him but she doesn't love him because she's never liked boys." Two sets of mouths dropped, were they really hearing what they thought they heard.

"Finn's only a decoy."

They sat there in shock for a dew moments. Shocked that Rachel might actually be gay and that Britt had actually used the word decoy correctly.

"Berry's not gay Britt." Quinn stated dumbly.

There was no way it could be true. Rachel had never showed any interest in other girls. If she really was a lesbian then why would she hide it, the girl had two dads for crying out loud.

"I don't know why she's hiding it but she is. San I know you've noticed." The unusually quiet girl looked up as her muscles tightened at her best friends statement.

"Why the hell you I notice if manhands was gay?" she growled out, jaw locked firmly.

"Don't pull that crap with me S! I know you like her." The tall blonde stated firmly but gently.

"I do not!" she protested weakly her voice dropping to a low whisper a tell she had when she was lying.

"Oh my god you do like her." Quinn said with shock but surprisingly no detest.

"I do not freaking like manhands." she yelled pacing the room a little bit until Brittany caught her shoulders and forced her to look at her.

"Come on Sanny, enough with the names. I know you hate calling her them." she soothed gently.

"It's only us, you've already come out. In fact Rachel helped you come out. I know you like her and I know you've noticed everything I've been saying." The dancer encouraged softly as she gently rubbed a tan shoulder in comfort.

Santana remained silent staring at her fingers as she nervously played with them. Quinn slowly approached the two placing a pale hand on the girls other shoulder.

"You can't help who you like Santana. If Berry makes you happy then I support you completely."

Brittany smiled softly at the huge leap Quinn had just taken. Tucking away that she would have to work with her to get her from calling to Berry to Rachel later. Santana worried her bottom between her teeth as her looked at the supporting faces of her two best friends.

"She'll never like me back, I've made her life a living hell." she said with defeat.

Quinn gave a small chuckle as she shook her head and smiled softly at her friend.

"I there is one thing I've learned about Berry it's that she had the most forgiving soul on this planet." Britt nodded in agreement knowing how true this was she had seen Rachel give forgiveness to so many people who didn't deserve it and all they did to repay her was hurt her all over again.

"Rachel likes you to San. But right now we can't worry about that, we have to figure out what's wrong and help her. I'm really worried about her."

Brittany pouted as the other two nodded. Santana took a deep breath. She was going to help and then get her girl because she was Santana freaking Lopez and she always got what she wanted.