Uh, long time no see, fanfiction. I think I've abandoned you for quite some time. Lots of things happened, and yeah, got writer's block. Soo… since I can't continue my other works, I present you a new one-shot!

He's Here

A fanfiction by Orihara Arisa

For Rizukisa

Disclaimer: Free isn't mine, but this story is mine.

Pairing: Matsuoka RinxHaruka Nanase

Unbetaed.

"So I want you to explain properly."

Rin rolled his eyes in irritation. "I told you, she's no one but a random girl!"

"Why would a random girl cling to you out of nowhere like that?" Haru crossed his arms.

"Like hell I know!"

Haru looked totally unconvinced. His usually calm blue eyes now darkened, and Rin knew that it wasn't a good sign.

But again, I really didn't know! Rin screamed silently. He was definitely desperate, as he was arguing with Haru for two hours now. And Haru kept repeating that phrase, emphasize on the word 'properly'. Rin, who at first kept his composure, started to lose his cool quickly.

This wasn't the first time since they were going out, having misunderstanding and all, but Haru seemed to be more hard headed recently. Especially now, as he didn't budge at all and still interrogating Rin even though he already explained all that he knew about that girl and their relationship. She was a junior, and that was all Rin know about her.

But Haru still wasn't convinced, and it started to drive Rin crazy.

"I tell you, Haru, if you are insisting that I am two-timing, I really will!"

It's an impulsive remark.

But Haru, after a few frozen seconds, smiled.

And it wasn't just any smile. A pained smile, which Rin hated very much.

"Alright," Haru replied, his voice a little bit lower than usual, "I shall excuse myself."

Haru walked out of his room, dragging his feet. Rin wanted to stop him, but his ego kept him in place.

It wasn't my fault. He didn't want to accept my explanation. Rin terribly wanted to justify himself, but he couldn't forget the pained smile that is the first time since they first date each other.

I guess I'll apologize the next time we meet…

Rin was not the type to ask apology first. But he really didn't like seeing Haru like that, and he regretted his remark very much. Looking at the rain, he reached to his phone to text Haru.

Don't get sick.

Rin nearly pressed Send, but a thunder roared loudly outside, making Rin flinch and let go of his phone.

Crash!

"Fuck!" Rin spontaneously cursed, and checked his phone. "Off? Damn it!"

Rin threw himself to the bed before putting the phone away. Maybe the phone needed some time to recover, who knows. He wasn't the type who like to text people anyway, perhaps except Haru.

Then I have to see him tomorrow, Rin said in determination. He didn't want to make any misunderstanding, this current Haru was especially sensitive.

He really wondered why Haru was that sensitive. Haru's a male, there was no way he would experience PMS (Pre-Menstruation Syndrome), right?

Then… why was he so pissed and insisting? Rin couldn't stop thinking about that water-freak, as he was really, really in love with that guy. A faint blush adored Rin's cheeks, and he slapped himself for feeling his own cheeks warmed up.

Stupid, he was still upset with you! Rin reminded himself. Not wanting to think about anything anymore, Rin decided to sleep. Through the roaring thunder, he slept….

Without realizing what the thunder had to say.

Rin: [Then what should I do?]

Nagisa: [Hee, it's rare for Haru-chan to be upset.]

Makoto: [I think you should apologize properly, and just be patient with him.]

Rin: [But he seriously interrogated me for two hours nonstop yesterday!]

Nagisa: [Seriously? Whoa, Haru-chan must be reaaally upset.]

Makoto: [He's just insecure, Rin. Even though he looks calm and composed, he's actually pretty delicate.]

Rin: [Gee, I never think dealing with him would be this complicated.]

Nagisa: [But you didn't regret it, right?]

Nagisa: [Rin-chan?]

Rin: [I… think so.]

Nagisa: [Eeh? You sound unsure.]

Rin: [Well, too much happened in this short span of time…]

Nagisa: [Eeh, but you still love him, right? ]

Rin: [Yes, of course, but…]

Rin has logged out.

Rin leaned back to his chair, closing his eyes.

Do you regret dating Haru?

He really wanted to say no. He had loved Haru all this time, and yet… he found all this interrogating tiring. Would it make Rin's love waver?

Ding dong.

"Yeess…" Rin reluctantly dragged his feet to open the door of his house. He was visited by someone he least expect to come. "Haru?!"

It was raining, even though it wasn't hard. But weirdly, Haru wasn't wet. Rin frowned, and let him in without any word.

