A/N:Hey guys, this is my new story. Its a daddy james. I hope that you guys like it. REVIEW AND LET ME KNOW.

Chapter 1

The sound of a cry woke me up from my spot sitting at the table with the pile of unpaid bills. I must have fallen asleep after I finally got Mason to sleep. He was fussy, but then again what 4 month old is not fussy at times. I looked at the bills and sighed as I got up and walked over to Mason's room.

I had a one room apartment, and I wanted to make sure Mason had his own room, so his nursery took up the one room and I slept on the pull out in the living room. My place was small, but for the past year this was all that I needed, since it was only Mason and I.

I walked in and went over to the crib and looked down at those beautiful eyes and big smile. I wonder if Mason will have his eye color, he already had his smile, skin, hair, and attitude. I consonantly see him in Mason. It makes it hard, but I love this little boy so much. I picked him up and give him his morning kisses. "Hey little man, how's mommies favorite guy" I cooed at him as I placed him on the changing table. He looked up at me and smiled as always. He was always so happy, and always light up the room. Just like him.

I pushed those thought aside as I reach down and grabbed a diaper, noticing it was the second to last one in the pack I made a mental note to get more. I quickly got him changed and washed up, fed, and in his swing content. When I realized that I had thirty minutes before it was time to leave and take mason to Mrs. Taylor. The nice old lady that has been like family to me and Mase since I moved in last year. She watches him for me when I worked and she is the one that finally made me bite my pride and suggested what I should go do. I slipped my brown hair up out of my face and put my work uniform on.

I got Masons diaper bag packed and scooped him up and headed down the hall to Mrs. Taylor. I knocked on the door with my arms filled. The door open and she stood to the side and let me rush in. Where I placed Mason in his pack and play that I kept here for her. "How are you doing sweetheart" she said once I gave Mason his goodbye kisses and turned around. "I am doing okay" I forced a smile "I know this is scary but just think what it's going to do for you and Mason." "I am only doing this for mason, I don't need anything. I just need to know that he is okay and has what he needs" she sighed and "I know but you said that you guys were happ…" I cut her off. "No that's not what this is about, that is over. But, thank you again for watching him for me" I said walking over and giving her a hug. "I will come and get him right after work" "When are you calling him?" I pushed my purse up my shoulder higher and looked at her "I will do it on my break." She just nodded and I said my goodbyes and headed out for work at the diner.

Work was busy as always. I hated this job, but it was for mason. I was dealing with another biker making a pass at me when my boss told me I could go on break. I was so happy, excused myself from the customer and went out back and took the apron off. Happy to be on break until I realize that now it was time and I had to do this. I walked down the street to the payphone since I didn't have a cell phone, I couldn't really afford it.

I didn't want to do this. This was the last thing I wanted to do. I hadn't seen James in about a year; I really didn't want put the change in the pay phone and call him up. If his number is even the same anymore. But I had to, the little bundle that was my life back home was what had me changing my mind. I needed to do this for Mason.

You see I was James Maslow's girlfriend for two years. Yes, the James Maslow that is stealing the hearts of teens all over with his band Big Time Rush. I was there when he got the job; I was there when he and the guys had their first tour. I knew him very well. So when I found out that our careless nights had gotten me pregnant I had no choice but to leave. I couldn't mess with this career; he would always say how it was his life, and his favorite thing. I loved him so much, so I didn't want to ruin the one thing that he loved.

"So what do you think about the future?" I asked James one night lying there cuddling. I had just gotten the confirmation from the hospital that I was indeed pregnant. It was my favorite part of the day when I could be there for him, to cuddle him, while he relaxed after a long day. "Well, I don't really know. I just know that I am living in the moment and right now you and my career are my favorite things and that's all I need. I am content." I giggled as I leaned up and kissed him. "You forgot fox" "oh, sorry and fox" he said with a smile. That smile did so much to me, and I was said knowing that soon that smile would be just a fading memory "You know I love you so much right?" he looked down at me a little confused but then brought his lips down to mine. Those lips always got me lost; even the thought of them could do that to me. "I love you too Lila" and with the that he flipped me over and hovered over me as he started to kiss down my body causing me to just watch him descend down my body looking him in the eyes biting my lip. Getting lost in each other, another one of my favorite moments of the day. That would be the last time that I would be with him in that way.

I don't know what James is doing now. I just know that he is still living his dream with his career that he loves so much. I don't have internet so I go by what people tell me they hear. I told myself I would keep an eye on him because I didn't want to deal with the heart ache of missing him. But I know that saying goodbye to him was needed for me and our soon to be child I would bring into this world.

I was surprised when he actually picked up. Hearing his voice after a year was a lot harder than I thought. I almost wanted to hang up, but when I thought about that smiley little boy back at home I knew I had to do this.

"Hey James, its Lila." The line was silent and I thought for a second that he had hung up. I looked down in went to hang up in disappointment when I heard him. "Oh, Lila! Hey. Wow. How have you been?" "I have been fine, um I know I am the last person that you want to talk to, but I was wondering if we could meet for coffee so that I could talk to you." "No no do worry, it's great to hear from you. Damn it's been a long time. But, yeah I would love to meet with you and have coffee." I let out a sigh of relief knowing that part one was completed "So what day would work for you?" I asked knowing that soon I would be seeing him again. "Well, um I guess I could meet you at that café that you loved so much..." he paused and yelled behind him "Kendall! We have the day off Saturday and not Sunday right?" "Okay so at the café on Saturday. Does that work for you?" "Yeah James, that works fine. Thank you and I will see you then..." there was a pause like we both didn't know what to say and thankfully James ended it "Yeah Lila no problem, it was great hearing from you… I can't wait for Saturday." "Same, I will see you then James, have a good day" and with that I hung up.

