I really had to get this out of my chest. This fic is nothing like my previous ones. This is more deep and emotional.
I got tired of writing romcoms and thought I should try a new theme.
And Asuma and Neji aren't dead in my story. because I don't have the heart to kill them like Kishi did.
This fic will focus on every single bit of emotion. I want to take this story very slow. I hope I get support to continue this story.
Also I am looking for someone who will add this story to a community. If you do, I will be really grateful. Please let me know!
This is about how Sasuke and Sakura mend themselves and give their love a chance.
To know if it will work out or not, you guys should follow the story and REVIEW.
Heartache is unhealthy. you can fix the outside with a fake smile, but inside your really broken.
She enters the confines of her office. On days like these she just wants to curl up into a ball and shut the world out. She feels empty and dead on the inside. She sits down on her comfy chair. Lays her head down on the oak desk. There was no paper work to do. No patients to treat. She knew no one would disturb her when she was in the hospital for the obvious reasons that she will be working. They don't have to know that today she has nothing to do. She knows she has to put some order into her thoughts or she will forever be broken. She sighs. She looks out the window. It was a beautiful day. And here she was locking herself in that damn office of hers instead of enjoying this day and soaking up the sun.
She turns her head away from the window. Her chest constricts. She doesn't know if she can handle anything anymore. She knows her heart can take only so much and now its so broken that she doesn't know how to pick up the pieces and put them back together. She was a successful ninja. Of course. She had grown strong over the years. But on the inside, in the depths of her heart and soul she was weak. No new jutsu or chakra control or training could make her heart and soul strong. She knew that. And she knew there was only one thing that could make her heart and soul strong. And ironically that was the one thing she was denied of. She lets out a bitter laugh.
LOVE
That was what she desperately needed. Not anyone's love.
HIS LOVE
Specifically H.I.S
And she knew she wasn't going to get it. She damn well knew. She doesn't know how to get over it. She knows she can never get over him. No matter what it is. She imagines his ebony hairs and obsidian eyes and his aristocrat face. His body craved to perfection. Who wouldn't fall for this beautiful man? Of course it wasn't that school girl type of love. Neither was it a crush nor an obsession.
It was that heart breaking type of love. The type of love that will kill her on the inside and yet the only type of love that will save her. It was that type of love that went soul deep , cutting through your veins and rushing through your blood and the type of love that becomes your oxygen, a habit , a part of your survival. Without that love you cannot survive. It was the type of love that wasn't returned. The only love that can save her and is killing her on the inside.
It had nearly been three months since the war had ended. Everything had been back to its place. People now lived in peace. Of course there were inner conflicts of the village. Rouge ninjas and crimes now and then. But the war was over. They had returned home. Most importantly
HE HAD COME HOME.
HE
YES
HE
WAS
HOME
Of course they hadn't interacted much. After everyone came to know the truth about Uchiha Itachi and mistakes of the previous Hokages no one had it in them to blame him for what he did. She didn't know how he could still stand his ground. Even after all this time , everything he had been through, he was still standing strong. Never showing a moment of weakness. Never leaning on anyone for help or support. He had held his head high. He shouldered his burdens alone.
It was when she felt like she wanted to hug him, comfort him. Tell him she still loved him. That she was desperately , hopelessly in love with him. She wanted to be by his side. To hold him, touch him, Caresse him. But of course he had not even acknowledged her presence properly. He would respond to Naruto. But no one else.
It was like he was barely there. Emotionally. Mentally. He was scarred.
She so much wanted to give her love to him. Yet she was scared and afraid of rejection.
Something in her stirred. She wanted to try. She wanted him to listen to her. She thought of a plan. A small smile graced her warm pink lips. It was 5 in the evening. The Rookie Nine and Team Gai were planning on visiting Sasuke. They all had regretted being assholes to him. They wanted to tell him that no matter what, they were gonna stand by him. Even Kakashi, Tsunade, Kurneai, Asuma , Gai wanted to come. Anko, too. They all were worried about him. Tsunade had decided on waiting for a few more days to deal with the elders. And she had wanted to talk to him about it. They had planned to meet him at 6. They all knew he rarely came out of the Uchiha compound anymore.
She got up from her seat and smoothed her dress. She was wearing a simple dress of black color which had a spaghetti strap on both sides and ended just above her knees. She tied her hair into a pony tail. A small smile graced her lips. She soon found herself walking down the empty streets of Uchiha district. She knew where to find him. She was now standing near the main house of the clan. It was huge. It had taken her 45 mins to reach this place. She didn't bother using her ninja skills to reach here early. She wanted to walk and let the cool breeze hit her face. She wanted to be a part of silence that was her only company until she reached the house. She is not sure if she has to knock or just walk in. Had she been Naruto she would have barged in and He wouldn't have minded. But she was Sakura. She didn't know what place she held in his life or if there was a place at all. She wasn't sure if what he said that night still stood or was it void. She sighed . She summoned every single bit of strength to knock on the big rose wood door.
