"Turn Around."

By A.M. Glass

Copyright: October 5th, 2003.

Ratings: (US) T / (AUS) PG / (UK) 12A

Couple: Bianca/Lena.

Disclaimer: The characters from "All My Children," belong respectively to Agnes Nixon, A.B.C. and the Disney Co. No copyright infringement is intended or inferred. The story, along with any and all original characters are the sole property of the author; I think, pesky copyright laws and cannot be used without expressed permission first. I am not making a cent from it, if I did, I would buy a new computer and some other things.

Author's Note: Hello, I'm fairly new to this, not necessarily writing, but to the relationship between Lena and Bianca. I've had the opportunity to read some very nice stories out there and decided to take a shot at it. Granted I think the will be the only one as I'm not up to date as to what's going on and I wouldn't want to mess up on issues that are considered cannon. This story takes place while Lena is in line at the airport, prior to their first kiss.

Author's Note January 10, 2012: This is the first story I wrote about Bianca and Lena and it is from Lena's POV.

Feedback: It's up to you, but I would like to know if I did okay.

Don't turn around, don't look at her, if you do, you'll be lost forever. She's here, her eyes bright with unshed tears, tears that I have put there.

I didn't heed my own warnings... I couldn't.

I couldn't and live, if what the existence I had before she entered my life could be described as living. Perhaps nightmare would be more appropriate.

One I never expected to wake from.

I wish I had never come to this town, had never betrayed her.

My greatest shame is what I've done to her and in the same breath; my greatest accomplishment was to fall in love with her. Sometimes wishes need never come true. I thought if I were strong enough, I could go, leave without saying good-bye, the coward's way of doing things.

But she is here, and I am not strong enough.

I may have bought my ticket, but seeing her, hearing her voice, I know I could never leave...

I couldn't leave Bianca.

If I step on board the plane, I would still be here, in Pine Valley. My every thought would have been on this wonderful, beautiful young woman.

The one who stole my heart just as I had been ordered to steal the formula.

If I am honest with myself at this moment, Bianca never stole anything from me.

I gave her my heart willingly... perhaps not at first, after all, she was a part of the job, one of many.

Yet how can I deny what I feel?

I am in love with her.

For the very first time in my life I am in love.

I always believed that love made a person weak. You threaten someone and maybe they will cave. Threaten the person they love and I have them eating out of the palm of my hand.

I have been and still am on both sides of the coin, and having one more person that that bastard Michael Cambias can hold over me is too much to bear.

Just let her leave... she'll be better off without you.

But will I be better off without her?

Can I have a taste of love and not crave more?

Can I actually turn my back on her?

On us?

When all I want to do is hold on and never let go. I want to be the one who puts the smile on her radiant face. I want to make her laugh, to hold her when she needs someone.

I want to taste her lips and know what heaven is.

But I must leave...

I must.

DO something... she's leaving!

My heart races...

"Bianca..."

I stare into her eyes; I see the confusion in her face. I lean down and taste heaven.

I can never leave her...

She is my salvation, my down fall, but mostly, Bianca Montgomery is the woman I love.

The End.