AN: this is my first fan fiction so if you do review please be kind!

I Know

Olivia stared at Elliot with disbelieve, "did he really just say that?" The same words kept repeating in her head, over and over. She was also very thankful that the squad room was empty.

Then darkness slowly came upon her.

"Liv! Liv! "Wake up, you have to wake up, Olivia, please wake up." Elliot's voice sounded like a sweet angel calling her out of the darkness. Olivia heard his voice but she didn't want to open her eyes right away, she was savoring the sweet tenderness of his words.

"Please, Livia ….L..i…v.." Elliot, the strongest man she knew was starting to cry, she couldn't keep him waiting.

Olivia slowly opened her eyes, and saw his face. His face was creased with worry, but it was shockingly beautiful. His face always made her heart skip at beat, but she knew he is more than his good looks.

"I love you too, I always have" Olivia spoke in a whisper but she knew he heard.

Elliot started laughing

"Why is he laughing, was this all a cruel joke" Olivia's thoughts showed on her face.

" Liv, don't get mad , I'm laughing because I'm relieved and unbelievable happy you just said that… I was scared that I was the only one that felt that way"

Relieve rushed thru her body, she always wanted to kiss him but she was never able too. She always made excuses for her not to, the typical, he is married and it would ruin their partnership. AT one point she was going to go tell him the feelings she felt, the speech all ready to say. She was back from Oregon and she walked in the precinct to see a blond working at her desk. Few words were exchanged between the two and Olivia automatically did not like her. When she saw Elliot interact with Dani , she knew that there was something going on between them and her heart ripped into millions of pieces.

But that was all in the past, Dani , she left Special Victims because she couldn't handle it. Olivia still did not want to step forward and say anything, for the fear of being a rebound.

Then the worst day of her life came, Kathy had asked Elliot to come home because she was pregnant. When Elliot told her the news she felt like the world crumbled under her feet, and her heart stopped beating. Olivia knew at that point she couldn't say a damn thing, so she kept quite.

The day of Eli's birth was a day Olivia would never forget, the wreck, the birth, and the hug. She did not want the hug to end , but she knew it had to, even though she had forgotten that they were in the hospital for that quick moment.

" Umm, Liv, what are you thinking about? " Olivia could tell the nervousness in his voice, and that's when she noticed she was still on the floor. She started to sit up and Elliot's arms were still wrapped around her waist, the heat was comforting, even though it made her shiver.

"Are you cold, let me get a blanket from the cribs." He started to get up , but Olivia protested.

"Please don't leave, I don't want this moment to end" Olivia stared into his deep blue eyes and this moment was there's and no one could take it away.

Elliot then placed his hand softly on her head, his hand then traveled to the nape of her neck. Elliot's face slowly reached to Olivia's and gently kissed her lips. His lips were rough but they felt good to Olivia. The kiss grew more intense.

They did not want to stop but they both released for air.

"Wow, I never knew it was possible to feel sparks…. It felt great" Elliot chuckled and then planted a small kiss on her head.

"El, umm, I know this is probably a stupid question, but when?"

"I hate my answer cause it not romantic at all, do you still want to know, Liv?" Elliot's face began to crease with worry again.

"Tell me!" Olivia started to get giddy, she never got giddy , it scared her a little.

Elliot let out a sigh "Do you remember when, ummm , Gitano , h…hurt you?" Elliot tensed up at the name. Olivia started rubbing his hand softly; Elliot couldn't believe she was comforting him.

"The first thing that popped in my head was to save you, and then I saw that little boy… I knew I had to go after him but…I could not just leave you there…I knew the reason why was because I loved you….and that scared me, and I tried to push you away. " the last part he said in the lowest whisper.

Olivia sat there for a minute, she obsorbed every word that he said. "El, when I realized I loved you was right after you, in the warehouse, when he… I was…" Tears started streaming down Olivia's face and Elliot pulled her closer to his chest to comfort her.

" I thought this day would never come, and now that it has I am scared that if Kathy asks you to come home again … that I might be alone again" Her voice trembled even more .

"Why would I leave my whole life? Liv, I will never leave you, I love you too much to." Elliot's eyes got really dark and he continued speaking "The times you left me were dark… dark moments in my life"

Olivia's eye immediately hit the floor, ashamed that she caused him that much hurt

" I was pushing you away too after G…Git…. That day, but you got to understand that with Oregon … I had no choice, they practically pulled my arms behind my back to go." " I didn't do it to hurt you"

Elliot then cupped his hands on Olivia's face and stared deeply into her chocolate brown eyes. " I know, and all the things I put you through I am sorry" Tears then started streaming from his face , working past his clenched jaw. Olivia reached up to wipe his tear away. Her hands still lingering on his face . Now holding each other by their face the stare got deeper like they were looking into each other's souls.

Olivia finally broke the silence "I know"