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"I am worried about the teme" Naruto comments as he stares at his ramen bowl. All heads turn up to him.
"Naruto-Kun, I am sure Sasuke needs some time to come around. So much has happened." Hinata puts her hands on his and gives him a warm smile. Naruto is glad that he found someone he can confide him. Someone who loves him more than life itself.
"We are going to visit him. We will make sure he is okay." Ino speaks up. A worried expression on her face. She had long given up on Sasuke. She had opened her eyes to see that love was in the form of Shikamaru.
"If I were him, I would've ended up in the mental hospital by now. I don't know what he is hanging to anymore." Kiba sighs.
"We don't even know what goes on inside his head. Its hard to tell . Sometimes it feels like he isn't here at all." Tenten comments.
"What if he isn't happy being here?" Shino asks. Everyone pause their actions for a few good seconds.
"I don't think he is unhappy, he wouldn't be here if he didn't want to be" Kakashi answers. He knows his students well.
"He is just trying to wrap up everything" Chouji comments.
"This is the time he needs our support. We shouldn't have been so naive to jump to conclusions about him and try to kill him. " Shikamaru speaks with regret. Had he known how much had happened in his life, he would never even think of trying to kill him. He regrets that decision.
"We have done so many wrong things before. Its time we sorted it all. " Tsunade says in a serious tone.
"And this time we will begin with Sasuke" Asuma says.
"You think he will let us in?" Neji asks doubtfully. Cuz he knows how Sasuke is on personal space and thoughts.
"If he doesn't we have to force ourselves in" Lee says dryly. Everyone nods to this.
"I just hope, for once, he will let his guard down and let us in." Kurneai hopes.
"Where's Sakura?" Gai asks.
That's when they notice her absence. They look at each other.
"I am pretty sure she is already at Sasuke's" Naruto says with confidence. He knows Sasuke just like he knows Sakura. There was something about them that he couldn't place his hands on. But there was something in the way that both behaved in each other's presence. There was something they hadn't told him.
"I wonder how Sakura is taking all these" Ino mutters under her breathe. She was worried about her best friend.
"We have two broken people to heal" Shikamaru says.
"If we heal Sasuke , Sakura will be alright" Shizune says thoughtfully.
"I wonder if he knows she has loved him all along." Neji says.
"There's something that has happened between them. I know. I just can't figure it out" Naruto says in a very serious tone.
"What do you mean?" Tenten raises her fine brow.
"We all know they tried killing each other." Kiba comments in a matter of fact way.
"No. There is something that happened even before he left the village. I know they are hiding so many things. And Sakura knows most of the answers. Or if she doesn't, when she asks, I am sure he will answer. Sasuke always had a spot for Sakura. I know." Naruto speaks so firmly that there was no room for doubt.
"If that's so, we should leave. So that we can find out what's going on between them." Tsunade comments and stands up. They rise with her and make their way to the Uchiha manor.
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She stands there nervously and waits for him to open the door. Mins pass by and still no one answers the door. A look of disappointment crosses her face. She wonders if she really should be there. She was lost in her thoughts that she doesn't realize that someone had come behind her.
"Sakura"
That very voice, she would recognize anywhere in the world. Her heart thumps. She slowly turns around. Only to face the devilishly handsome man who had acknowledged her presence.
"Sasuke-Kun" She speaks softly.
He looks at her as if to ask her what she was doing here. She understands the silent question that was lieing in the air. She bites her lower lips and gulps hard.
"I was looking for you." She murmurs. She doesn't look him in the eye for the fear of seeing things of disapproval on his face. She is afraid that he will kick her out. Ignore her.
Sasuke looks at her. He wonders what she was doing here. For three months she hadn't spoken to him properly. And today she was here looking for him. He doesn't know what brought this on. But this time he doesn't ignore her. He thinks she deserves this. It was like he was trying to make it up to her for leaving all those years ago.
And suddenly realization dawns upon him as she looks him in the eyes. He knows why she is here. Her eyes says it all. He sees crystal clear liquid fill her eyes. It contained so much pain. Agony. Questions that were left unanswered. And he knew he was the only one who could answer her.
He slowly turns around and starts walking towards the dock. She stares at his retreating back. She knew he would leave her rejected. A tear slides down her face. She sighs and looks up again to see him for one last time and leave. But she isn't staring at his back anymore. He is looking at her over his shoulder.
She knows this time that he was asking her to follow him. She smiles lightly. She now hopes a little. Maybe. Just maybe she might mean something to him. This time around he is letting her follow him willingly. They slowly walk towards the dock.
