I loved Edward more than anything in this world but when that day came and he showed up at my house 2 months after he left to finish school his last semester of school and he was so ready to throw his life away for me I couldn't do that to him I couldn't let him give up everything for me.
So I reached up in myself for the strength in me to save him from himself. He had left school and he said that he missed me and that he couldn't go back that he had to be with me.
I knew what I had to do, I knew that I had to let him go or he would forever blame me for the fact that he never lived his dreams the fact that he never became someone and I looked at him and I started to cry.
He immediately fell at my feet baby it is ok, I will find a way to take care of you we will be ok. That is not why I am crying Edward; he looked up at me confused "Why then"? I looked through him I couldn't look directly at him while I said this ad I opened my mouth and said "Edward I don't love you".
His face looked up at me in disbelief "Your Lying, why would you lie to me Bella"? He wasn't going to let me go this easily so I pulled another lie out of the hat and I said there is someone else.
It is Jacob we have been together since you left and I love him and we are going to be together".
Bella he almost sounded angry when he said this "you said that you loved me and that you would wait for me, I haven't even been gone for 2 months and already you are in love with someone else"? "How could you?"
"You said that you loved as I did, with everything in you." He walked closer putting his hands on either side of my face as he said "I gave every part of myself to you and you did the same I know you did. You can't fake a connection like that.
Remember when we first made love how we vowed our love for each other and always said that we would do whatever it took to make each other happy forever? Do you remember Bella, do you?"
He was crying now and I could hardly stand it anymore I had to let him go Edward… I started but he cut me off telling me "Bella I messed up but tell me what I can do to make it up to you I will do whatever I can to make you happy, just tell me he pleaded".
Edward I am pregnant. He looked confused and then he said "perfect we can be a family I will take care of you and we can raise our child together". "Bella I won't leave you and our child you know that". I did know that so I pulled another one out of my hat "Edward It isn't your baby". "How far along are you"?
he asked "9 weeks" He said "Bella baby you know it is mine we were together then baby I practically lived here we were together every night I made love to you every day for a month before I went away to school how can you say that?
And he lifted my shirt to rub my belly, I pushed his hand away I said its Jacobs I was being with him too. "I don't love you Edward you need to leave" he looked at me with such a hurt expression that I almost cried "Bella are you sure that it is not my baby"? Yes I am. That's all I needed to hear and he was gone.