"Let's play hide and seek."

Rin was utterly confused by the sudden request of his boyfriend. "What-"

"Please, close your eyes." Haru's voice was firm and determined, and Rin somewhat complied without realizing.

"Please count until ten," Haru said, "I'll hide. Find me, okay?"

"Yes, yes," Rin replied reluctantly. "One, two, three…"

Silence.

"Four, five, six, seven, eight, Haru, are you even hiding?" Rin opened his eyes, and found no one. Rin frowned, as he didn't hear any footstep, but he began searching anyway.

Bathroom, nope.

Living room, nope.

Corridor, nope.

Storage, nope.

Dining room, nope.

Garage, nope.

Where the hell is he? Rin searched the entire house, but didn't find him. A slight anxiety began to creep to his heart, but he brushed it off.

He was nowhere to be found.

Giving up, he shouted, "Haru, I gave up!"

No response. Rin sighed, as he walked back to his room. He entered the room, and smelled something.

It smelled like Haru… thought Rin. The smell of water. And one more thing,

His phone was right at the top of his bed. It showed the picture of Rin and Haru, both of them smiling widely. Rin remembered that it was from their last date, but he didn't remember putting it as a wallpaper. Rin always thought it was embarrassing, but there it was, becoming his wallpaper.

He looked at the picture again, especially at Haru. That smile, why the hell it looked that he's crying to me? Rin shook his head. No, what the hell. Now I have to find Haru… but isn't my phone broken? Rin was very confused.

Beep beep.

A new message. Strangely, an unpleasant feeling built up in his stomach. Brushing it off, Rin opened the text message.

Haru's gone. – Makoto

Rin felt his heart sank to the stomach. What?

"Impossible," Rin laughed a little, "the hell, it's rare for Makoto to pull pranks like this. And this isn't my freaking birthday or April Fools!"

Rin texted Makoto back. The fuck, man, it's not freaking funny.

A little while later, Makoto replied.

He was hit in front of my fucking two eyes and do you think I am fucking joking?!

And so Makoto had done it.

Makoto never cursed. Makoto always kept his composure, and Rin knew it well.

Rin knew it too well, but…

"Who the hell played with me then?!" Rin threw his phone across the room, and it crashed to the wall loudly. "Haha, this is not funny. This is not funny! He's fucking here he's fucking here he's fucking here-" Rin ran out his room, searching every room, looking for the blue-eyed boy that he held dear. You couldn't just disappear when I am trying to make up for everything- Rin's thoughts were swirling around his brain, and he felt that he was out of breath. He suddenly felt a boulder over his chest, even though there was nothing there. He found it hard to breathe but he didn't stop. Slamming every door, Rin wildly ran around the house.

The rain was getting worse, thunder roared every now and then, and it didn't even affect Rin in the slightest. He was going around his house in an endless cycle, every room he checked was checked for the second time, third time, fourth time, fifth time, sixth time, seventh time, eighth time, ninth time, tenth time…

And he felt his legs weren't able to carry him anymore.

"He's fucking here…"

"He's here, he's here…"

Rin curled to a fetus position on the cold floor,

But instead of crying, he laughed.

He laughed, maniacally, until tears built up on his eyes.

But he didn't stop laughing. He laughed, laughed and laughed, despite the deafening thunder roaring every now and then, despite the sound of the rain crashing to the ground.

"Which was reality again?" Rin laughed again, seemed to enjoy the twisted happiness of his. After his legs weren't too sore anymore, he stood up and continued looking. When his legs grew tired, he would stop and laughed, and then stood up to look around again. Haru's pained smile flashed every second in Rin's mind, and it seemed to fuel Rin's legs to keep moving, to keep searching. Until the midnight, and until the break of down, that cycle never ends.

Until Makoto called his phone, Rin answered with his hoarse voice. "Hello?"

"You aren't coming to Haru's funeral?"

"What funeral?" Rin laughed maniacally. "He's here. I will find him. I will say sorry and everything will be okay. Bye Makoto." Rin disconnected, and continued his searching.

Makoto, in the other side of the phone, couldn't help but shed a tear.

"You should've said it, Haru… about your insecurities and fears. He will never leave you, even when you've left him," Makoto muttered, staring at the gray, weeping sky. "You shouldn't be that insecure… you've gotten yourself a faithful boyfriend. A little bit too extreme, indeed."

Sighing, Makoto called another number.

Asylum's.