GREEN
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The Surface
sure is green today…
I
smiled, the thought had been bothered me a long time ago, since I was little.
Tick…
Tock… Tick… Tock…
I could
hear and count every second, as there're no more things to do. Damn! I
murmured at my heart. That's why I hated the time so much. It went fast over
enjoyable times, and went very very very slowly over a time like
this. The things I only could do was looking, hearing and counting the old
clock, which was at the wall.
"Hyuga,
why don't you calm a little?"
I
raised my face and looked at my father-in-law. I didn't mean to mock him. My
wife's father was sure had a weird face indeed, his long nose and his thin
age-eaten body. But he had the power and atmosphere for anybody didn't see him
as a low person. He had the pride. He had the kind of things that I didn't, especially
in the time like this. He was one of the three Wise men of Shevat.
I
couldn't calm down in a time like this. My wife is in her old-month of
pregnancy and has some kind of what you all say as a light sick, but you
took her to a place in the forest to a man named Taura for healing her
specially, instead for your Shevat's High Technology Healing. And I can't even get in to see her if she is
all right or not.
Hyuga
Ricdeau shook his head. "I think I will calm down, Gaspar."
Gaspar
looked back to me in confusion. I thought that he did know something that I
didn't know. He was caution. Afterwards, I'm only an enemy, a stranger Solarian
who married her daughter. He only believed in half part, like the others
Shevites and land-dwellers in Shevat who looked me at the same way. Disbelief.
"Melchior
will save her. I know he will."
My head
stood over him at reflect. There's something wrong.
Melchior,
one of the wise men who had been told missing. You mean that he's…
He
nodded like he knew what I'd been thinking in my heart. That, I wouldn't
surprise. My wife had the ability to read people's mind, and speak with them in
telepathic. She could get them from her father.
But, it's not that I would to talk
about. What do you mean he would save her? "Is there something wrong
with Yui?" Why you've been keeping this? It can't be that bad…
Gaspar harrumphed. "Maybe I have
to tell you."
So, tell me! I waited
with patient and silent. But my heart was hardly beating and already concluded
some hard concepts. Whatever it is…
"Mm, my daughter here has the same
things that maybe my wife had gotten when she was still alive."
My heart was inpatient and
trembling in confusion, but I kept my face and body calm.
"My wife had died because of
giving birth to my daughter. Her uterus couldn't keep for birthing baby, and it
wasn't elastic like other women have. Maybe Yui had the same things with her.
The time is too late for giving normal aid. But I think Melchior would work…"
"I think I need some walk." I
stopped his next words, and slowly paced my ways through the door. Are you
kidding? She's Yui Ricdeau. She'll be strong. She won't die like her mother…
There, outside of the house of a
man named Taura, or Melchior, I saw the infinite horizon of green above me, and
the gold light pierced the leaves. The quiet voices of Forest animals were
sound in unison. Not bearing that there's worries and panic in the house near
them.
It's green though…
The same green was I watched from
a place of the Flying City.
I
didn't know why I liked this so much. But I liked; I loved it. The breeze of
wind penetrated people's heart, and made them forgotten all the things… those
things outside.
Green…
It was beauty to me. I had forgotten, when, why, how, I loved green…
For
another term, maybe I didn't want to remember it myself.
It
was so long since that happened. I just remembered it, and smiled to myself.
"Hyuga,
why you don't be like your other brothers and sisters?"
"Hyuga,
do this…"
"Hyuga…"
"Hyuga,"
"Hyuga."
"HYUGA!
YOU ****ING BASTARD!"
"Hyuga,
you're safe…now"
"Hyuga-san?"
I closed my eyes. The
things went so blurry so even I couldn't see where's the real where's chimera.
"Hyuga-san?"
Repeated. I didn't move,
and realize that I was at the Outside Plaza of the Flying City of Shevat.
Yes, it's
true.
And the green was still there… The green from the earth surface I saw through the invisible Force Field of the Flying City. The penetrating wind was still there… and the also the quiet and peaceful sounds of the pool at the center of the Plaza. They were all there.
"Hyuga-san,
are you alright?"
I didn't do anything to
answer the mezzo-soprano voice that blasting through my ears. My body didn't
even move. But I clearly feel her presence… few steps from my figure.