Sasuke sits down and leaves his leg in the water. That place held so many memories of his father and his early childhood days. He doesn't know if he should remember all of them. It hurt him on the inside to know that now it was all a memory. He doesn't let his mind wonder back to those days. He is aware there is someone who is also broken , sitting next to him.
Sakura follows his actions, sits next to him. Inches away from him. This time, he doesn't mind. Her presence was some how soothing. He now looks at her and raises an eyebrow. As if to ask what she wanted to know. They stare at each other for a few moments. She knows she is drowning in his black pools. She can't name what she was seeing. They were too deep and captivating. There was a pool of emotions if you looked hard enough. She can't name what they were.
He knows she can see those pool of emotions in his eyes even though his face remained stoic. He doesn't want her to see him up close. He doesn't want anyone to breech his walls anymore. He had struggled to keep his emotions hidden deep inside and made sure no one ever entered that fort. But here she was seeing everything. He felt naked. He wants it to stop. So he clears his throat.
She looks away at the water.
"How are you?" She asks softly, gently.
He doesn't answer for a long time. He looks up at the sky and at her. Then turns to look ahead of him.
"I don't know" He whispers. Because he doesn't know what to feel anymore. He doesn't know what he is looking for anymore.
She understands. He knows she does. Cuz that's what she always does.
"Did you really want to come back here?" She is not sure if she should ask him this. She fidgets. He notices. He is a bit con-tempted that someone asked him this.
"I really don't know" He answers truthfully. Neither of them looking at each other.
Unknown to them, the rest of the Rookie 9, Team Gai, Asuma, Kurneai, Tsunade, Kakashi, Shuzine were watching them. They don't make a single noise. They know not to disturb them. They know they deserve this time.
"What do you know?" She asks as she sighs.
"Cut to the chase. I know you want to know something else. " He was always to the point.
"I was so hurt when you joined Akatsuki. I didn't know what to do or say anymore. It hurt me so much. It hurt me so much to know you were so deep in the dark end. I didn't know how to get to you. I was so desperately hoping it was all a horrible dream and I would wake up from it. Why would you go so low?" Her voice was shaking.
It didn't take a genius to know that she was trying so hard not to cry. The people hiding behind also wanted an answer to this.
"I never intended on joining that damn organization. All I had in mind was to kill the elders. But Obito manipulated what I told him."
At this the people behind him were shocked. What was he talking about? Had he not intended to destroy Konoha?
"What do you mean?" Sakura asks in confusion. Sasuke sighs.
"I had planned on killing the elders for what they did. I had no plans on destroying Konoha ever. Obito lied to you all saying I had plans on destroying Konoha. I had refused to be a part of Akatsuki. The cloak I wore was an accident. He promised to get me to the elders if I wore the damn cloak. And he said it would be easy for him to destroy Konoha and capture Naruto. By the time I was half way to Konoha, I knew Nagato had destroyed Konoha. I didn't feel like going back. I made it clear that day to Obito that I had no intentions of being a part of his group." He sighs.
Sakura doesn't know what to say. She is half relieved to know even then he had no intentions of going completely bad. The people behind could only gape at the new found information. Naruto plasters a smile on his face. A proud one. He turns to look at the rest.
"Told ya. Teme wasn't half bad. And I knew this and I could never give up on him. I know deep down he is damn good" Naruto whispers.
The rest hang their head in shame for not trusting Sasuke enough.
"Would you have killed me that day? Me. Kakashi-sensei and Naruto?" She really wanted to know the answer to this question. It was bothering her to no end. She now looked at him. He had held his head low. Bangs covering his face. She thought he looked like an angel.
"No. " He whispers.
Sakura smiles wider this time. She feels relaxed. She feels butterflies in her stomach. Tears trickle down her face.
The rest of them go blank. What was he saying?
"I wouldn't have hurt you badly with my chidori. I would have made sure you were unconscious. I only fought Kakashi because I knew Zetsu was watching over. That damn pervert was no match to Obito. I had no intentions of letting the dobe be caught. I had every intention to fight him until all my anger subsided. He is the only one who can bear my anger and my hatred. He knows this. No matter how bad I beat him, I know he will get back up on his feet." He now looks ahead of him.
"What's he to you?" She boldly asks.
The rest of them are way curious to know. Its not everyday that you find Uchiha Sasuke answering all your questions. Let alone talk more than three words.
"He is , was and will always be my only best friend. Only one who can shoulder everything I throw at him. I know it because we grew up in similar ways. I know when he is in pain. I know when he is happy. We both work with fists. That's the only way for us to stay connected. Someone who knows never to give up on me. Like a brother" He has a small smirk on his face.
Sakura is shocked to know he was letting his feeling known to her. And the fact that he had admitted that Naruto was his best friend. A brother. She smiles.
There was small droplets of water flowing down Naruto's face. He had known Sasuke regarded him a friend. But today he had admitted that he was his best friend. A brother. Family. Someone Sasuke trusted. That was enough for Naruto. Everything he had worked for had paid off today.
