by Macx and Lara Bee
DISCLAIMER: not mine. Definitely not! I just play with them and hope I tread on no one's toes.
Author's Voice of Warning (aka Author's Note):
English is not my first language; it's German. This is the best I can
do. Any mistakes you find in here, collect them and you might win a prize
g> The spell-checker said everything's okay, but you know how
trustworthy those thingies are.....
ARCHIVE: yes
WARNINGS: none
TYPE: yaoi
RATING: R, for FFNet specifically. The full version will be up on our website the moment the story has been posted here in its entirety
PAIRING: Touda/Byakko, Tsuzuki/Hisoka (implied), (Touda/Tsuzuki/Byakko (dream sequence))
FEEDBACK: empty inbox seeks emails g>
Note: We gave Touda golden eyes, though someone told us he has red
ones. Lara and I had a long look at the prison cell pics, at the wide open
eyes, and we both decided that well, they're golden. Sorry to all who want
them to be red. :)
Tsuzuki Asato was not a happy shinigami at the moment. It had little
to do with his job and much more with his private life. A life that had
been turned upside down several times. Too many people meddled with it,
too many had changed his life and his view of things, and now…
Now his relationship with Hisoka was going downhill. Not the partnership
at work but their private relationship.
He liked his partner.
Really.
A lot.
Tsuzuki sighed and kicked at a pebble. It bounced over the clean, white
path and ended up in the low cut grass at the side. He ignored it, walking
down the sun dappled way to the small lake that was both picturesque and
peaceful.
Tsuzuki loved GensouKai for its calmness. Others might not feel like
that, but he did. He preferred coming here to every other spot in his own
dimension. Here he was just himself, no one expected him to be something
special, and he had friends who accepted exactly what he was. So, fleeing
from the oppressive world of Meifu, from Hisoka, he had once again claimed
a spot in GensouKai.
It was no surprise that Touda was already there, perched on some rocks,
a black shadow in a sunny garden.
Tsuzuki settled against a boulder and Touda slid down beside him, glancing
at him from behind his visor. The serpent shikigami wasn't the person to
initiate a conversation, but his presence here spoke lengths.
"I think I messed up," Tsuzuki sighed after a while.
He could almost imagine eyebrows rising over golden eyes he had last
seen so many years ago.
"What is it this time?"
"Hisoka."
"Ah. What did you do?"
Another sigh and Tsuzuki buried his head in his arms. "Hisoka… took
the initiative and I… bailed."
Touda regarded him silently, waiting.
"I mean…" Tsuzuki stammered. "He… he wants more and I really like him.
I want to be with him."
"So what's stopping you?"
Violet eyes shot him a long-suffering look and Touda tilted his head.
"I… don't have a lot of experience in the matter," Tsuzuki finally
muttered.
Touda snorted. "You are how old?"
"That's got nothing to do with it!"
The serpent smirked a little. "You never kissed someone before you
died? Fooled around?"
"No!" Tsuzuki spat. "I was busy feeling sorry with myself and hating
my guts!" A calming touch came over the bond and he fell back with a groan.
"I… wasn't exactly popular. The other kids hated me and soon I hated myself.
I was different. So… so I shunned people. And after I died… well, there's
not much room for romance as a shinigami."
Another snort. "Right."
Tsuzuki glared at him.
"So what do you plan to do now?" Touda asked. "Run away again?"
He sighed softly. "I don't know."
"You like the boy. So go for it."
"Touda!"
"Or do you want me to teach you how to kiss?" the black shikigami asked
acidly.
Tsuzuki sputtered. "You? Kiss?"
"Why not? I have more experience than you could ever get, shinigami."
Violet eyes widened, then the glare was back. "As if!"
Touda's mouth turned into a smile. He reached out quickly, snaked a
hand around Tsuzuki's head and pulled the shinigami close. Violet eyes
widened in surprise which turned into deep and utter shock and he gasped
as he felt Touda's lips crushing down on his, a hot tongue searching for
his, and finding. The serpent's kiss was like the man itself – fiery, fervent
and passionate, scorching every conscious thought with a black hot fire
and Tsuzuki couldn't do anything than hold on for dear life, clenching
his fingers into the tight black shirt of his shikigami, feeling the fire
seep through his cloth and skin, run through his veins unlike anything
he had ever felt before.
When Touda finally pulled back all Tsuzuki was capable of was gasp
for air and stare into the other man's eyes, hidden beneath the limiter,
face unreadable as always.
"T-Touda?"
"Yes?"
"What… what was that?"
There was a deep rumble, almost like a chuckle. "That, my dear Tsuzuki,
is a kiss."
"But… you… why would you…?"