Closed your
eyes, closed your eyes. Now, Hyuga Ricdeau…
My eyes did
what my heart wanted them to do, just a simple verb to do… closing your eyes.
"Hyuga-san?"
A light
touch landed at my left shoulders. The lightning pierced my skin, and I quickly
made a reflect move with jerked myself to the opposite direction. Placing a
stunning and anger sight with my dark night eyes to the beautiful golden orbs
in front of me.
She widened
her eyes. "I… I am sorry… Hyuga-san… I never thought that…"
I raised my
hand, a sign to stop her nonsense. "What do you want, keep on eye on me?"
She half
nodded with a childish action. "Mm, maybe. But I believed that you couldn't
even touch your sword with those kinds of arms, and ran with the legs at your
situation."
Yeah, shut
your mouth. I've already know that… "You know then," I half grinned.
"So why did you come here, Yui Uzuki? "
She paced
few steps towards myself, and placed her small body at few inches beside me.
She was looking down, like just wanted to see what I was seeing before she
came. That made me wonders, since when she was there with out my recognition?
Or maybe I was too weak to feel her presence, or the fact that she was the one
who injured me this bad. She's stronger than me?
"The Earth
sure was green today, Hyuga-san… As usual."
I silenced
for a while, and realized that she was thinking was some less was the same as
mine; the things that I always thought since when I was in the Solaris second,
and first class at the military of Jugend.
I loved
them very much… Since I not have them…
You didn't
understand how it feel, when you don't have anything. When you lost something.
Everything suits you in here… The happiness and the atmospheres, you wouldn't
get any of them at my place…
"They
didn't have these at the Solaris, did they, Hyuga-san?"
Well, that
was impressing… She knows… "Why did you come here?"
I turned my
face, and directly faced my eyes at her shiny ones. I could see my eyes, queried
at hers, and she was querying me too. I once again, place my smile…
"Interrogating
me, eh, Yui Uzuki? Or pity? I don't need them? I wouldn't even thank you for
your kindness."
She giggled,
placed her fingers before her mouth. "Oh, you just said it, Hyuga-san."
"Stop
laughing, and answer my questions."
"Oh," She
stopped her giggled, and confronted me with her innocent eyes. "No, I didn't do
this because of anything, I was just afraid if you got hurt or something."
"I rather
die than being baby-sited, and looked by the Shevites and land dwellers like a
terrorist or something." I am… for them, I am…
"You're
strange, Hyuga-san. Indeed, there's no one that have hard… headed like you "
"Oh, I
supposed that your Queen, Zephyr or even your father, Gaspar Uzuki forced you
to take me some information? Well, they don't have that kind of bravery to do
that. So they choose you, Yui Uzuki? And tried me if I have that kind of thanks
for you for treat me instead of killing
me so I could betray my own country?"
She raised
her eyes. "Well. That's harsh and right, but not definitely right, Hyuga-san."
"There's
something right, then."
"Well, you
can think so. I saw you as a challenge."
I focused
my mind back after wandering my minds in the air. "I see. Challenge, that's an
interesting objective. Everybody had two decisions if they faced the challenge,
Face
it with courage and kept in trying until they succeed and finished,
Or
acted like a coward, passing and ignoring or even running away from it."
"I'm
not a woman like what you've said late. I'd rather be the first."
I
chuckled, placing my hands for my goggles' frame. "What do you want to know?"
"Not
about Solaris, about you, maybe? Why do adore the surface anyway. It's strange for
a Solarian."
I
held my breath, there's nobody who dared to ask that question to me. For some
reasons, there's nobody except her knew that I actually did that, adore. Why
adore the surface…? I could even feel the wind flying over the atmosphere,
and my senses and memories over them. I couldn't bear to remember it, and
answer the golden eyes in front of me.
That's
why I hated women with reflective eyes…
She
waited for my answers…
I
don't like reflective eyes…
"You're the greatest
among your brothers, Hyuga." The golden orbs stared with luminous jewels,
and more like waters that inside the jewel. "That's why you have to do it."
Do
it… Enter the Jugend…
I
never mentioned my feelings to anybody that I knew. That I actually hated the
Solaris so much, especially the Solarian that lived in the Eternak… the Main
Capital First class, higher than mine. Then, I had the opportunity to enter a
better living with joining the Military.
