In the single second it took me took react, he already pulled away and smirked at me, his eyes holding mine. He gave me a single nod and left, but I knew on both of our minds was the single instance when our lips met and my heart stopped.
This wasn't suppose to happen. Me, fall in love? I had sworn long, long ago that love was not for me. But why did this feel so… right? What was happening? He was in the F.B. freaking I. for God's sake! What was I doing? I was only setting myself up to get hurt. And the true question was: why the hell had I allowed it to go so far? To allow him to steal my heart...
Fate was so unkind.
But then again, it wasn't like fate had been fair to me before. Everything, everyone I ever loved, all gone in a heart-stopping second.
I slid to the cold, hard tile of the basement of the 5th street library, my heart threatening to pound straight out of my chest. Had it really been only a month since we had met? It felt like I had known him forever.
Is this what love feels like? I wondered. The closest thing to love I had ever felt had been ripped out of my heart and brutally destroyed a lifetime ago.
This can't be happening… but… it… is…
I closed my eyes and pressed my fingers to my lips.
Oh, Spencer...