It's Complicated

Chapter One: Prologue

My eyes darted open suddenly as I woke up. I looked over at the clock that hung on the wall, 3:34 AM. It seemed almost like a routine to wake up around this time. For the past few weeks I haven't been able to stay asleep, but tonight was different. Someone was in my bed, sleeping next to me, making it hard for me to sleep. It's not that I didn't want them here, in fact, it's the complete opposite. I needed them here with me. Turning my body around, I looked at the one next to mine, his chest rising and falling with each breath he took.

It seemed so strange for him to be here with me. I'm still not used to the fact that I am, quite clearly, in love with this man. Of course I'd never tell him that. I'm sure he feels the same way about me but I still cannot bring myself to say those three simple words that hold so much meaning behind them.

I ran my fingers through his soft short hair, careful not to wake him. I'm certain he would kill me if I interupted his sleep. He was never a morning person. I could feel my cheeks getting hot as his lips parted slightly at my touch. He looked so calm and peaceful while sleeping, much different from his cold expression he usually wore. His life was never easy and I know I made things more complicated for him, and humanity itself.

No one else knows about our relationship and I don't know what they would even think about it. I don't even know what I think about it, much less what he thinks of it. I always question our relationship. Is it one sided? Am I forcing myself onto him? Is he using me? The possibilities are endless and it hurts me to think such things.

I look back over to the clock, 3:49 AM. Debating whether or not I should even attempt something so silly, I lean closer to the sleeping man before me and gently kiss his forehead, hoping I would not disturb him. Taking one last look at him, I turn back around and slowly dift back to sleep with the slightest smile on my face. For the first time in a long time, I was genuinely happy.

"Eren, wake up!" a female voice yells. Startled, I jump up and look around me. Mikasa was sitting at the foot of the bed with her back facing me. Oh no... Don't tell me she saw him in here.

"I'm up," I say nervously, looking around for traces of him in the bed but finding no evidence of his presence. It was like he was never here. The whole left side of the bed was almost neatly made, it looked like no one was even in this bed but me. Did I dream that?

"Good, get ready. I'll meet you downstairs in the kitchen for breakfast with the others," Mikasa said in her emotionless voice. Sometimes she really worried me. She was either emotionless or angry, never anything inbetween.

Once she was gone and the door to my room was shut, I stood up and searched for some clean clothes to wear. My room was always a mess and I always knew where things were but today my room was so clean and I had no idea where my things coould be. After minutes of searching, I finally found my clean clothes in my closet of all places. Usually my clothes were piled on the floor, a pile for clean clothes and a pile for dirty clothes.

Taking no more time than was necessary, I dressed myself and brushed my teeth before heading down to the kitchen, nervous for what awaited me. I really hope Mikasa didn't see anything. She was acting kinda different. She didn't even look at me...

Entering the kitchen I noticed that everyone was already eating. I took the only open seat which was between Mikasa and Armin. "Good morning Eren," Armin said as he finished the last bite of his breakfast. "You look extra tired today, get enough sleep?" I glanced over at Levi who was drinking his tea that he so often drank before quickly replying with a simple "I'm fine."

As everyone finished eating they began to leave and soon it was only Levi and Mikasa left at the table with me. Come on hurry and finish your breakfast this is getting awkaward, I quietly scolded myself. "Eren, you looked troubled. Is something bothering you?" Mikasa asked. She was always so worried and over protective when it came to me. I could understand why, I mean yeah I saved her once but jeez you'd think a girl would move on.

"I'm fine, just a little tired I suppose."

"Eren, you need to sleep more, it's important," she replied in that stern motherly voice of hers she always used when I did something wrong.

"Yeah, yeah," I said before finishing up the orange juice I was drinking.

Levi stood up and took his dishes to the sink which he began to fill with soapy water. Every morning he did the dishes. The others offered to help him do them but he always refused them saying something along the lines of "you'll just mess them up and I'll have to redo them anyway." He was always so picky when it came to cleaning.

Just then Armin came running into the kitchen. "Mikasa, I need your help. Can you come with me?" Before leaving Mikasa looked at me then at Levi, frowning slightly at the two of us.

Making sure no one was around that could over hear me, I stood up, taking my dirty dishes to Levi. Once he took them from my hands, I leaned my back against the sink beside him. "So where'd you go this morning?"

"I left before Mikasa came. She goes to your room every morning to wake you, remember," Levi said emotionlessly.

I looked down at my feet, I'm sure my face was red with embarrassment because of the next thing I was going to say. "Are you going to stay with me again tonight?" I asked nervously.

Suddenly Levi was in front of me, his forehead against mine and his right hand on my left cheek, using his thumb to brush across the tinge of red that covered my cheek. "Of course," he said. It seemed as if he was going to kiss me but he stepped back and looked away before returning to his dishes. I sighed softly. My relationship with this man was complicated.

Author's Note: Yeah, so this is really short I know /.\ but I haven't written anything in so long and I deleted my other story so I wanted to upload something lol but I'm going to try to finish this story and make it even the slightest bit interesting (no promises lol)