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Dear Sirius,

On my own

Pretending he's beside me

Dumbledore gave me my job back today. I'm going to teach the kids again. I wish you could come teach with me. Did I tell you that they cleared your name. Harry hasn't spoken much to anyone all summer. He really misses you. And so do I.

All alone

I walk with him till morning

Sometimes I pretend that you're here and were planning ways to mess with Snape when I get back at Hogwarts. It's not the same, planning myself. You always had the wacky ideas.

Without him I feel his arms around me

And when I lose my way I close my eyes and he has found me

Now that I'm alone through my transformations. Getting used to do it again. They get worse every time. Sometime I dream your still here and we are together. Everyone here, one big family.

In the rain the pavement shines like silver

All the lights are misty in the river

Now every time I see the stars, I remember the day you came back, and the day you went away. I wish I could see you somehow.

In the darkness the trees are full of starlight

And all I see is him and me forever and forever

The only marauder left, sometimes its more than I can bear, I stay for Harry, if now for him id most likely be with you even now. But he needs me even more now, he's gotten worse since you left and I want to help. Harry hasn't spoken much to anyone all summer. He really misses you. And so do I.

And I know its only in my mind

That I'm talking to myself and not to him

Dora's getting better, pink tips on her hair. She's spending some time with Kingsley, and its good for her.

And although I know that he is blind

Still I say there's a way for us

I find myself looking at our old pictures and wishing. Sometimes I'm talking as if it were you, and you were just trapped in a frame.

I love him

But when the night is over

He is gone

The rivers just a river

In my dreams, we walk through the town, looking at the people. Holding hands and listening to the music of the streets. We were supposed to grow old, to live and take care of Harry.

Without him the world around me changes

The trees are bare and everywhere the streets are full of strangers

But when I walk along the streets awake, there is no music. All the people, strangers. Steering away from haunted looking man walking alone.

I love him

But everyday I'm learning

All my life I've only been pretending

Slowly I'm accepting that your gone, but it's hard. I've lost you twice now. But this time your really gone.

Without me his world will go on turning

The world is full of happiness that I have never known

It's not fair. You were only back for a short time, and I'm all alone again. I hope this letter can reach you some how.

I love him

But only on my own

I love you, and miss you badly. And hope to see you again some day.

Love Always

Remus Lupin

Remus reread the letter, he sealed and addressed it, and dropped it through the veil.