There was a strange expression on the visible half of the face he had
once seen in all its handsome beauty. Then a smile curved those normally
straight-lined lips.
"In case you haven't noticed, Tsuzuki, you're our friend and master,
and we love you. It's my pleasure to be of service to you."
"I'm not your master, Touda, how often do I have to tell you?" Tsuzuki
replied automatically, despising the very term. It was worse than the kneeling
he had had to stop right from the beginning. "And what do you mean with
'love me'?"
Touda simply looked at him and Tsuzuki could have bitten his tongue
for asking.
He couldn't mean… He just couldn't… right? Not after Tsuzuki had told
him about Hisoka…
"Hey guys, having fun?"
Byakko, as energetic as always and easily excited, bounced into their
direction, and Tsuzuki found himself embraced in one of the white tiger's
enthusiastic hugs.
"Tsuzuki? What's wrong?"
Red eyes watched him closely, searching for any evidence of injury.
"Touda, what did you do to him?" Byakko asked, and the other shikigami
shrugged.
"I told him."
"You told him…" Byakko gave the black-clad shikigami a narrow-eyed
look. "You told him what?"
"That we love him. And then I kissed him."
"Oh, that's all? And that knocks you off your feet like that, Tsuzuki?"
"Errr…"
"Okay, maybe Touda is a good kisser – not that I'd know, I've never
kissed him before, stop growling at me, Touda – but it's not that you should
be affected like that. Surely he's not better than Hisoka?"
"I…" Tsuzuki blushed.
"Hisoka hasn't kissed him yet," Touda told the other shikigami with
a smirk in his voice. "I demonstrated that I'm very well able to teach
him how it is done."
The blush turned into a mortified look.
"Oh, I see… so Touda stole your first kiss, hm? What a shame. Touda,
you should've left that one for Hisoka."
"He needed the experience."
Byakko chuckled. "Is that so? Why didn't you say so in the first place,
Tsuzuki? You know you can count on your friend Byakko."
"Byak- hmpf."
Whatever protest Tsuzuki might wanted to utter it was swallowed by
a pair of lips again. Had Touda's kiss been almost fierce and burning,
Byakko's was like a thunderstorm after a hot and humid day – not less passionate
but not as hot, rather energizing but not as searing. Still it was like
a force of nature, blowing Tsuzuki's mind away with its vigor. And just
like Touda's it left him weak kneed and – much to his chagrin – pretty
much turned on.
"By…akko?" he blurted, breathless.
The tiger grinned. "That's my name."
"You kissed me!"
"You noticed." The cheerful grin was widening.
Tsuzuki groped for a measure of support and bumped into the very solid
form of the second shikigami. He felt the heat from Touda's body, his arms
wrapping themselves around his waist in a gesture Tsuzuki had never seen
as anything but affectionate. They had often touched, he had hugged him
and the other shikigami – at least those who let him and who could – but
he had never seen anything sexual in it.
"Why?" he asked weakly.
Touda caressed him soothingly, the dangerous claws suddenly very gentle
as not to hurt him.
"We love you. We want to help you."
"But we wouldn't take advantage of you!" Byakko added in a hurry, his
youthful face suddenly very serious as he took in the shocked countenance.
Tsuzuki inhaled shakily, raking his fingers through his hair. "Oh Gods…does
that mean you would even jump into bed with me … ?"
Byakko frowned, slightly worried by his confusion now. A gentle hand
touched Tsuzuki and he tried not to flinch, feeling the heat creep over
his cheeks as he realized what he had said.
"Tsuzuki… we would never hurt you. We would never do something against
your will. I thought you knew that. I didn't want to frighten you just
now."
"I know," Tsuzuki whispered. "I just never thought to hear those words
from you guys."
Byakko gently took his chin and forced him to look into the red eyes
of the wind shikigami.
"Those words don't mean what they would when Hisoka says them, Tsuzuki,"
he explained calmly, seriously. "We are shikigami. What we feel runs deep
and we feel it only for you. We aren't human and our emotions aren't either.
Our love is both spiritual and physical. You never minded it before. You
never minded the touches and signs of affection."
"Yes… but…"
Touda sighed softly and he felt the serpent's touch in his mind, warm
and careful, as if confronting a young animal, trying not to corner him.
"You are still only human despite your shinigami body," the fire shikigami
said. "You think along human lines of thought. We do not desire your body
unless you want us that way. We will not take you, touch you or kiss you
if you do not want it."
Byakko nodded sagely.
Tsuzuki groaned, unable to really comprehend. He felt Touda caress
him again, just a mind's touch against his soul, and he automatically sought
comfort with the darkness he knew so well. It was natural, it felt good,
and it was love.
Touda's love for him.
Oh Gods…