I can't believe that this was happening, I can't believe in less than a week I would be seeing James and ruining his life. It needed to be done, Mason needs the best in life and it's the best that I, alone can't provide for him working at a dinner. I don't know how this is going to go, but I know that I am going to be the bad guy. Something I am not looking forward to. I looked at my watch and realized that I needed to get back to work, and set my personal issues aside for now.

James POV

I couldn't believe it when I hung up the phone that Lila was the one that I had just talk to. I hadn't talk to her in little over a year. It's like she dropped off the face of the earth. I couldn't get a hold of her or anything. I asked everyone and they didn't know where she was. I was heartbroken when she left me. It was a day I would never forget.

"I am sorry James, I just can't anymore" these words she said to me after she told me she was leaving me broke my heart. I didn't understand. We were so happy in love this didn't make sense. I was so confused when I came home to her sitting at the kitchen table and she told me she was moving out. All of her stuff was gone. She had done this all when I was at work.

"Babe you know I love you so much, what did I do? What can I do to fix this? I can't lose you. I love you to damn much." I had tears in my eyes and so did she.

"J-James I am sorry, I-I just c-cant... I just am not in love with you anymore." And I swore time stood still as my heart broke. "You don't mean that, you love me and I know it." I yelled as I walked over and pulled her to me. "Please don't leave me, I love you Lila so much" and she pushed me away "I am sorry James, I just, I have to go. I am sorry. Good bye James." And she kissed my cheek and left. I don't know how long a sat there staring at the door that she walked out of. Watching the woman that I wanted to make my wife, someday, walk out on me broke me.

It was Kendall that brought me back to the present "Dude, Hey, JAMES!" I looked up at him "Yeah sorry." "So that was Lila? Like the Lila?" he looked just as shocked as me and I looked and saw the guys were there also and they too looked shocked "Yeah we are meeting for coffee on Saturday." The guys just looked at each other and then back at me. "What?" James spat at them "Um, do you think that is a good idea James. I mean this girl broke you." Carlos said and Logan smacked his arm. "I think what he is trying to say is that we don't want you to get hurt again." "Guys, I am thankful that you are so worried but really it's just coffee. She just wants to talk to me… It will be fine. It will be nice to see what she has been up to." "What about Sam?" Kendal added. Sam was my current girlfriend that I had started dating a month ago. "It just coffee!"

Kendall just looked at me and shook his head "what Kendall, do you have something you would like to say?" I was getting annoyed. It was only coffee and I dying to see her, and see what she has been up to. Know if she has moved on and what not. Nothing is going to change. It's just catching up. I won't get hurt again, and I know that she wouldn't hurt me again. "All I am going to say is I think that this is a bad idea. She broke you James; she turned you into someone that I never want to see again. When she left you, it was hell for you. I just don't want you to get involved with that again." "Well, I am not getting involved! I am just having damn coffee" "Yeah what can just coffee hurt right?" Logan added giving me a smile. "Just watch out James, I don't want you to get hurt. If I have to be the bad guy to make sure that doesn't happen then I will" I walked over to Kendall "Kendork, thank you for being a protective friend, But I think this is going to be fine". We left it at that and got back to work. I couldn't wait to see her. This week couldn't end fast enough.

Lila POV

I locked up the diner door, pushing my hair out of my face and fixing it so it would stay out of my face. Today was such a long day. I couldn't wait to get home and cuddle with my little man. I made way back to my apartment building. I still couldn't believe that soon I would be seeing James again.

I knocked on Mrs. Taylor's door and she opened it with a smile. "Sweetheart how was work?" she said standing to the side giving me access to her apartment and I walked straight over to the pack and play and saw Mason sleeping. I leaned over and gave him a kiss. He looked so peaceful.

"So how was it?" I knew she was going to ask me all about it. She deserved to know since it was her idea and she was the only person I could talk to anyways. "Well we are meeting Saturday for coffee and I will tell him then" she surprised me when she came over and gave me a hug and I relaxed into her hug. "You are such a good mother, just remember that. You are doing the right thing sweetheart" I pulled away and looked into her eyes with tears nodding in agreement "shhh, don't cry sweetheart. It will all work out".

Later that night after I had bathed and feed Mason, I was just sitting cross-legged on my bed with him lying down in front of me. He really was something else, I never loved anyone this much, except for James. "You know mommy is going to tell your daddy about you soon" I told him giving him a kiss on the forehead. He just looked up at me kicking his feet moving about; he had so much energy and was just learning that kicking his feet was the best thing. I laughed at him and scooped him up in my arms hugging him. "Mommy loves you so much; she is going to try anything to make sure you are okay." I kissed him and walked him into his nursery and laid him down for bed. Kissing his forehead "good night little man, sweet dreams".

I walked out and sat down at the small table and shuffled through the mail and opened all the bills and set them down in defeat and rested my head in my hands and fought off the tears that threatened to fall. "This will all work out Lila" I said to myself and I went and locked the door and crawled into my pullout and cried myself to sleep like many nights.