I try not to think about all of the families that have shattered all because of one choice. One knife sliding across your hand decides your future and can cause the ones you love to be pulled away from you. Thankfully, that never happened to me. It took my father a while to adjust but my mother settled in just fine. They loved me. And so did Caleb until he looked straight in my eyes and helped Jenine, destined to destroy what I now know to be Chicago. She died before the job could be done, though. But there are people like her out there and they will take down my home one way or another. My parents died for me, after an attack simulation was raided on the city and the Abnegation fled for hiding. But it is more then that, my mother died to protect me and brought out that old Dauntless side in her. Fortunately, she never did actually go to Dauntless and stayed at the Bureau. But that is just a brief summary of what happened.
It seems like nowadays there are so few people who are actually on my side. Christina, Tobias, and Cara. And even now, things are changing and I don't even know how much longer I can hang onto these people before they walk out on me too. There are those times when I want to curl up and cry and wish the world would just go away. I know of all of the lives that are at stake and feel selfish for letting them fend for themselves but that is what I want. Just for all of my problems to leave me.
That is when I remember my mother's last words to me and wipe the tears off of my cheeks. "Be brave," she had said. And that was right before she threw herself in the way of the enemies and took her own life away. You see, this is where my story starts and if you are to fully understand it you must know what I mean by this.
Be brave.