It was a cold day in December, the sky was clear with no sings of snowing which made it seam like a perfect day. Rose was walking down the busy and noisy street surrounded by so many people, so many faces in the crowd. But there was one that made her stop and made her heart stop as well. His eyes, his big brown eyes, were looking at her through all that sea of people, just her,Rose Tyler. She couldn't breath, couldn't move and her eyes were trapped watching him, her long lost Doctor. In that very moment, memories of him, of them kept flooding in her head.
She remember his smile, his silly jokes,the sound of his voice, the taste of his lips and the smell of adventure. She still feel him, caress her hair and imagine him smile while he says full of joy "Allons-y". Those words echoing in her mind, now are sad words for her, words full of pain and so many memories. Like a pill, a drug that she have craved for so long, now she swallows the memories of him that she have once locked them up somewhere dark in her mind. Now he is free in her head and heart.
He was still standing unmoved in the crowded street watching Rose as she was watching him as well. At the same time, their bodies started to find their way through the crowd. Every step was closer to each other, and Rose could feel her heart beating faster and faster. Now if she reached her hand for him she could have touched his face, but she just stopped at the same time he did. Silence, silence was all she heard, the street noise just vanished, only the sound of her beating heart kept pulsing in her ears. Happiness, sorrow, joy, pain, love and hate fighting a war inside her, but for a second all those emotions were stoned by his only presence
What if her hand reaches him? He will hold it for a second, he will smile, she will smile. In that very spot they'll be together again. A sad embrace that they longed for so long, then their lips will taste each other again, like the first time. The time will stop, the past, present and future will melt and create a perfect moment.
Roses dream disappeared in a second when over his shoulder she saw her human Doctor, and over her shoulder he saw his new girl,his new companion. For the last time they looked at each other, they didn't say anything ,because words weren't enough and they didn't smile because their hearts were torn in two. As they walked past one another their cold hands met and held for a moment, oh that short beautiful moment. They didn't look back, they just walked away and left the first love behind. Their tears, pain, memories painted in blue colors this love that they will keep safe in their hearts.
She needed him. He needed her.
She needs him. He needs her.
She will not need him anymore. He will not need her anymore.