Not
that… No… I looked the emerald shining jewels and she felt like I was betraying
them if I didn't accomplish it. I only wanted she as the person that would be
always at his side, as my mother. I knew, my were not emerald as hers, or
cerulean as my father's… and different from my other brothers and sisters. I
was the only one different from my family.
Betraying
that Emerald eyes mere like leaving her behind and make her full of regret,
like the one from the First Class Citizen that came by for an inspection that
day when … And I knew that mother saw the similarities at our both dark gray eyes.
Did
his father; brothers and sisters too realized the shine on mother's emerald
eyes when she saw the man.
Let's
make a decision… Did I really think that she was crying because she didn't want
to let me go? Or the opposite?
Whatever
it was, looking at his 8 brothers' and sisters would not solve the problems.
They somehow mimicked me as an un-wanted child in the family.
I
was unwanted indeed…
……………………………
"Alright."
My voice cracked the silence.
I don't like First Class Solarian…
"Oh…
OHHHHH!"
I
woke up from the bed of the inspector's house. He was so kind to invite
me to his house, to meet my mother. She was appointed with him so she could see
me. The mother was a person who loved me very much. She was the only one
of our family that saw me in Jugend. She's the one who asked the inspector, and
he was the one who gave his house so we could meet at the Day-off.
She
was the only one care for me in the house…
Fool, that's not her main purpose…
I
was half adolescence.
The
scene was a million blur to me. The voice came out from the door to the only
room that was light that day. It was half closed. The door looked at me like a
devil that released it tongue to distract me to something that was not right to
me.
Mother
was so active and she moved all the way like the man, the inspector who I
respected very well. She looked like a hurt one, the scream she exploded from
her throat like been tortured. But, in her golden eyes, there was happiness.
The same happiness I found when she was hitting me with the pipe when I was a
child.
It's
okay since my beloved mother was happy.
It was a selfish happiness…
But
something I hated about, when I saw the face of the First Class Solarian sit above
my mother and performed something that I'd never seen. His face was like a
snake, as he was happy seeing mother tortured. That when I remembered something
I've heard.
The devil is more like a snake…
That's when I stormed out from
my position, taking all of my strength, ignoring what they're doing and their
faces when they saw me dashing.
I
could never forgot the face of the shiny emerald orbs when blood and small
pieces of flesh of the man who had the same eyes with me hit and stick to her
bare Hawwa body. And the voices, shrieked, and cried I heard when he saw me.
Not mentioning the fiery gold on her eyes.
I
smiled, closed myself to her, so I could make her feel better.
No,
mother, no need to cry for me… I'm all right. It just blood. Not mine, mother…
There's
a voice in a high tone of a woman. "You damned fucking shit Hyuga!!!"
"What's
this?"
My
eyes turned to a man in flaxen. His blue eyes were calm, calmer than the eyes
of anyone else in the Jugend, Eternak, even from anyone in Solaris. He kept his
concentration pointed at the equipments and the holographic thesis at the
screen in front of him.
The
sound of the screen and the sound of the mechanicals instruments were a perfect
background song for all of us who worked to the M Plan.
"Mm?"
He finally peeked the print I held. "Oh, that's one of the tropical forest east
of the Surface. A picture taken to see one of our gates from there."
I
widened my eyes. "There's no way the Underwater Gate could be seen from far
away."
"Yes."
He laughed. "That's right. It's failed one and it's completely useless."
Useless?
"Why
do you keep it?"
"Maybe
it left there. Just concentrated to your works, Hyuga. Don't bother some
rubbish print."
Rubbish
I
glazed at the man who then came back to his work. I was still holding the
print, and I somehow, could see the green of the forest he told as useless and
rubbish.
It's
useless and rubbish, but it's still there… Still there… It's there for the
–lambs-…
I was
useless and rubbish too, and I still here… Still here. But I'm here for whom?
I like surface…
There's
a hope in the surface of the world.
The
green pupil I saw from the photo taken from high above, maybe higher from
Shevat, higher from Solaris.
The
green of the land.
The
Mother of the Earth was caring her daughter and sons, singing a very long
lasting song for every child she had in the whole planet.
The
children was doing their best so they could do something for their Mother,
and for themselves.
