During Everyman For Himself, when kate is left alone, she discovers a buch of paper and a pen, so to pass the time she writes her own letter.
I have so many things running through my head, so many thoughts, ideas. It almost feels like they are all going to spill out at once, but they dont. As i put my pen to paper it all stops. The ideas wont come out, they cant be put into words.
I WANT TO SCREAM!!!!!!! I want to laugh, cry smile, love. I can feel all these emotions at once, but my mind just seems to block them, stopping me from putting them into words, so that my secrets cant be found out.
Everytime i look into your eyes, i dont know what i feel, is it love, or only lust?
Everytime you open your mouth and talk to me, i have so much to say...to tell you, but i cant. It is almost as though i have lost the ability to talk, and i can now only listen and be stuck with my thoughts in my mind which feels to small to hold them all in, i cant do it anymore.
I am so scared that you will find out about my secrets, my thoughts and b able to look into my heart, the heart i so despretly want to let you into.
But every time i almost have the strength to do so, my mind with have another one of these possesing thoughs. Will you laugh at me, regect, or change me.
As i see you walking back towards me i suddenly relise...It is not Lust it is Love...I love you James, always will.