I don't know why she left me I don't know why any of them did. All I know is that the only why to get it all out is by writing music, If you can believe. Man, her leaving tore me up bad. I loved Edward; really I did but only as a brother. But Alice, she was my world. But I was to scared to tell her so now she'll never know. I'm an idiot. Guess all I can do is try to act normal and put every feeling into my music. And that's all I do now almost everyday after school. Some days for hours. Others it's just to painful. But today I finished a new song. Just for Alice. Once I get home I go straight to my room and pick up my guiter.

"Still alive but barely breathing."

Yup. Sometimes it hurts to even breath.

"Just prying to a god I don't believe in."

There can't be a god so evil as to send someone 7 angels then to take them away for no reason

"Cos I got time while she got freedom. Cos when a heart breaks it don't even."

Its hurts so bad I can't do anything; it feels like I'm locked up.

"Her best days will be some of my worst. She finely found a man to put her first."

I'm crying my self to sleep and waking up screaming while she's probably laughing and playing with Jasper. That lucky basterd.

"While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping. Cos when a heart breaks it don't breakeven…even…no."

I can't go to sleep after the nightmares but she probably won't even bat an eyelash.

"What I'm I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you, And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up but your okay."

I was always quit with a dry sense of humor. Alice was always the life the party. I always came out of my shell with her around. Now I can hardly talk about them without choking up.

"I'm falling to pieces, yeah, I'm falling to pieces."

I have to hold my self to together anytime they come to mind.

"They say bad things happen for a reason. But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding."

Who ever said that was an idiot because this is the worst thing that ever happened to me and I see no reason behind it.

"cos she moved on while I'm still grieving And when a heart breaks it don't breakeven…even. no."

Man, Isn't that the truth

" What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you, And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and your ok. I'm falling to pieces, yeah, I'm falling to pieces, yeah, I'm falling to pieces. {One still in love while the other ones leaving}I'm falling to pieces { Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven}"

Damn, If only I had told her.

" Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain. You took your suitcase and I toke the blame."

Jasper loves her. I know that. I love her and she left without finding out. All because I was to scared. Damn.

"Now I'm try'na make sense of what little remain ooh cos you left me with no love and no love to my name."

There's not much left of me and I could never love anyone the some way and she'll never even love me back.

" I'm still alive but barely breathing. Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in. Cos I got time well she got freedom. Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break. No it break. No it don't break even no. What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you and what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that your ok.{oh glad your ok now} I'm falling to pieces yeah {oh I'm glad your okay} I'm falling to pieces yeah{one still in love while the other ones leaving} I'm falling to pieces.{cos when a heart breaks it don't even}

Oh it don't break even"

I'll never see her smiling.

"oh it don't break even"

She'll never see me hurt

"oh it don't break even"

Man, I'm an idiot.