I like Surface dwellers…
Not
because they're worth to be fetched as guinea pigs.
They
had something in their heart, so they could go and on and on and on… for
themselves and for the other people, no every living creature lived at the same
surface.
They
had love and pride for themselves, and the ones he loved.
I like green…
It
was so beautiful; every single thing I like was standing and sleeping at the
same green pupil.
The
green pupil gave them the power to do something.
The
green trees and grasses gave them strength to live.
Every
single gust of wind blew through the every green and made the sound of tranquil
melody.
Green
was the one… I liked it… The Eyes of the Mother of The Earth…
"Shhhh…."
I closed my eyes. Once again I felt the gust of wind pierced me softly, but surely. It was so calming as usual, and like she said, I could never get anything this calm at the Solaris. It was only questions, questions and more interventions in my heart for what I was doing.
For the time, I couldn't explain anything to the Shevite. And in my mind too, I didn't want to explain anything for her. She has no rights, and I had my own dignity. If she faced me as a challenge, why didn't she find them herself?
Where should I start to story? No, I didn't want to tell her, I didn't want pity or anything else. The bad memories buried clearly at the lowest grave in my soul.
But until when I kept it buried? Ignored it, the trauma of the past… With no loving in our family and a betrayal of my own mother. I wanted to story. More than kept it, and dreamed about another family, or ignored it by remembering his works as a Guardian Angel to Solaris.
Every time I looked at green, I felt safe… and calm.
No… Something strange I saw now… why I loved green…
My heart ached.
"Hyuga-san?" The Shevite broke the deep and pretty silence, she actually knew what I was thinking about. "It's okay… There's no mother who doesn't love her children."
There I saw my mother, smiling at me, kept me in his hands, when I
had another different memories I used to remember… How the inspector insisted
her and pointed the gun towards us.
There were the emerald eyes in front of me, shielding me
"Hyuga, you're safe…now"
It's green enough.
Yui is a good wife. She'll be a good mother…She's strong…
I inhaled my deep breath. Well, enough walking. I strolled my ways as I remembered the fairy tales of the Surface my mother always told me from an old rotten book when I was still a child, and when she waited me until I slept. There I saw her emerald green eyes looking me with peace and calm… And I saw my little reflection at her forest eyes. That's why I like them. Green always made me calm.
I maybe not my father's son, but at least I was her son…
"WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
There's a cry as I entered the house. Gaspar stood abruptly in shock. I could see his eyes widened, more than the previous me. Maybe I was like him, or more panic in reaction when I also heard the voices.
A small figure exited the door of hope in front of us, as he asked us to come in. Gaspar entered quickly before me. I didn't know what I was doing. But like being resisted, I paced slowly and carefully like afraid that the floor could tore to pieces if I walked more quickly.
Melchior smiled to me when I reached the door as he was teasing me. I didn't like it somehow. "Relax, young man."
There I saw the most beautiful picture I've ever seen.
"Hyuga, father…"
I would always look for any interesting delicate objects when I entering unfamiliar places. But I even ignored two strange tubes with some hard instruments at the right side of his room. I only concentrated at the smiling face of my precious wife who was laying on the divan and the object she was embracing in side of her.
"It's a girl, Hyuga."
I came closer and saw a newborn baby in pink skin.
"I had some operation for her and her baby safety." The voice of Melchior explained. "It seemed that she can't have another baby in his life with this. But, it's better than loosing her and the baby."
I nodded. I placed my hands gently at the soft skin of my daughter. My daughter…
"What should we call her, Hyuga?"
"Yes." Gaspar dipped his
head at me. "I have a grand-daughter now. I shall call her name. But, you're
the one who have to decide it, Hyuga."
They're waiting for me. That's why they were silenced.
I knew the Uzukis could read my mind, when I finally decided. They were all faced the expression of agreeing.
"Green…" I said softly. "Midori."
Fin
This is my Second Fan-Fiction I ever finished. The rest of them are still sleeping at my Hard Disk, waiting to be updated. So, please forgive me for the errors. English is not my First Language.
I think this is my weirdest Fan Fiction. I still couldn't get my Theme Development right. But I hoped you understand. You could always e-mail me on critics, suggest me, and correct me because I still feel strangely weird of this bad fan fiction here.
Midori : In Japanese words, means Green.
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