The rest were in shock. They didn't know that Sasuke would regard Naruto this way. They all turn to Naruto to say something to them. Naruto smiles sadly.
"Everything I worked for paid off today. Told you all. Sasuke is someone entirely different. There is a person beyond the cold facade" They couldn't agree more.
"What's Kakashi-Sensei to you?" She was now curious. So far he hadn't said anything to break her even more. She slowly had her hopes rising. She felt like her insides were feeling better already.
"That pervert is sort of the father figure. Not just to me. To the three of us. I had no intentions of saving Karin when she was about to get killed by Killer Bee. I had every intention to leave her. But I could never forget what that pervert drilled in our skulls about being worse than trash. I saved her only out of guilt. He will always be someone I will look up to when I don't know what to do anymore. I was planning on going to meet him today. " He admits. And this time he has no problem.
Kakashi puts his head down in shame. How could he have not put more faith in his prized student? When he regarded him so highly? He definitely had to make it up to him. He feels ashamed of his actions. Everyone turns to Kakashi. Shizune gives him a slight squeeze on his shoulder. As if to say it was alright.
"I am so glad that you opened up. I was so scared that you would ignore me and walk away." Sakura admits. Tears flow down her cheeks.
Sasuke feels something he never felt. He doesn't know what to say. All he knows is he doesn't want her to cry anymore. And this time he decides to break the silence. He asks her a question she never expected.
"Don't you want to know what you mean to me?" He whispers.
She turns her head in shock. Her entire being stiffens.
" I don't want to know. Cuz I am sure it will hurt me. And I am not ready for the hurt. I will break if you ever answer that question" She muffles. Sasuke now looks at her.
They stare at each other for a while.
"I really want to know the answer to this." Ino mutters.
"We all want to know" Tenten comments.
"I am even surprised that HE brought hit up" Hinata says.
"Well I hope he doesn't call her annoying." Kiba says in an unsure manner.
"I am sure there is something else going on between them" Naruto says.
"How can you say?" Shikamaru challenges.
"He never did talk to anyone this much before. And the fact that he is still talking to her should count for something. Obviously something has changed." Kurneai says.
Sasuke inhales sharply. Sakura is afraid of what he might say. She is praying to every god above to give her strength to handle this one answer.
"You remain the same to me. "
Sakura doesn't know what to say. The rest of them don't know what to say either. Did she not mean anything at all?
"That night, whatever I told you, that's what you are to me. But it will take a lot of working out to put order to reach that point" He stops. Hoping she remembers.
Realization dawns upon her. That night. That unforgettable night of both their lives. She remembers every word he had told her. A smile breaks on her face. And a small smirk plays on Sasuke's face. How much she had missed this smirk. She doesn't think twice. She just hugs him without hesitation. A hand ruffling his hairs. Another one clutching his shoulder.
This time Sasuke doesn't push her. Neither does he hug her back. They stay that way for sometime. She decides to let him go. But the smile on her face doesn't fade.
The rest of them go into a shock. What night were they talking about? What had happened? What was she to him?
"She became so happy. Do you think they will continue?" Chouji asks.
"Obviously she does mean something to him. But WHAT?" Tsunade wanted to desperately know.
"You think Sakura will tell if we ask her?" Shizune asks.
"I don't think so. " Neji says.
"Why?" Kiba challenges along with Lee.
"If she never told any of us all these years, what makes you think she will tell now?" Shikamaru says it like its blatant truth.
"Maybe we could coax it out of Sasuke?" Shino asks unsure.
"I am damn sure that neither of them will tell us anything" Naruto says.
"Sakura might say if we force her" Kurneai says.
"She won't. Sasuke prefers to keep everything private. And Sakura would never betray him." Kakashi answers them.
"Damn right you are sensei." Naruto comments.
They look at the two people ahead of them. Neither of them speak. For a very long time they remain that way.
"I think we should leave. They won't say word anymore." Anko states.
"Obviously. Sasuke has spoken two years worth" Gai points out.
They all retreat. Each of them with their own thoughts.
Sasuke and Sakura know that they leave.
"Yo didn't mind them hearing." She states.
"They were bound to know some how." He doesn't care how the reply came out.
"You didn't want them to know what happened that night." She prompts him.
"What happened between you and me remains between us. They know you mean something to me. That's all they should know. I am not going to promise that this will be sunshine and rainbows. It will take time for everything to get back to place. Are you willing to wait?" He asks. A part of him wants her to say yes, she will wait.
"I will. You know I will. We both need to heal. For me to heal, you have to heal. I will wait for you to heal me." She slowly leans on his shoulders.
"Thank you" He whispers.
This is where they will begin. They know this time they will make it right. This is where they will begin. They are two broken people. Working to make things right. And this time they will work together.
You only know the road when you missing home.
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