Just a little story I made up as I walked home. Hope it's of your enjoyment, and if not, I'm sorry for wasting your time. Reviews are greatly apreciated. ^^
Disclaimer: I do not own Hellsing, I only wish I did.
She shivered uncomfortably. Lately her world had been turning into hell. At first she had thought that being a vampire could not be all bad, she had an eternity to find true love and her happy ending. Although she did have to drink blood, but nothing could be perfect. Her master had been teaching her all the skills she needed to know to be a true Nosferatu and the missions has been getting easier and easier after Millennium's final attack. But those 30 years without her master, only having him as a voice that would help her when she was weak or in danger (which in a way made her suspect that it was her own mind creating it), made her realize how much she appreciated him, how much she needed him. Yes, he was a pest in many ways, and yes, he could drive her nuts whenever he was bored, but he was like a father to her. Or that is what she made herself think. She could not accept that she felt something for her master, at least not for the first 10 years. One night, in which Sir Hellsing had called Seras up to have a nice tea and a chat, seeming as there were no missions, their conversation had ended up drifting towards the matter.
"So tell me Seras, what do you see Alucard as?" the young woman picked up her tea cup and sipped at the liquid held in it.
"I…" the Police Girl dropped her head, using her hair as a shield against Integra's eyes "I see him as nothing more than my Master and tutor Sir." A soft chuckle made Seras look up. Integra's face was worn out, but her eyes would never betray her strength.
"Your body seems to think otherwise my dear Seras" her lips formed a smile which Seras had only seen given to Walter, a true smile. "Think about it Draculina." She once more sipped at her tea, finishing it. "Well, we'll have to repeat this more often, shan't we?" the little vampire nodded as she got up. "Now sleep, tomorrow you must fly to Manchester, there has been some alerts of cannibalizing corpses being seen around the streets." With a wave of her hand she dismissed the vampire and got back to work.
"Yes Sir." The young vampire turned around. "Sir?" Integra looked up. "Thanks for everything Sir" Seras' lips formed a little and shy smile.
"Not at all, now go sleep" and so she did.
After that night Seras had slowly began to recognize her feelings, at first feeling complete but slowly realizing that her Master would never feel as she did. 29 years after Alucard's disappearance, her mind had settled into the thought of Alucard never coming back, in which case it didn't matter what her feelings were. But after her reencounter with her Master, just one year later, her mind had unlocked those sealed feelings and doubts. She had begun to refuse to drink blood, avoiding her master at all costs, even risking other comrade's lives for the matter itself. And just a few weeks later she had begun to question her existence. Whenever her lack of blood did not stop her from blocking her thoughts from her Master's, she would think about it. And after some time, she had gotten to the conclusion that there was no point on living. She knew she couldn't starve herself, for her blood-rage psyche outs would make her drink, so she figured out that she would get somebody to kill her. And after a night's thought, she reached to the conclusion that the safest person to kill her was indeed her Master. So there she stood, shivering in front of his chamber door.
"Police Girl" his silky voice made the shivers only worse "Are you going to stand there all night or are you going to come in?" she snapped out of her thoughts and fazed through the door. "I see your skill got a lot better." He smiled, seemingly proud of his little fledgling.
"I guess you could say that Master" she softly said, her voice almost caressing his ears. He had missed her too much, even though his pride would never let him admit so. "I've come to speak to you Master." She walked close towards him. He lifted a questioning brow.
"What about Police Girl?" for a moment she felt as if crying, as if breaking down and begging him to kill her. But she wanted him to remember her as a strong woman, or at least not as weak as that would lead to think.
"It's been 30 years since we spoke, and I thought that I should set some things straight Master." She stopped her footsteps at an arm length from him and sat down on the floor.
"Go ahead Seras" it felt so good to say her name, to see her face. Her eyes locked on his, and somehow he saw remorse and pain in them, hiding behind the determination and the strength.
"You see Master… I've been thinking about this gift, as you call it, that you've given me for the past 20 years. At first I found it as a great opportunity to find my happy ending" she shot him a cold look before he could comment "even if you do think that there is no such thing." He chuckled. How could she think that of him? Maybe at first he hadn't believed in such things, but that night when he had seen her, he had known that she was his happy ending. Her eyes shrunk as a cold look was sent out from them. Something was wrong with her. "As I was saying, after 10 years I came to see that I will never get such ending." His heart shrunk at those words as he took of his orange tinted glasses.
"How are you so sure Seras?" Her heart swell at the sound of her name with his silky voice, and the thought that maybe her Master did care, which was quickly replaced by her pessimism.
"There are some things that one can see easily Master, and my happy ending is one that is impossible." His eyes fell on hers as he desperately tried to find the reason for her thoughts, to crush who or whatever was hurting her, to relieve her of her pain.
"And what are you trying to tell me with this? That I did a mistake? That I should have never given you eternal life?" his blood felt like lava as his words slowly slipped through his lips. "That you hate me for it?" her heart froze while her soul dropped as she heard those words. How could he think such a thing? Not even if he sent her to get some ice in deepest pits of Hell could she hate him. Her heart shouted for the truth, but the game was already on.
"Yes." Those lips he so much desired pierced his ears as they broke his non-beating heart. He tilted his head. He would not let her see what effect she had on him. "In fact, I actually came down here to ask for one last favor, Master." He would give her anything. She disserved everything he could give her and far much more. His selfish act to keep her with him had made her sad, and he could not think of any punishment big enough for himself.
"Please do ask" he seemed so calm. She looked into his eyes, and for a second thought she had seen pure sadness and guilt in them. Her mind was a cruel device.
"If such a creature like you can feel any pity for someone other than themselves" her heart shouted at her, insulting her, hating her, killing her inside out. "Then please, I ask of you to kill me Alucard." Time froze inside his mind as the words sank in. His little angel killed by his own hands. The very thought sickened him in incredible ways. He violently got up from his thrown.
"No." she was shocked by the way he yelled the response at her. She got up, closing up on him and coldly looking up at his crimson eyes.
"I want to die. There is no reason for me to stay in this world anymore!" he felt a sharp pain in his chest as he looked down on her fledgling.
"I will not kill you Seras Victoria!" the anger filled her veins. Why was he doing this to her? She clenched her fists as hard as she could on his chest.
"Why are you doing this to me?" scarlet tears began their way down her cheeks as she felt her strength fade away "Why do you wish to keep me alive?" she looked at his petrified face. "Do you enjoy my pain? Do you enjoy playing with me?" He couldn't speak, he couldn't move at the sight of his fledgling like this. "Do you enjoy toying with my feelings?" The shield had collapsed, her feeling where out on the open, and seeing her Master in this state did not help her own. "Answer me Alucard!"
"I do not understand what you are talking about Police Girl." He slowly grabbed her wrists, softly putting them down. He then bent down, meeting her gaze. "I do not understand how you can ask me to kill you." He sat back down, softly placing Seras on top of his lap. "Out of all the people in this world, it is you Seras Victoria, who I can't kill." He wrapped his arms around her, in a way not letting her escape and in another protecting her form anything. She looked up at her Master, feeling the safest she had ever felt. "Please tell me what I must do to make that ending possible." His soft whisper sent chills throughout her body.
"I only need you Alucard." she hugged her Master and slowly closed her eyes.
"I will always be yours if you promise me you'll always be mine Seras." He bent down on her face, absorbing her fragrance.
"I am only yours." Her whisper was lost as she fell asleep in her Master's embrace.
"I will forever protect you my little angel" his soft voice caressed her ears as his lips sank into hers.